The second day was the day when Ah Ran arrived in Shengjing.

He arrived early in the morning, but I didn't see him.

I went to look for him in his yard, but was stopped by Zhu Yu, who was guarding the door.

"Girl, Childe said that no one is allowed to enter without his permission."

"Not even me?"

My heart was getting a little flustered.

"What's wrong with him? Didn't you say it was unharmed? Why lock yourself in the house? ”

"Childe is fine, but because of the soft work, the internal force has not fully recovered. In addition, the journey was tiring and I was a little tired, so I rested when I came back. ”

"Oh......"

I said yes, but I was still a little worried. But after looking at the rain that stopped in front of him, he still went back to his yard.

Let's let Ah Ran have a good rest first.

However, for five days in a row, Ah Ran was closed to me.

But others, such as Zhu Yu and his other subordinates, and even the doctor who regulated his breath, went in and out of his bedroom many times. But if I go to see him, I will be stopped at the door.

After a long time, I couldn't help but think about it, remembering his alienation from me after listening to Xiao Jifeng's provocative words that night.

He didn't really mean to avoid me, did he?

What the hell did he think?

He was angry that I believed Ling Niankong so easily, and blamed me for stupidly choosing the latter between him and Ling Niankong?

Or is he blaming himself? Thinking that if I hadn't lost me, it wouldn't have happened? ……

The more I thought about it, the more sad I felt in my heart, not because of what I had experienced, but because of Ah Ran's sadness.

******

It was night, and I stepped on the moonlit and starry night and came to the door of Ah Ran's bedroom.

"Girl......" The guard at the door saw me, and his face suddenly became bitter.

I smiled helplessly and comforted:

"Don't worry, I won't go in, I just want to sit at his door for a while and talk to him."

The guards breathed a sigh of relief and consciously avoided it.

I sat down on the threshold of Ah Ran's bedroom and rested my head gently against the doorframe.

"Ah Ran, it's me, can you hear me?"

The candles in the house weren't lit, and there was no response from inside.

I continued: "I'm just a little bored and want someone to talk to, just listen to it, ignore me. ”

I picked up a strand of my hair, twisting it again and again.

"Do you know you haven't been out of the house in a few days?

Five days, five whole days.

Aren't you stuffy? Or do you want to experience what life was like when I was a kid?

If that's the case, you're overdoing it.

I couldn't get out of the East Palace at that time, but I couldn't get out of the dormitory......

At that time, I dreamed of going outside the palace, but when I went out, I realized that the outside was not good at all......

I still like it the most when I was a child, when you came over the wall every day to see me, bringing me delicious food and fun.

At that time, although you were always angry with me and teasing me, I also hated you very much, but in fact, I was very glad to have you with me.

Like you said, I'm just too screwed to admit it.

Ah Ran, now that I have traveled outside for such a big circle, I finally know that in fact, the days I want to live the most are the days when I was a child when I had you with me in the East Palace......

Heh, am I stupid enough to figure it out now? ”

I quietly wiped the tears from my cheeks and continued:

"Ah Ran, don't you hide from me, okay?

I know you must be very sad to hear Xiao Jifeng's words.

You don't see me these days, I guess you've been guessing for a long time.

You always call me stupid, and I don't know if I'm right, but I still guess some, and you can hear if I'm right, okay? ”

I sniffled, and then said:

"Ah Ran, if you feel sorry for me, I want to say, I'm okay.

In my early years, Master told me that my life was extremely expensive, I was gifted, and I had an almost adult mind at a young age. But God is fair, how can you cheapen me for no reason?

When I encountered those things, I was afraid that I would not be able to escape the catastrophe, and I have experienced the past, and it will be smooth in the future!

If you're blaming yourself for losing me, I'd like to say, it's not your fault.

I was separated from you, it was a complete accident.

If you have to blame anyone, it is also to blame Leng Yihan and those rebels who subvert the world.

If you're complaining that I stupidly chose that bastard in the first place, I'd say, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry, I was so stupid.

I must have been crazy to make that choice. Can you forgive me this time? ”

I buried my face in my lap and calmed down.

After a long time, I heard Ah Ran's fluttering voice:

"Xuan'er, if you weren't my sister, it would be fine."

Hearing this, my body trembled, turned around, and knelt down facing the door, my voice trembling irrepressibly:

"Ah Ran, what are you talking about?

You...... Don't you recognize me as a sister? ”

The sobs that had been suppressed with encouragement welled up in my throat.

Could it be that Ah Ran said this because of what Xiao Jifeng did to me that night in Luomapo?

Is it because I have lost my virginity?

No, no...... Ah Ran won't do this to me.

But why would he say that?

Suddenly, the door was opened.

Ah Ran was wearing only plain bedclothes and stood at the door.

I immediately stood up.

"Ah Ran ......"

"What are you crying about? I know how to cry, and I'm so stupid, so easy to deceive! That is, I am unlucky, and I will stand up to you for this ......."

There was anger in his words, but I hugged him without hesitation.

"I'm so miserable, do you still want to scold me?"

I cried and complained, holding his waist and not letting go.

"You cry quietly, how old are you, are you ashamed?"

He still scolded me mercilessly, but he let me hold it.

Tears wet his shirt, but I still wouldn't let go.

He was helpless, hugged me back for the first time, and said after a while:

"Okay, don't cry, you're not ashamed, I'm ashamed."

He was still blaming me, but I could hear his words trembling faintly.

This kind of reprimand should be a cover-up, and his real heart is probably even worse than mine.

He should know that if he really coaxed me with a soft voice, I was afraid that I would feel more aggrieved and cry more fiercely, so that's why he did this.

Thinking of this, I let go of him, wiped away my tears, and changed the subject:

"Didn't you say you weren't hurt? Why do you smell of medicine? Or the smell of trauma medicine? ”

I stretched out my hand to check his pulse, but he dodged it, glared at me and said:

"There are so many doctors, I don't need you to check my pulse."

I pouted. "Don't forget it."

He looked at me, then at himself, who was only in his bedclothes, and turned to go inside.

I hesitated, didn't follow, and was still standing in the doorway.

Remembering his words that frightened me so much, I said to him sullenly:

"Ah Ran, don't be angry with me, don't want me, I only have you......"

As he spoke, tears rolled down again.

At my words, his back stiffened, and without saying anything, he took a coat and draped it over it.

It occurred to me that his body had not fully recovered.

"You have a good rest, I'll go back first."

He didn't stop me, and I took a few steps before I heard his deep voice coming:

"Don't worry, I will get back the grievances you have suffered."

"Hmm."

******

I don't know why, Ah Ran's internal strength has never fully recovered, only seventy or eighty percent of his appearance, and his face is not very good.

I tried to take his pulse several times, but he was so disgusted with my medical skills that he wouldn't allow it.

This guy is still the same as when he was a child, and he doesn't hurt me a few words, as if it's not him.

He didn't allow it, and I couldn't force it, so I thought if I could think of something to help him recover his internal strength.

So I got his permission and went into his library to see if there was any useful information.

In the past few days, although I have been in the library for most of the time, I still feel that the situation in Shengjing has been a little tense recently, surrounded by indescribable depression.

I wanted to ask Ah Ran, but when the words came to my mouth, I felt that I should be nervous, so I swallowed the words back.

Yesterday, I finally found a way to restore my internal strength in a book in the library library:

There is a medicinal fruit growing on Lingxiu Mountain, which can quickly restore the damaged internal force.

Ever since I saw this yesterday, I've made up my mind to find it.

But if Ah Ran knew, he would definitely not allow me to go, and I had to hide it from him.

Fortunately, Ah Ran did not restrict my access, and knew that I didn't like people to follow me, so he sent secret guards to protect me.

Let's follow, anyway, when Ah Ran knows about it, I will already pick the medicinal fruit and go back.