On Friday afternoon, the child was sent to the mother's house early and the mother-in-law was put in a taxi home. I went to the supermarket quietly alone to buy ingredients, Lin Jia is not a person who likes to eat Western food, so I prepared Chinese food.

When I lifted the lid of the pot and tasted the taste of chicken soup, I was hugged by Lin Jia, who had just returned from the hospital, and at that moment, the steaming chicken soup and the person behind me who put his head on my back really couldn't tell who told the truth and who told the lie between the woman sitting opposite me yesterday and the man.

"Why are you in a daze?" Lin Jia asked around my waist.

"No, it's just that I haven't had such alone time for a long time, which suddenly made me think about the days when we don't have a house yet, and we rent a house to live in."

"Yes, when we first got married, we couldn't afford to buy a house, so the two of us rented a house next to the hospital for 300 yuan a month. At that time, it was said that there were two bedrooms and one living room, but the living room was also a bedroom, and one of the two rooms was full of miscellaneous items and leaking rain, so nothing could be done at all. ”

"But we're happy." I stood still, listening to the man holding me and reminiscing about the past.

"I just arrived in the city and had nothing, no money, a foreign accent, no Mandarin, and you were really like a princess on the moon. High up, but no one expected that we would be together later. To be honest, even I didn't expect it. No money, no house, you are still willing to marry me. Thank you so much. ”

I couldn't help myself anymore when I heard this, "But, after walking for so long, we also seem to have lost to time, don't we?" Yesterday your intern student came to me and she said she was pregnant, your baby. I just want to ask you, real or fake? ”

Lin Jia hugged my hand and suddenly let go slowly. I turned around and saw him leaning against the kitchen counter, and I was saying what I had said with my back to him, and I thought that if I really looked him in the eye, I was afraid I wouldn't be able to say it. I turned my heart on and asked again, "Please tell me if it's yours or not?" I want to hear the truth, not to think about whether I'm going to be sad or not, not to think about anything I just want to hear the truth. ”

I don't know how long I was silent, Lin Jia finally said in a dumb voice, "That's right, it's mine." ”

When I heard this, I felt blood rush into my brain, and my eyes went black. Next, I felt like the world was spinning, and I even heard Lin Jia shouting "Fei Fei, Fei Fei, Fei Fei?" "But I felt that my legs were weak and weak. Then I couldn't hear or see anything.

When I woke up again, I heard Lin Jia talking in a low voice by the windowsill, "Okay, I know I'll solve it as soon as possible, don't call again." ”

Maybe it was because the rustling of the quilt when I got up was heard by Lin Jia. Lin Jia didn't even say goodbye, and hung up the phone. "Feifei, how are you? Isn't it a little better. ”

I nodded, "Heat up, I'm hungry." ”

The two of us sat at the table to eat, and if it weren't for the sound of spoons clattering against dishes, I would even think it was a dream of my own.

Wash the dishes and mop the floor. I didn't speak to Lin Jia again, and I didn't ask him any more questions. I felt so tired, I came to Mango's room and saw a photo of the three of us when Mango was one year old, two years old, three years old...... I didn't cry, I didn't want to shed a tear. I thought I was going to cry or fight, but it didn't. It turns out that when the real pain hits, I don't even give you time to cry.

Lying on the mango bed, I felt very sleepy, I curled up my whole body on this small bed, I felt surprisingly cold in my heart, it was just autumn, why is it so cold this year. I pulled the quilt and put my head under the covers, but it still didn't feel warm enough.

"Xia Fei? Can I come in? Lin Jia cautiously knocked at the door.

"You go back to the house, I'm sleepy, I'm a little tired and don't want to move, I want to sleep in the mango room tonight." With that, he closed his eyes.

Lin Jia stopped talking, and after a long time I heard a sigh outside the door, followed by the sound of the master bedroom door opening, and Lin Jia went back to the house.

After Lin Jia left, I stuck my head out of the bed, turned on the lamp on the table, and picked up the one-year-old group photo again. I remember very clearly that at that time, Lin Jia's career was just starting, and he always kept going to surgery, from being an assistant to being able to complete the operation independently, he seemed to grow up on the operating table that year. Because I am busy with work, I often take Mango to eat and sleep alone, which makes Mango very strange to Lin Jia. This photo was taken when the three of us went to the playground for the first time on the day Mango was one year old, and Mango was licking a marshmallow, a little man, because the marshmallow was too big, and his sticky face was full of yellow syrup.

I hold this picture in my arms, and it seems to be able to withstand the cool breeze of this autumn evening. I continued to hide under the covers, hugging the photo tightly, for fear that the memories would be washed away by the torrent of time.