Chapter Eighty-Eight: Obsession with Death

The desert wind mixed with the bone-chilling cold blew wantonly outside the dilapidated pavilion. stirred the two hearts that could not be stable and became more irritable. Jin Se snuggled in Xuan Ming's arms, and there was a warm touch coming from her side, her eyes closed, and her heart was already a bottomless deep pool.

Xuan Ming was beside her, looking at her face with closed eyes, although it had not changed in the slightest from before, but the feeling between her eyebrows was no longer as quiet as before. Life is supposed to be like this, fate is born and fate is always not controlled by anyone's thoughts. Xu is the fate of this life, he should have let go, but he was helpless, and the greed in his heart couldn't let him go after all. The tighter the grip, the more clean it is destroyed in the end. However, it is unwilling.

Jin Se, who closed his eyes, suddenly raised a smile at the corner of his mouth, and the smile was a little more sad invisibly, but it was still breathtaking:

"I didn't think you and I would end up in this ruined place. Maybe •••••• tomorrow, you and I will already be ghosts under the knife. Xuan Ming listened to what Jin Se said, her heart was suddenly shocked, and she was about to say something, when she saw Jin Se get up from his arms and face him, the smile on the corner of her mouth was much gentler than before, she continued, "Although the environment here is a little difficult, it can also be your wedding room for me, as for the many people outside the house, let's consider them to be honored guests for the time being." Xuan Ming suddenly didn't understand what Jin Se meant, although her words had already expressed her meaning obviously, but behind Xuan Ming was layers of coolness. He called the name of the woman in front of him:

"Jinse•••••• what are you?" When Jin Se heard Xuan Ming's voice, she raised her head, the corners of her mouth were still smiling, as if she had guessed what Xuan Ming wanted to say, so she said:

"If you and I decide what we have decided, it is time for you and me to do happy things. And this is the last night, don't you want to regret it? As he spoke, he smirked. This smile was originally intended to make the atmosphere a little lighter, but it invisibly made the atmosphere even more tense, and Xuan Ming suddenly didn't understand what Jin Se was doing. At this moment, in Xuan Ming's eyes, all of Jin Se's pretense of ease was a stab in his heart.

He couldn't give her tomorrow, or even ••••••

"It's a pity, there is no marriage post, no matchmaker to testify•••••• are you still willing to marry me?" Jin Se suddenly muttered to Xuan Ming, Xuan Ming just felt that his heart suddenly tightened, this last sentence, he actually heard Xuan Ming's eyes wet when he heard it, he pulled a wry smile, and looked at Jin Se:

"It's enough for me to have you alone in this life." After speaking, Xuan Ming could no longer suppress his emotions, he firmly took Jin Se into his arms, lowered his head and kissed her. The kiss was so long, as if all the strength of this life had been exhausted, but in this sweetness, there was a trace of bitterness, Jin Se reached out from behind Xuan Ming and wrapped his waist hard, and when he opened his eyes again, he saw tears in the corners of Xuan Ming's eyes, how did Jin Se not understand Xuan Ming's thoughts, although she was also bitter in her heart, but she still raised a light smile:

"Today, on our wedding night, why did you still shed tears?" Xuan Ming opened his eyes and looked at Jin Se, and suddenly realized. If that were the case, Jinse would have followed him to his death, and he would never have allowed Jinse to do so. From Fang Cai Jinse's words, he could deeply feel that Jinse also hoped to have happiness like an ordinary woman. As for him, it's not that he can't give it, but he has no way to give it now. Besides, his identity is already here, and no matter how big the world is, there may not be a place that can accommodate him.

If he died, Jin Se would not live alone, but how could he bear to watch Jin Se follow him to his death?! Perhaps, if she follows the eldest prince, the result will be much better. Xuan Ming understood the thoughts of the eldest prince, he was willing to go all the way to pursue Jin Se, he must have a sincere heart for Jin Se, if Jin Se was by his side, he would be safe. Although the royal water is too deep, it is better than drifting. But Xuan Ming knows Jin Se's heart very well, she will never be a woman who is given, and she will be so strong because of such a temperament.

If he really trapped him by the king's side, it was hard to guarantee that Jin Se would not do anything out of the ordinary. Xuan Ming can no longer be calm, his mind is very messy, he just wants to give Jin Se a tomorrow, but he has never been able to do so, this kind of hard pain is even more difficult than killing him. The only person in this world who can worry about him is Jinse, and now•••••• he doesn't even have the ability to protect him.

The moment Jin Se reached out to untie Xuan Ming's clothes, Xuan Ming suddenly got startled, and at that moment, he changed his mind. He didn't want Jinse to die like this with him, perhaps, she had a better future. Even if he wasn't by his side, he could still be happy to see her living well. Xuan Ming suddenly grabbed Jin Se's hand:

"Jinse, don't do this." The voice was weak, but it made Jin Se suddenly stunned. She looked carefully at Xuan Ming's face in front of her, his eyes swollen and so contradictory. How could she not know what he was thinking, Jin Se's heart was hurting. But she must not let Xuan Ming see her thoughts. She paused, regained her previous calm, attached herself to Xuan Ming's chest, lowered her eyes, looked delicate, and her voice was faint:

"Since they have said that they want to marry me, you and I can be regarded as husband and wife, and now it is natural to have husband and wife." Xuan Ming's heart trembled, he reached out and touched Jin Se's shoulder, trying to make his voice sound natural:

"How could it be. It's just ••••••" Before Xuan Ming could say the following words, Jin Se rushed to say:

"I don't know what you're thinking, the last time I was injured was when you were by your side•••••• I'm already yours." Xuan Ming listened, and couldn't help but be shocked, reproducing the scene when Jin Se was injured in his mind, her thin shoulders, and half of the blood on her body, which directly taught him to feel distressed. Xuan Ming suddenly fell silent, Jin Se sensed that something was wrong with Xuan Ming, got up and looked at him, his brows gradually furrowed:

"Are you disgusted with me?" How could Xuan Ming have such thoughts, and how could he not want to get Jinse, but he didn't want to be now, and now such a scene could only make him more and more desperate. Jin Se smiled miserably, she had already seen through Xuan Ming's thoughts, he was just afraid of hurting her, but he didn't know, the better he hid it, the more it made Jin Se sad. Xuan Ming has always thought about her, and she is just out of love for him.