Chapter 38: I Shouldn't Be Wayward
"Oops," Chihiro leaned over to look, "it's really cold...... Don't drink it, don't drink it! ”
As he spoke, he was going to grab it.
Si Jintang held his hands tightly: "It's okay, this is the first time you have made soup for me with your own hands, and I have to drink it no matter how cold it is." ”
"No! Your internal and external injuries are not healed, you can't drink such a cold thing," Chihiro frowned, arguing with him, and suddenly- "Ah! ”
Under the scramble, Chihiro's hand accidentally slashed through the infusion tube, and the needle fell off the back of his hand violently, and a lot of blood oozed from the back of his left hand at once.
In addition, the shaking was so strong that the ginseng soup was a little full, and a lot of it spilled out, staining the bedding and his hospital gown.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" Chihiro turned around and pulled out a few pieces of paper to wipe him, and the guilt was all written on his face, "You still have water, I shouldn't be fighting with you." ”
“…… It's okay, don't take this bit of blood to heart. Si Jintang glanced at it himself, not much, he didn't care about it.
Seeing Yan Qianxun hurriedly helping him wipe the blood and stains, Si Jin Tang, who was observing, remembered what happened not long ago, and his heart fell into doubt.
That day in the rain, he shed so much blood, and he was too deep with her indifferent look.
Because his consciousness is not clear, he has always felt that it is his own hallucination, but after thinking about it for the past few days, he feels that it is very real.
deliberately only cares about his own shoes, and does not see his injuries;
is obviously laughing, but it makes people feel extraordinarily cold;
When his bloody hand drooped and stained her clean little white shoes, she frowned as if she had been touched by some virus;
and the back of her indifferent glance at him, ignoring the seriously injured and unconscious him as she ruthlessly turned around and disappeared into the rain......
If it was an illusion, why did he remember every detail so clearly?
Her expression, her words, were etched deeply in his mind.
She was indifferent to the fact that he shed so much blood that day, but today this little pediatrics made her so nervous?
Obviously, today's Yan Qianxun is more in line with the Yan Qianxun who has always been, but he doesn't know why, he just feels that something is wrong.
Si Jin Tang is a suspicious person, and he won't trust others so easily, Yan Qianxun's change of attitude in a short period of time makes him care too much.
"Your clothes are dirty, too!" Chihiro took out a new hospital gown from the cabinet and put it on the bed, reaching out to help him undress, "I'll help you change it!" ”
"It's okay, call the nurse." Si Jin Tang clasped her hand.
"No, I can only see your body! No other woman wants to get involved! ”
Si Jin Tang was even more puzzled, and the sudden wayward Yan Qianxun gave him a sense of familiarity again.
As soon as he was stunned, she was already on board.
After untying the hospital gown, he found that the ginseng soup was not spilled a little, but almost poured on him, not only the outer clothes were dirty, but the bandages inside were stained.
The white bandage had oozing blood and stains on it, mixed together, and looked terrible.
"Oh my God!" Chihiro covered her mouth and took a step back, "What did I do!" Sorry ......"
“…… It's really fine, you didn't make it, that's how it was after the bandage. ”
Si Jintang glanced down at his chest and was silent for three seconds.
In fact, it was indeed because when I had a physical conflict with her just now, I accidentally pulled the wound before it bleed.
I really don't know if she came to see him or hurt him.
"Liar...... Chihiro looked like a wronged child, her eyes red, "This blood is obviously bright red, and I'm not a fool." ”
Seeing that he couldn't hide it, Si Jintang had no choice but to say: "It has nothing to do with you, a little injury, be good, don't blame yourself." ”
"Why doesn't it matter to me!" Chihiro denied it, with a look of self-blame, "I know that you are so busy, and it is understandable that you can't spare time to accompany me to the amusement park, but I still want to lose my temper with you......"
Si Jintang was stunned.
Suddenly so sensible and well-behaved, he was a little unaccustomed.
There didn't seem to be anything wrong, but why did he always feel a little uneasy in his heart?
"It's me who is wrong, you should do it if you promised, but I forgot about you because I was busy with the company," Si Jintang took her hand, "If I hadn't broken the appointment, you wouldn't have driven to the company to find me by yourself, and it was all my fault if there was a car accident on the road." ”
"No, no, no!" Chihiro denied it and rushed to admit her mistake, "It's my fault!" I shouldn't be willful! You're busy, I'm not busy, it's up to me to cooperate with your time, it's me who is too unreasonable, you come to see me and I still drive you away, and even clamoring to go back to my parents' house and get a divorce. If I hadn't run home, you wouldn't have chased me and you wouldn't have had a car accident...... You're hurt like this, it's all because of me! ”
Chihiro bowed her head and shed tears, looking like she sincerely reflected on her mistakes.
Si Jintang looked at the person in front of him, trying to figure it out.
Seems reasonable.
If it were an ordinary person, looking at her tearful and pitiful appearance, coupled with such a sincere confession of mistakes and reflection, he would definitely not think so much.
But Si Jintang was terrifyingly calm.
He would be confused by Yan Qianxun's sudden attitude, but he would not be distressed by her tears, which would then affect his thoughts.
Looking at her dripping tears, Si Jintang's face was just a quiet and indifferent look.
He wondered if the cause and effect were reasonable.
It sounded reasonable, but the recent events had gathered into a database in his mind, and when he considered each frame, it was impossible to form a reasonable chain of cause and effect.
Emotions don't match.
A series of events were triggered because of the no-show, and this fuse was obviously a bit not heavy enough.
Tears and reflection because of guilt and self-blame, which is contrary to her abnormal words and deeds during this time.
Everything was sudden.
This is what he subconsciously felt was wrong.
The corners of Si Jin Tang's mouth lifted slightly, he held Chihiro's hand and pulled him closer to him, and took a few tissues to wipe the tears on her face, feeling as deep as the sea: "It's okay, no matter what my Chihiro does to me, I will forgive her." ”
What does it matter?
Even if she Yan Qianxun really did what she was planning, he was not afraid.
- It's okay, I think I'll forgive her for whatever has been done to me.
Chihiro's moist eyes looked at him, and she burst into a smile: "Jin Tang, you are so good!" I'm going to find a nurse sister! ”
He didn't pull her, but watched her out with a smile.
As the door of the ward closed, the smile on his face disappeared, and a hand pressed against his heart.
What's going on......
Why does my heart beat all of a sudden?
The moment he finished saying that, a similar scene appeared in his mind.
It's Gu Xiang again......
It's her again!
Gu thought, who are you?!
Outside the ward, Chihiro leaned against the wall, no smile on her face, replaced by a dazed expression.
It's the same thing again......
Even if she had a different shell in her life, would he still repeat the same words?
As long as she remembered the actual indifference in her heart when Si Jin Tang said these words, she could not help but think back to the past.
It turned out that at that time, he was also so indifferent, even with a smile.
Fortunately, God treated her well this time, so that she could see his true face clearly from the beginning, so as not to lose herself.