I put down the bowl and chased it out, but he picked up the light work, and in the blink of an eye, he was gone.

I went back to my room, fidgeting. I thought to myself: he must be angry. A proud man like him would never have thought that there would be a woman who would not want to conceive his child, let alone me. I must have grieved him by doing that.

I sighed, but why didn't he even give me a chance to explain? If you run fast, will you be amazing?

Looking at the cold black decoction on the table, I couldn't help but sigh, it was all to blame.

But considering the current situation, I drank it anyway. I thought I'd wait for him to come back and explain it to him.

But I was wrong, I waited until the middle of the moon and the sky, and I didn't see him come back, and I was depressed: a dignified manly man, do you have to stay home at night for such a thing?

However, after asking his subordinates, he learned that he had entered the palace at the emperor's secret edict as early as daytime.

But the palace gate has long been closed, where is he now? Was it sent out by the emperor?

But he is now a criminal, and it should not be appropriate for him to show his face outside.

But the emperor's order is difficult to disobey, if he really goes, wouldn't it be dangerous?

Or is he really angry with me and doesn't want to come back to see me?

After thinking about it, I still felt that the former possibility was more likely, and suddenly my heart was pinched, and I didn't sleep much all night.

I thought he would come back the next day, but for several days he had no news, and even Xue Rang didn't know where he went.

The more I thought about it, the more I felt that something was wrong, even if the emperor sent him to do something, he should not go alone, at least he should have brought Xue Rang.

I asked Xue Rang so. But he only comforted me with a calm face, saying that he would be fine.

But where can I listen? But I couldn't do anything, so I could only do it in a hurry.

In this way, five days passed without thinking.

On the night of the fifth day, I was still tossing and turning, and seeing that it was past midnight, but I did not feel the slightest sleep, and I lay on the bed uncomfortably, so I wanted to walk in the courtyard.

As soon as I sat up, before I could light the light, I heard the sound of the door pushing, and my heart jumped. "Who?"

The visitor didn't answer, but walked quickly to the bed and hugged me into his arms. "Yan'er."

I was shaken. "Niankong?!"

"It's me." He let go of me, lit the lamp on the couch, looked back at me, but he was stunned, his big hand touched my cheek, and his tone was full of pity: "I haven't seen you for a few days, how can you become so haggard?" ”

When I heard this, my nose was sour, and the fear of the past few days came to my heart.

"It's not you yet, just leave, don't even say hello."

Tears fell uncontrollably as he spoke, and he couldn't help but curse himself: Yan Linxuan, when did you start crying? But I was still very aggrieved in my heart.

"It's been five days, you haven't heard anything at all, I'm worried about your injury, I'm afraid that something will happen to you. I'm still wondering if you're angry with me because you're not coming back. ”

He scrambled to wipe my tears. "What nonsense, how could I be mad at you? It's too late for me to hurt you. He said he was anxious to kiss me on the lips.

I broke away from him and stopped crying. "What the hell are you doing?"

He was stunned and didn't say anything.

I thought it was probably a very secret matter, so I didn't ask any more questions.

"Are you hurt?" My hands unconsciously groped around him.

"No, Yan'er, I'm not hurt, don't worry." He said hurriedly.

"How could I not be worried?!" Even though he's back to me now, I can't stop being afraid. "Why didn't you tell me and left, and it would be so many days to leave?"

He cupped my face. "I was going to tell you that day, but ......," he paused.

I suddenly thought of the matter of the avoidance soup, and I was about to open my mouth to explain, but my lips were sealed by him. He kissed and sighed: "Yan'er, I miss you so much." ”

For some reason, I felt that he was deliberately avoiding the matter of avoiding the child, but I didn't want to.

I turned my face away from his lips. "Empty ......"

As soon as I spat out two words, his lips were closed by him, and I felt his hand roaming around my waist.

I dodged again. The content behind "I have something to say......" was blocked by him again, and his hand gradually moved up and rubbed gently.

I don't give up, try again, this time straight to the point: "Avoid child soup!" ”

He paused, let go of me, and sighed helplessly. "Are you sure you want to talk about this now?"

I nodded.

"Okay, you say, I'll listen." His expression became serious

Seeing him like this, I didn't know how to speak, so I had to start my draft again.

Seeing that I was silent for a long time, he spoke: "If you don't say it, then I'll say it instead." ”

I was a little taken aback and nodded.

He took my hand and said softly, "Yan'er, if you're worried that I'm angry because of this, you don't have to. Although I was really angry at the time, I was not angry when I thought about it later. You come from another world, and the world in your heart is different from ordinary women. You are unrestrained and yearn for freedom, how can I bear to use the rules of this life to restrain you? Being able to meet, know, and fall in love with you is a great gift from God, how dare I be greedy? It is enough to have you in this life. ”

He confided his heart word by word. Every syllable, every pause, hit my heart just right, and it shook me greatly.

A tear fell on the back of his right hand. I looked down and saw that the teardrop was covering the scar from the previous arrow wound.

He took my hand and sucked away the tears, kissed the scar with pity, and added, "So if you don't want children, we don't want them." ”

"Fool, what do you know?" I choked. "I was ...... before I mean, before I came here, I was really reluctant to get married and have children. I had a younger brother in my previous life......"

I began to talk about how I got along with my brother since I was a child, and how we went from being a brother and sister who talked about everything, step by step, to the point where he drove me off a cliff. tells how he was stubborn and caused his mother to cry every day, making his father beat his chest.

"In my previous life, I witnessed that extremely failed educational experience, so I thought that if my child was like this in the future, it would only make me miserable, so I might as well simply not bring him into this world, but this is only one of the reasons."

He stroked my hair and told me to snuggle into his arms and continue to listen.

"Another reason is that I've seen too many mothers who see their children as everything in their life after they're born. Mother's love is great, but I don't want to live like that. Because after a long time, one day you will find that you have lost yourself. How sad it would be if a person had no place for himself in his life, but always lived around others! ”

When he heard this, he turned his face to look at me, and there was a look of surprise in his eyes.

I knew that my idea was too extreme for him, but I didn't care.

I tightened my arms around his waist and continued, "Either of these two reasons is extremely selfish. In my previous life, I thought I had seen a lot of things, but in fact, I didn't know what true love was until I met you. ”

He smiled at me, his eyes full of surprise.

"From the moment I met you, there was no more me in my life, but I was willing to do it. Because after I found out that I was in love with you, I suddenly understood one thing: in this kind of selfless love, I did not give up on myself, but in the process of loving you, I unconsciously found my own shadow from you. So in my time and space, there is such a saying: people who love each other will become more and more similar when they are together for a long time, not only in temperament, but even in appearance, I think this is probably because they are always in the process of love, looking for their own shadow from each other's body, right? ”

"Yan'er!" He couldn't help but call me, with excitement, appreciation, and recognition in his eyes.

I smiled slightly and continued: "Niankong, I love you, I love you so much that I don't know how else to love. So I hope that there can be a life similar to you in this world, a life that integrates the blood of you and me. ”

His body trembled slightly.

I continued, "So I'm willing to have children for you, many, many children. But now is not the right time, I know that you are not willing to surrender to Yue Xiongqi. Whether you want that supreme position, or if you want to control the relations between the four countries, I will accompany you. ”

I looked up at him, and there was disbelief in his eyes. Yes, he probably didn't think I could guess that he had a long-term plan.

"When your wish is fulfilled, we will have many, many children, okay?"

Hearing this, he gasped violently. "Yan'er...... Yan'er ...... How can I think of the sky, how can I deserve to be treated like this by you! ”

I smiled and didn't say a word, met his lips, and kissed him.

His kiss deepened, but he suddenly stopped and looked at me inquiringly.

I knew what he meant, so I put my arms around his shoulders and whispered in his ear, "You...... Lighter ......"

******

After a long night, he was still woken up by his kiss the next morning. I hugged him and whispered, "Last night...... You scared me. ”

He cupped my blushing face. "I listened to your words yesterday, and I couldn't help myself, if you don't like it, I won't be like that anymore."

"It's okay......"

He was stunned and chuckled. "It doesn't matter."

After breakfast, a thoughtless mind disappeared.

Where did it go?

I searched the front yard and the back yard but found no one. After some breathing, he hurriedly went back to the house and sat down, and couldn't help sighing: This body is really delicate. Suddenly, a thought flashed through me: it couldn't be because of what I did, right? So I couldn't help but slander him for a while.

Suddenly, the door was pushed open.

Seeing that it was him, I casually asked, "Where have you just been, I have searched for you everywhere but I have not found anyone." ”

When I looked up and saw what he brought to me, I couldn't help but be stunned.

It was a bowl...... Avoid child soup.

"Nian Kong...... "I was worried.

He smiled. "Drink it."

Suddenly, my heart was moved, and I was stunned for a moment.

He sat down next to me and touched my head. "Silly girl, we all talked about it yesterday, forgot?"

I haven't forgotten it, but I was still shocked by his act of personally bringing me the soup to avoid children.

After all, he is an ancient, and in feudal society, I am afraid that there is nothing more important than heirs.

Seeing that I still didn't move, he reluctantly scooped up a spoonful and brought it to my lips, and I reacted and swallowed it in one gulp.

He fed me spoonful by spoonful, and I drank it in sip, always staring at him.

After drinking the medicine, he put the medicine bowl back on the table, met my eyes and asked, "Why are you looking at me like this?" ”

I smiled and replied, "I just think it's a great blessing that the people I like are also happy with me." ”

He smiled. "Very much." After speaking, he kissed me on the lips and shared the bitterness in my mouth.