11. Self-Statement
I turned around a little startled, and the face just now was me.
I really want to ask Hanging Xing, I have something to do with him, but I don't dare, I feel that it is not a good memory, once I remember, maybe my life will be turned upside down, and the war will be chaotic.
He followed me silently, without saying a word, and returned the way he came, the lights still shining, the pastries still sweet, black and white gone, but the atmosphere was silent.
I said goodnight, went back to my room, and shrunk myself under the covers, thinking about the scene, which was first in total darkness, and then a red lantern appeared, hiding everything behind me, except for the skulls arrayed in front of me.
Twice, once in my sleep and once in my wakefulness, I was slowly thinking about something, maybe from a past life, maybe from the future.
Is it a coincidence that the closer I get to the hanging star, the more pronounced this symptom becomes?
That's it, let's think about how to get out first, although I promised Hanging Star to start as a friend, but I can't stay here with him forever, no matter what relationship I have with Hanging Star, Qi Re is still waiting for me, I can't let him wait too long.
I pondered it a little too much, and I didn't fall asleep until 5 o'clock.
Fortunately, I didn't have those bizarre dreams again, and I slept very soundly. I woke up feeling refreshed, my change of clothes was lost with my suitcase, and I felt like I should go to the supermarket. When I opened the door, I saw a neat pile of brand-new clothes in the doorway, and a few inconspicuous cigarette butts next to them, hanging in the corner.
Did Hanging Star stay here for a long time yesterday?
He is very good, but he attaches too much importance to other people's emotions, to the point of losing himself, and to the point that when others frown and hang their heads, he trembles and trembles.
I took a shower and changed my clothes to look for him, he was cooking in a white apron, and he was as virtuous as a newlywed daughter-in-law. And black and white, leaning against the door frame, knocked on the door one by one, making a knocking sound, like a scumbag urging his little wife. So I went over and knocked on the door, and smiled at him, and when I saw that the knock could not compare to me, I changed my name to Meow, and I also shouted that I was hungry, like two debt collectors who were not at peace.
He had to touch his head one by one to appease.
When it came to me, I subconsciously dodged, he sighed softly, still rubbed his hair hard, and then went back to cook satisfied.
"I'll want to go out and hang out on my own later."
"Okay."
"You're not afraid of me running away?"
"Don't be afraid." You can't escape. "One month."
I was a little stunned, and I heard the unswerving determination of loyalty from this sentence. It's okay, January is January.
"I want to talk to Qi Re, otherwise he will be worried."
He was silent for a long time, and I thought he wouldn't answer, and the gentle and shallow word "good" came out of his mouth with a little unwillingness.
I lowered my head and thought in my heart about how to talk to Qi Re, the indescribable current situation, the excuses I carefully made, in front of Qi Re, would only turn into a lie that could not stand at all, and it would be shattered in the wind in an instant.
"Hot hot, I have one thing I have to do, see you in January." The short words and the solemn and firm tone of the voice, I hope he can understand me.
The inexplicable sense of guilt in my heart for the hanging star made it difficult for me to make the decision to escape. The only way to solve the problem is to know the past and face the present.
"Hang Xing, tell me a story, I want to hear a very long and beautiful story."
"Do you really want to hear it?"
With some sort of determination, I nodded heavily, "Hmm." ”
Hanging Star self-report.
A long, long time ago, I forget how long, there was a boy hanging upside down on the tree, like a dormant bat, it was a very thick tree, the tree itself formed a hollow, quite a bit of a ghostly neatness, there was a Buddha statue enshrined inside, the boy also forgot how many years he had been in the tree, as if unconsciously, he only knew that this god had never appeared, the rings of the old tree added round and round, and received more and more incense, he looked at the shape of the people, bowed down reverently, this lively, in the middle of the night it seemed more and more lonely.
For hundreds of years, the full moon has been missing, and no one can see me.
Until one day, a female student came here, the weather was not good that day, but it was a rare good day, mortals are always superstitious, so there were many people that day, she was wearing a school uniform, a light blue cotton short jacket top, a slight waist, it seemed that the body was excellent, the cuffs were widened into a flared shape, the black skirt naturally drooped to the knees, the white gauze socks and black round cloth shoes were integrated, and the slim stood out in the crowd.
Dragged here by her mother to worship, she walked very slowly and reluctantly, and her mother urged, "Hurry up." ”
"I don't have much more to ask for." Her expression was a little indifferent, "Besides, mother, I don't believe this." ”
"Smack!" Her mother snorted softly, "How can you say such things in front of the Buddha!" Then he folded his hands and said silently, "The Buddha is forgiving, the Buddha is forgiving, don't worry about her." Amitabha. ”
"Come here!" She beckoned.
The girl sighed, knelt down in front of the futon, folded her hands, looked up at the shrine in the tree, looked at her in surprise, and turned to look at her mother, "Mother, what do you see in that tree?" ”
Her mother looked at her reverently, "It's nothing, did you see the squirrel?" The people of the village said that seeing the squirrels would be fulfilled. ”
"Well, I didn't see it clearly for a while, it should be a squirrel, then you can ask for it." My gaze met hers, and she didn't dodge, looking straight at me, her eyes full of doubt.
"You kid, I'm not asking for you, you're graduating from high school soon, I have to ask God to worship Buddha to find a good marriage for you." Her mother said earnestly, "In such a world, you can read a book is already the first in the village, and I always hope that you can live a better life." ”
"I...."She wanted to speak and stopped, probably because she couldn't bear to touch her mother's heart, so she wanted to worship and worship, and let her mother ask for peace of mind.
They didn't linger long, they finished their prayers and left, and I just remember that she turned around and stuck out her tongue in my direction at the end, like a cute cat stealing fish.
I looked behind me in this direction, and there was no one.
She can see me.
In the smoke of incense, I was a little dazed.
I haven't seen her for a long time, and when you're waiting for someone, time flies very slowly.
Seeing her again, she was still dressed for the first time, and she came in the afternoon when no one was around, "Hello." ”
Xu was homesick, my throat was hoarse, I couldn't produce any syllables, I tried to open my mouth wide, and it took a lot of effort to squeeze out a "good".
She walked closer, almost face to face, scrutinizing me. Over the years, most of the women I have seen are shy, but she is generous and does not shy about things.