I first met Jiang Nai when I was five years old, and I went with my father to visit a grandmother in an orphanage, and my father replaced him with an aunt.

There shouldn't be an old man, but Grandma Huan is the mother of the dean, and she likes to watch the children in the courtyard play together when she has nothing to do, and she will help take care of them from time to time.

That day, ten-year-old Jiang Nai was standing in front of her grandmother, her face full of grievances. In Grandma Huan's mouth, my father and I learned about his life experience, his mother died in childbirth when he gave birth to him, his father was in debt and did not care about him, only his grandmother raised him, and his grandmother also died of illness just four years ago.

He was completely alone.

My father thought that I was the only daughter, and after consulting with my mother, he decided to adopt him. So he and I naturally became brother and sister, even though we didn't want to admit it in our hearts.

Later, with Su Mu, I never played with him again, nor did I see him, it is said that my father sent him abroad to study finance and management.

I really started to cross paths with him when I became chairman of the board after my father and mother passed away, and he was the person my father named to assist me. When I learned that my father had sent him to further study, I thought he would take over my father's company, but I didn't expect that he was just a pawn in my father's paving the way for me.

Sometimes I feel pity when I look at him, although I have received financial support from my parents, but I have not received a trace of family affection. Even those who have been cultivated are so powerful, but there is still such a legitimate successor as me. Occasionally I would hear gossip from others, but he stood next to me like a puppet and didn't react, and finally they shut up under my fierce eyes.

When he returned to the office, he would only bow his head, and then said in a respectful tone, "Actually, Miss doesn't have to be like this, what they said is right." ”

"You don't have to feel pressured, I just don't want to have gossip people in the company. Besides, you are still my brother, I don't want to spread some things that will ruin the reputation of the Su family. ”

Jiang Nai thought that it was then that he began to pay attention to this girl who put all her sadness and sorrow in her heart. Obviously, I have to resist everything by myself, but I still have to participate in all kinds of socials with a smile, even if I drink until I vomit, I just don't want to show my weaknesses in front of others.

In the face of those doubts from the board of directors, how calm you are on your face are actually how panicked you are inside. He knew all of that.

I remember asking him why he believed in me so much and why he was so desperate for me, after he worked overtime with me for countless nights.

He said, "Su Dong has the grace of regeneration for me, and he has cultivated me to this point is nothing more than to assist you, Miss." One day, I will keep your peace. ”

One side is peaceful.

And he really did.

Later, I finally found out why he had been by my father's side for so many years, but he didn't know about my condition, I think it was probably because my father was afraid that he would have different intentions, so he kept it a secret.

never thought that Jiang Nai was such a person who knew how to repay his kindness.

The big and small difficulties I have encountered over the years are all thanks to his assistance, and with him, I can rest assured that I can play with my friends, and I can go on a date with He Bei without worries.

But he was still alone.

It seems that he lives for me, for Zhumu, and for the Su family.

I still remember the time I had a drink with them in July before I left the country, and as soon as I got up after that, he rushed to my side, and I could vaguely feel his thoughts. But at that time, He Beici occupied my whole heart, so I just didn't know his intentions, and then naturally inherited all his good.

During my years in the United States, when I was sick, he took care of me meticulously, not only to take care of me, but also to take care of Su Mu, as well as work matters for him to worry about.

In those years, I even forgot that I also had a boyfriend, He Beici, who rarely appeared by my side, and occasionally came to see me during festivals. I knew I shouldn't complain, after all, I rarely went back to see him.

The words I said when I broke up with He Beici are what I have thought in my heart in the past few years, and they are also the best reason for him to give up. It was raining heavily outside the window that day, and I couldn't cry inside the window. I took out every ticket I had been carrying with me in my suitcase to see He Beici, and the wind and snow over the years had finally come to fruition.

There was still a store of undrunk liquor in the wine cabinet, and those bits and pieces of memories flooded into my mind for me to drink glass after glass. After all, the photos were torn apart by me, and the tickets were soaked with my tears.

I heard hurried footsteps outside the door, and then a dull pain in my arm came, and I was pulled up by Jiang Nai to stand trembling. He stared at me with bloodshot eyes, and his angry tone was full of helplessness, "Su Yuzhi, I'm afraid you're not crazy!" What does your body look like and how dare you drink so much alcohol! ”

I smiled softly, tears sliding down my cheeks, "Jiang Nai, are you very capable?" ”

"If you can save me a little heart, I don't dare to have such great ability!" I was pressed down on the couch by Jiang Nai, and he rolled up his sleeves and began to clean up my mess.

I bent my knees and buried my face in it.

Jiang Nai looked at Su Yuzhi, who was sobbing on the sofa, but she couldn't do anything, her already thin shoulders were even more unbearable because of trembling at the moment.

It is said that drinking is seven points drunk, and lovers love until seven points are full. But who doesn't drink until he gets drunk, and his lover loves him until he cries.

Seven years of relationship, which is her angry words can be completely denied.

The day before I left, I went alone to the house that he had carefully selected together, the balcony full of flowers that we had prepared, and even the sheets and bedding that we had laid down together.

Tired of cleaning during the day, he would put his arms around me and say some sweet words in my ear at night, and my head was bombarded by him, and I fell into his tenderness without caring about anything else.

I flinched a little when I walked to the door, I was afraid that seeing what we had achieved together would make my heart soften. Just like when I asked him to break up four years ago, his few promises made the walls that I had worked so hard to build collapse in an instant.

After rubbing your fingers back and forth on the doorknob for a long time, as long as you touch the small screen, the door will automatically open under fingerprint authentication.

Now that the words have been clarified, what is it if I come back? Don't fool yourself, he's already wounded, and don't let him think about it any more, I fiddled with the doorknob and deleted my fingerprints on it.

The house will one day have its new owner, a new hostess. But the woman will never be her again.

After I left, I worked hard abroad, busy all day, but I didn't want to be trapped in it anymore. I am also accustomed to walking alone between the streets, looking at the deep friendship of others, and then laughing away.

He Beici, I finally want to thank you for giving me the privilege of tasting the unique love in this world, and also letting me experience the loneliness of being alone.

I love you so much, but I can't put it into words.

In the years that followed, I would intentionally or unintentionally mention to Jiang Nai the daughter of a certain group, and he would always have one reason or another to reject me.

"Jiang Nai, I don't want you to delay yourself because of these things in our family."

He stopped peeling apples for me, "Su Yuzhi, you're not me." How do you know that these are not what I think in my heart, not that I am willing? ”

When I attended He Bei's wedding, Jiang Nai's company made me feel a lot more at ease, and I think I didn't just rely on him. So at the end he reached out to me again, and I didn't refuse, I took his hand firmly.

Because of my health, he chose to accompany me to settle in Shanghai, and he basically took care of all the big and small matters of bamboo and wood, and I was already the shopkeeper. Later, every day I could eat three meals a day made by Jiang Nai, and at night he would get up and fold the quilt for me, and he would accompany me wherever I went.

There was a lot of rain in the spring, and Jiang Nai didn't allow me to go out without him. I was idle at home and had nothing to do, so I thought about boiling a bowl of ginger soup for him to dispel the cold.

When Jiang Nai pushed the door in, he smelled the smell coming from the kitchen. He changed his shoes and walked into the kitchen, hugging me behind my back, "What are you doing?" ”

I turned back to him and smiled, "Just wait, you can go sit down first." "He didn't want to leave, and I ended up pushing him onto the couch.

When I handed him a bowl of hot and pungent ginger soup, he was at a loss, "Is this ginger soup?" ”

"Yes, it's always raining these days, and I specially learned it online to ward off the cold for you."

He hooked his lips slightly, looked at the bowl of ginger soup in his hand as if he was dead, scooped a spoonful and handed it to my lips, "Why don't you taste it first?" ”

"What, you're still afraid that I'll poison you?"

"Don't dare, don't dare, how can I doubt that my girlfriend made it for me by herself."

In fact, we haven't called each other's boyfriend and girlfriend for so long, and we haven't told anyone in particular that we are together, and his sudden call made me stunned.

I laughed, "yes, I boiled it for my boyfriend." "This can be regarded as a confession, and it can be regarded as a formal reply to the relationship between us.

He said goodnight to me at night, and I was moved to climb up to him and drop a dragonfly kiss on his lips. "Hearing you say good night every day before going to bed is the simplest and most lasting happiness that belongs to me."

The disease came unexpectedly, and this time it was more ferocious than usual. The doctor said that the results of the previous surgeries and hospitalizations were not very satisfactory, and this time they have tried their best.

I knew I was running out of oil.

It was already a day after I woke up, and weakness was the post-operative reaction I had become accustomed to. I saw Jiang Nai pushing a wheelchair into the ward, "Awake? I found you a wheelchair to take you out. ”

I was picked up by him and placed in a wheelchair, and he pushed me through the hospital corridor. Occasionally passing through the window, the faint sunlight that lets in makes me feel dazzling.

There were so many patients in hospital gowns on the lawn, and Jiang Nai squatted down to pull up the sliding blanket for me and put it back on for me. "Sleepy?"

I shook my head.

When I woke up again, I was already lying in a hospital bed. Jiang Nai took my hand and asked me if I was hungry, and I could hear the choking in his voice, and I could see his red and swollen eyes and the stubble on his chin. I raised my hand and touched his face, trying to make a sound in my dry throat, "Jiang Nai." ”

I seemed to see my father and mother hugging me, gently stroking my soft hair, "I'm very tired, Mom and Dad are here to pick you up." ”

In a haze, I saw me lying on the lawn with He Beici, and I asked him if he regretted being with someone like me. He looked at me with eyes as gentle as water, and then I heard a love sentence, "Being with you is my heart's desire." ”

In the blur, I saw Jiang Nai, and he said, "I will keep your side at peace one day." ”

The world was finally bleak.

When Su Mu arrived, only Jiang Nai was left in the ward who was crying silently.

Su Yuzhi left in pain, so Jiang Nai didn't want her regrets to become irreparable. He finds July and inquires about Tai Yin's whereabouts, and finally they both appear at Su Yuzhi's funeral.

They never thought that the goodbye of the four flowers of 323 would be such a scene.

In the end, Jiang Nai chose to resign after Su Mu was able, and he said that he would see the prosperity of the world for Su Yuzhi. Times Square in the United States, Nagoya in Japan, Namsan in South Korea... It's all places she has been thinking about for a long time, but because of her illness, she hasn't been anywhere except for work.

Jiang Nai thought that this was the last thing he could do for Su Yuzhi.

He always felt that he liked Su Yuzhi not because of a certain moment, but because they had been with each other for a long time, long enough to include each other in their lives. But later, he learned that only they could penetrate into each other's lives.

Because they're all the same.

A life of loneliness and half a life of loneliness.

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