Xin Xiaoyue didn't answer, in fact, she didn't know how to answer this question, she was very confused now.

In the past, she was thinking about Wang Xuan, and she was looking forward to being with Wang Xuan.

The two lived in seclusion in Jincheng, or simply in Jinyuan, where he studied his classical literature and ancient mythology. She found a simple job nearby or did freelance work. In his free time, he accompanied him to read classics, walk, grow vegetables, climb mountains, play the piano, practice swords, and cook.......

And so on, all kinds of mortal life, she wanted to experience with him, spend it together, until she was gray-haired.

Although, in the past, she felt that Wang Xuan was too gentlemanly to herself, and she faintly felt that there was no love between men and women, probably when she was a little girl, or maybe she was not good enough. But she still holds on to hope, she expects that she will grow up soon, become bright enough, and become able to stand side by side with him, watch the water flow for a long time, and grow old together.

But now—

A Xiu who appeared out of thin air was like a boulder, smashing and sinking all her longing boats, smashing all the reasons she found for Wang Xuan not to love her, so that she had nowhere to hide, and she couldn't even find an excuse to deceive herself.

At this time, she seemed to be the defeated side without a fight, dejected and fled.

That's it, not to mention that she didn't want to talk to Jiang Yu about making a living. Even if she wanted to, she was not qualified. Even if she is qualified, she is not in the mood, let alone shameless.

Huang Fatzi looked at Xin Xiaoyue's expression suddenly depressed, his eyes were a little dull, and he secretly thought that he was probably sad about Wang Xuan, so he worked hard to promote and said: "As a cousin, let me tell you, Lao Jiu's conditions in all aspects are really good. The most important thing is that you have never been in love, you can let you train it, just your cleverness, with a little thought, then you have to train a peerless good man who has never been seen before or since. Cousin, how's that? Challenge yourself, right? ”

"I don't want to." Xin Xiaoyue shook her head.

Now in this situation, she just wants Jiang Yu and Wang Xuan to get better as soon as possible, and she returns to Jincheng, takes care of Xiaoyang, and continues her studies. If she could, she would like to live the ordinary life she used to have.

Of course, she can't go back to the past, at least, she can't look forward to Wang Xuan anymore.

She wants to adjust the direction of her life, for example, move out first and rent a house; took a few more jobs and began to pay back Jiang Yu; In addition, it is necessary to adjust the direction of study, get more certificates, and will come to a bigger city to develop.

There's so much to do in life. Without her longing for Wang Xuan, Xin Xiaoyue suddenly felt empty, and it seemed that she even had more time and choices.

"Don't want to? Are you stupid? Huang Fat Man said.

"I'm too young to talk about it." Xin Xiaoyue prevaricated the yellow fat man, but she couldn't help but think in her heart: If Wang Xuan confessed himself, would he still feel small?

Apparently not!

He is also a hypocrite!

Xin Xiaoyue lowered her eyes and despised herself.

"I'll go, don't use this as an excuse, you think I'll believe it? If Wang Xuan proposed to you, would you say that you are small? "The fat yellow man is straightforward.

Xin Xiaoyue only felt that she had been slapped in the face, and she was a little uncomfortable, so she didn't answer Huang Fatzi, but said, "He's my brother Afan." ”

"It's not your own brother, besides, you've also been in contact with it, is there a trace of your Brother Afan?" Huang Fat Man said.

Xin Xiaoyue was silent, although she knew that Jiang Yu was the fake Brother Afan, but except for that face, she was as good-looking as she looked, and she really didn't look like it at all.

"Nope." Xin Xiaoyue replied truthfully.

"That's right. Besides, Lao Jiu didn't treat you as a sister, he wanted to be your man. Huang Fatzi's tone was excited, and he also emphasized the word "man".

When Xin Xiaoyue heard these two words, she only felt a mess in her heart, her face turned red, and she hurriedly said, "Don't talk nonsense." ”

"What am I talking nonsense? Lao Jiu is bitter, he treated people very well when he was a child, but he met a kidnapper, and when he finally lived, he encountered all kinds of calculations, and his face was not stable when he slept. Alas-" The fat yellow man's voice was full of emotion, his face was distressed, and he looked up at the sky slightly, "Alas, it's hard to have a woman who looks at the right eye, but it's a pity that people treat him-"

"That's right, my family's nine young people are miserable." Chai Xiu also interjected, held his forehead, sighed and shook his head, and said, "It's hard to open my heart, but it's a pity that the other party has no intention of living in it at all." ”

Xin Xiaoyue listened to the two of them singing as if they were singing double reeds, and she also knew in her heart that they were acting as lobbyists for Jiang Yu, but listening to what they said, she couldn't help but feel distressed. In my mind, I kept thinking of the night when Brother Afan's first arrived at home, and that night the moonlight was bright, and he cowered in the corner, whimpering like a little beast.

Later, with so many calculations and so many nights, how did he spend it?

It must also be lonely and boundless, with some fear of not telling anyone, and a confusion and torment that I don't know if there will be light and warmth in the future.

She closed her eyes slightly, feeling her breath tremble a little.

She can empathize with such loneliness, the fear of insecurity, and pretend to be calm and powerful.

However, she is much better than Jiang Yu. At least she didn't have to face all kinds of calculations that would cost her life, and she still had a longing for Wang Xuan to light up his past years.

"Alas, love, why are you so naughty, I don't love me all the time; Alas, life, why do you make mistakes and often make jokes that are not funny...."Chai Xiu saw Xin Xiaoyue standing there indifferent, and actually began to write modern poems, reciting them with emotion.

"Don't talk about it. I am still young, and I just want to go back to Jincheng as soon as possible to take care of my younger brother and continue my studies, so I don't want to do this for the time being. Xin Xiaoyue interrupted the performance of the two.

Huang Fatzi was still choking on a word, listening to Xin Xiaoyue's words, he hurriedly smiled and asked, "Don't want to do it for the time being?" Is it to think about it after a while. ”

Xin Xiaoyue was silent, turned around and left. ”

Huang Fatzi looked at Xin Xiaoyue's back, and hurriedly said: "Xin Xiaoyue, are you getting along with Lao Jiu much more comfortable than with Wang Xuan, much more freewheeling, and much more interesting?" ”

Xin Xiaoyue paused, and thought for a moment: It is indeed like this:

With Wang Xuan, she always has to find a topic, or he said that he listened silently and acted as a well-behaved person, for fear that he would make a mistake and he would not like it.

But with Jiang Yu, she seems to have no scruples, no restraints, and the topic is also free.

Moreover, Jiang Yu is sometimes domineering, sometimes gentle, and sometimes like a child. Although she didn't get along much, she had seen him irritable, gentle, childish, and indifferent.

But for so many years, Wang Xuan has always been smiling, gentle and elegant, like a picture scroll of a handsome noble son hanging on the wall, even when he first met, he was injured to death, he still smiled gently.

"What?" Xin Xiaoyue turned around and asked.

"How? It's love. The fat yellow man spread his hands wide, and his movements and tone were exaggerated.

"I've never heard of such a theory, crooked." Xin Xiaoyue strenuously denied it.

"I'll go, it's the truth. When men and women get along, they feel bored, then they are not in love with each other, even if both parties have a good feeling, it can't last forever. Huang Fat Man hurriedly said.

"I don't have time to talk nonsense with you, Brother Fan said that he is not very well, I have to go and have a look, and I will make food for him later." Xin Xiaoyue raised the watch in her hand.

"Hey, go ahead. When you're with him, think about what I'm talking about. The fat man said with a grin.