After my mother slept, I rested my head on my hands but couldn't sleep at all, my mind was that I was sent to a mental hospital for a while, and the face of Little Cream and Mango for a while, which disturbed me, picked up my bag and tiptoed out of the room, my mother had no liquids, and I didn't need to make rounds at night, and after explaining to the nurse at the nurse's station, I went to Vivian's.

"I'll go, why is your face so haggard? Could it be that the two of you have had a lot of nightlife lately? ”

", what's the matter?" I glared at her, "Get me a soda, I'm thirsty." ”

"Sister, if you come to my bar to drink soda, why don't you go to the 24-hour convenience store in front of your hospital, there are any flavors and styles."

I sat across from her, silent, holding my chin in my hands, looking worried.

Vivien motioned to the clerk and offered me a glass of soda.

"What the hell is going on? Normally, it's not a good thing to come to me at this point. ”

"My mom is hospitalized."

"How's Auntie?"

"I had high blood pressure and found out that I had something in my adrenal glands and was ready for surgery. Now my family is about to become a mess, Lin Jia is going to send me to a psychiatric hospital because of my emotional instability, my two children have no one to take care of, and my mother has to have surgery. ”

"Why did you send you to a psychiatric hospital?"

"Because I quarreled with him," I showed my hands to her, "at that time, it was actually a panic in my heart, sometimes you know, after suffocating internal injuries, there is nowhere to vent, you can only rely on hurting yourself to make yourself more comfortable." ”

"You're not going to hurt him? Do you have to be cheap? ”

"Who am I hurting? I can't afford to hurt anyone, so I can only vent my anger by hurting myself. Am I hurting a child? Or am I hurting my mom and dad? Did I hurt Lin Jia? I shook my head, "I really think life is too difficult, I don't know if everyone's life is so difficult or if it's just me who lives alone?" Is it because God doesn't like me? ”

I swallowed the soda in one gulp, it was too faint, "Bring me a bar?" ”

"Aren't you still taking care of your aunt in the hospital? I can't give you wine, what if you get drunk later. Vivien glanced at me, "You, it's just that your ability to bear it is too poor, give me a look at things, and I'll sort them out for you." ”

"How?"

"What can be done, what can be done in a hurry, what must be done, every row of things, can always be divided into one, two, three."

"My mom is the most important, my mom recently had surgery, and she hasn't done it yet, just because she hasn't been in contact with the professor."

"Uh-huh, what's next? What else? ”

"Mango and Little Cream are not taken care of, Mango is on vacation, I am angry when I talk about this, I wanted my mother-in-law to take care of the child for me, but she said she wanted to help my sister-in-law take care of the ......"

"Stop, stop, don't tell me about these trivialities, just talk about you."

"There is no one to take care of the child."

"Anything else?"

"I want to go to work, Lin Jia wants to go to work."

"Actually, to put it bluntly, there are just two things, the child is not in charge, the old man is going to be hospitalized, you two are too busy at work, right?"

"Then why don't you consider getting a babysitter?"

I gave her a blank look, "I think it's not something to do." ”

"You've thought of a solution yourself, what's the hurry?" Vivien pinched my face, "Look at your face, look at what you've made yourself cheap?" I don't want to see your face, I'm in my 20s, I don't have a little vitality, I came up and told me that those families are trivial, you, she doesn't look at it, she doesn't look at it, she doesn't look at it, I don't look at someone to see it, just so that you don't have to go back to pretend to be a grandson every day. ”

"But ......"

"What are you?"

"I just can't get angry in my heart, why don't you show it to her."

"Then what should I do, you find her theory? Did you theorize with Lin Jia and get results? Didn't you hurt yourself in the end, and people still think you are unreasonable? Instead, I'm going to send you to a psychiatric hospital? You, playing suicide in the hospital is purely a slap in the face Lin Jia, it's strange that he can be good-tempered to you. ”

At this moment, I suddenly received a message, it was the head nurse, what are you doing sending me a message in the middle of the night, I clicked on it.

"Feifei, you can rest for a few days, it's not that I'm afraid of you, it's just that I simply feel that you may be too stressed and need to rest."

I flashed the text message to Vivien, "Maybe a blessing in disguise." ”

"You, don't panic when things happen, you always can't hold your breath." Vivien shook her head.

I nodded, thinking about going to the babysitter tomorrow.

"What are you stunned about talking to you?"

"It's okay," I said, looking at Vivien, "Vivien, thank you." ”

"Thank me for what?" Vivien took a glass of B52 and glanced at me, "There is no beginning or end to the speech." ”

"I don't have a place to say these things on weekdays, I can't talk to my colleagues about Lin Jia, you know we are all in the hospital, I can't say how depressed I am, this will make others see jokes, at home I talk about Lin Jia's things, my mother always hopes that I will endure it, I hope that I and Lin Jia will have a good time, don't make trouble. I don't like to see my in-laws, and I don't have any other friends, so sometimes I feel that my life is quite depressed. ”

Vivian touched my head, "Born as a human being, that's it, everyone suffers, only self-transcendence." You, if you are unhappy, come to me, maybe you will be in a better mood when you listen to the song, remember that there is nothing more happy than being alive, there are no people, there is nothing" Vivien looked at me with a smile.

I looked around, "Why didn't I see your little boyfriend?" ”

"Broke up," Vivien poured another glass of wine and looked at me with a smile.

"It's only been a few days ...... I'm a little embarrassed that time when I didn't have a strong love for dinner." ”

"That's no way, emotional things can't be forced, you know I'm the best at breaking up, if you're like me, if you can be decisive, you may not have so many troubles."

I lay on the table, staring at Vivian with my eyes, cautiously, "Vivian, are you still thinking about ......?"

"Shhhh Don't ask me for secrets. It's not good for children," Vivienne still had a smile on her bright face, and she couldn't tell what was going on in her heart, "Don't ask about other people's affairs, just take care of yourself first." ”

"It's also "I pouted, "When can I live a little easier, I feel that I am a very bad person, and even life is so difficult, it is really in vain for me to come to the world." ”

"People, when they are in trouble, I didn't say that all living beings are suffering, you, go back quickly, go back and think about what to do. It's a big deal to get a divorce if you live aggrieved, why do you have to be wronged? ”

"I have two children, divorced, what about the children, I have no father since I was a child, I can't let my children be without a father."

"There are more people who don't have a father, you yourself are not strong, you can't complain that you don't have a father, you and your husband quarrel every day, and the children don't know? The child's heart is sensitive. ”

"I ......"

"Don't worry about me, go and deal with your most important things first, take care of your mother, and the rest, you can deal with it when your aunt is well. If you really can't get busy one day, you must call me, do you hear me? ”

I smiled and said, "Thank you." ”

Look at the time at one o'clock in the morning, I really have to go back, and I feel much better to have someone to listen to me complain.

Saying goodbye to Vivian, I left the bar and went back to the hospital, my mother's breathing was steady, proving that I had slept well, and I lay down gently, although I still couldn't sleep, but I was not so irritable anymore.

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