It's coming soon!

That's right, it's going to hit the shelves at 12 o'clock at noon.

Although I have written a few books, I am still very nervous.

Old book friends know that last year I had a big problem with my mental state, and I was depressed for a while, which led to the premature death of 98K.

The reason for depression is ridiculous because of family.

Actually, I didn't care about anything since I was a child. I only care about my family, because my family was poor when I was a child, I have always lived cautiously, saving money, and I feel that it is not easy for my parents. But I didn't expect that it was the family I cared about the most that hurt me.

After graduating from college for five years, I was frugal, ran south and north, and the savings I saved were all dug by my parents. Actually, I don't blame them, I don't have to say anything about the money spent on my parents. However, my parents did not understand me at all, they have always earned money to my brother, I have not used their half of the money since the beginning of my college internship, I have always subsidized the family, my brother as soon as he graduated, his parents helped to buy a car, and when he had no money, he went to a friend to borrow money from my brother. That's it, and I didn't complain. However, you can't cheat on my money while trying your best to help my brother, I'm also your son.

I had worked hard for five years of savings, originally I wanted to save for a down payment, but now I have nothing, and I have completely nothing by my parents. In the end, they still owe more than 100,000 yuan and ask me to help them pay it off!

So I was depressed.

After coming out this year, I originally planned to go outside to find a house, code words by myself, and live by myself.

But the starting point has been making a lot of noise lately, and I don't have much money for the old book I finished. So I can't go out when I want to, so I can only stay at home because I don't have money, and I can't afford to rent a house when I go out.

That's it, now I live at home, and I have to grit my teeth to subsidize the family, buy rice and vegetables for my father, buy wine, cook every day, and my father is not happy to drink if the food is not good. As for my mother, well, she quit her job last year to take care of my brother's children. My dad even asked me to buy some souvenirs and send them to my brother every once in a while, saying that my mother wanted to eat them, but in fact I knew it was for my brother.

Mom and Dad are thinking of asking me to help them change their debts without making money now, and then they run to help my brother, which is ridiculous! The male version of Fan Shengmei is almost like me!

Some friends laughed at me and said that you were not your own!

The biological one must be the biological one. But why is the gap so big? Later I figured it out.

My parents think I'm incompetent, my brother is a civil servant, how awesome, how faced! I'm just a street writer, I stay at home every day, and others think I'm gnawing at the old! What a shame!

A brother who has no ability is not as good as an outsider, and similarly, a son who has no ability is nothing in the eyes of his parents.

Therefore, people still have to have the ability and money, and everyone will come to talk to you. You don't have the ability, and others still want to pit the poor money in your pocket!

Having said so much nonsense, here, I have to thank many people in the book friend group for encouraging me, such as Miss Hongchen, such as Dongfang for their support. There are also many authors who encouraged me to slowly come out of it so that I could write the book Emperor of the Heavens and All Worlds.

I don't think about anything, I don't want to be depressed, I owe anything, I'm going to go all aside. I just thought about writing a book, saving some money, going out, and finding a house to write well. I can't stay at home anymore, and if I continue like this, my life will be over.

Therefore, I would like to ask all book friends to support it and give a subscription after it is put on the shelves. Subscriptions don't cost a lot of money, and you can do what you can to reward something.

I can say so many things, I'm not afraid of being embarrassed, I'm short of money, I'm very short, that's the truth.

Thank you very much for your support and encouragement.

I'm scared! I'm really scared!

Alas!

Written in the early morning of June 5, 2020.