Chapter 131: Loneliness
(Cat Pounce Chinese Chapter 131: Few
Perhaps after more than a month as long as half a life, Xuan Ming really knew the so-called knife cut off the water and the water flowed more, and the toast was more sorrowful.
Maybe that's what it feels like. Between the green waters and green mountains, when he sat and watched the clouds rise, he thought about many scenes in the past, but he was the only one after this.
"Hehe" Xuan Ming smiled, he had never felt so cold. Although it is still winter, he has never felt as cold as he is now in the past 20 years.
"I want to stay here." In just five words, Jin Se simply cut off all the love between him and her. It's like the sand on the desert uprooting trees, even if you keep the memories, it will only make the pain in people's hearts deeper. Why don't you leave it at that? It's just a good wine, don't think about it.
But why, as soon as you close your eyes, what appears in Xuan Ming's mind is the appearance of Jinse. Her smile, her indifference standing in Zhong Lishuo's camp, even if she hid her grief deeply, Xuan Ming could easily see it. But even if Xuan Ming knew that Jin Se did what he did to protect him, how could he not be resentful?
Is it a dream? Xuan Ming was in a trance, the night of death obsession, the temperature of Jinse, her smell, he still remembered it vividly, but after all, it was a surprise. Xuan Ming suddenly felt resentful, he hated himself, and he couldn't even protect the woman he loved. He was someone who knew Jin Se too well, and she did it as a last resort, but she really didn't discuss it with him!
Discuss? Even if it is discussed, how much better will the ending be than it is now?
The answer can be imagined, if everything is reversed, the best outcome is just that they die together, but in the current view, it is better to be able to die together than to be separated by two worlds now. Xuan Ming suddenly threw the wine jar he was holding in his hand into the distance, and there was a crisp sound of porcelain shattering, which also hit Zhong Lishuo's heart like a heavy hammer.
For more than a month, he had long forgotten what it was like to have a heartache, he only felt that the bones in his whole body had been drained, and he could no longer exert any strength, and in such a winter, his body was also frozen by the cold, and there would never be a little temperature again. In this world, it seems that there is no one else but him.
The promised marriage contract was missed in the end. Xuan Ming suddenly thought of the red wedding dress that Qingyan sewed for Jin Se before Jin Se left, such a festive color, such a phoenix trail, no matter how you imagine it, it is as dazzling as blood, and Xuan Ming can even smell the smell of blood from it. He jerked up from the ground and headed for the small building where they had been living.
Qingyan was drying the washed clothes in the yard, and she was already like a bride at this time, pulling up all the hair on the back of her head, a simple flat bun, and a neat appearance. When I looked sideways, I saw Xuan Ming walking towards her from a distance. Qingyan was stunned for a moment, and then began to get nervous.
Since Xuan Ming came back alone, he seems to have changed as a person, before this, no matter how cold Xuan Ming was, fortunately, it would not be to the point of being unreasonable, but after coming back this time, he didn't say anything, just frowned, and went back to the house where Jin Se lived before and slept day and night for three days. Qingyan originally wanted to ask something, but she was still a little scared of Xuan Ming in her heart, so she could only tell Minglong.
I thought that I was going to wait for Jin Se and Xuan Ming to hold a wedding together after they came back, but when the time came, the two of them didn't come back, and Minglong couldn't be relieved, so he postponed the wedding date. But in the end, Jin Se didn't come back, and Minglong also found Qingyan and made it clear, and only drank a glass of wine in his own house to be considered married. Qingyan didn't know what Minglong thought about Jinse before, but no matter what, Minglong is now married to Qingyan, and Jinse also saved Qingyan's life, Qingyan is not easy to say anything, but seeing Xuanming so depressed day by day, he naturally feels a little uncomfortable in his heart.
Ming Long asked Xuan Ming where Jin Se was after leaving the room on the fourth day of Xuan Ming, but he didn't want to finish his words, just mentioning Jin Se's name, Xuan Ming was already furious, and he couldn't allow Ming Long to say another second sentence and started with Ming Long. Minglong was also angry in his heart, so he could only resist it, thinking that Xuan Ming could remember the brotherhood for many years, and he was also a sibling who was born and died, and his subordinates could be a little light, but he didn't know that he was really venting the resentment in his heart.
Minglong slapped Xuan Ming and spit out a mouthful of blood, Qingyan was naturally worried, but he never expected that Xuan Ming looked at Minglong after being injured and did not regret it at all, and said viciously to Minglong:
"Don't mention Jinse's name again."
Qingyan was also frightened, and thought that Jin Se had an accident, so he could only stop asking, and helped Minglong back to his house. Since then, Xuan Ming has been drinking all day long, what is really drunk and dreaming of death, Qingyan is seen in Xuan Ming. It's been more than a month, and I don't see him talking, but I don't see anyone every day, but if I see it, I'm full of wine, Qingyan is afraid of him, and I don't dare to go to Xuan Ming. But those meals don't seem to have been touched much, and they are often brought in the next day only to see the previous day's untouched.
Xuan Ming is also getting thinner and thinner, originally he had an unkind chill on his body, and now this chill is even more terrifying. Therefore, Qingyan only felt extremely terrifying when she saw Xuan Ming walking towards her. Xuan Ming rushed to Qingyan, but his tired eyes showed a murderous aura, Qingyan was a little shocked, and he didn't dare to speak with a long mouth. But Xuan Ming opened his mouth first, as if he hadn't spoken for a long time, his voice was low and hoarse, like the cry of a crow, and his voice was dead:
"Where's Jinse's clothes?" Qingyan was stunned, she hadn't heard Jinse's name from Xuan Ming's mouth for a long time, her eyes widened and her face was frightened, and she asked with a stammer:
"What, what, clothes?" Xuan Ming is still aggressive:
"It's the one you made for him! Red! Qingyan noticed that when Xuan Ming said that his clothes were red, his eyes trembled a little, as if he had been poked in the underbelly. Qingyan was stunned for a moment, and seemed to be a little unbearable in her heart, but before she could speak, Xuan Ming was ruthless again:
"Where's that dress, find it for me, find it!!" Qingyan's body shook, and he hurriedly took a step back, so he had to take Xuan Ming to his room. Cat flutter Chinese