"I want to hug you so much, but it's a pity that the mountains and rivers are in time, and it's a pity that people come and go between you and me."

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On the third day we went to the beach, and that day it was very windy, and I let my long hair be messy. It's just that He Beici couldn't stand it, and tied my hair with the leather band he carried with him and hung it down behind my back.

"Why are your eyes red?"

I shook my head, "It's too windy." ”

The sun has not yet come out, the sky is as gloomy as a few days ago, and the wind on the beach is so strong that it is afraid that it will rain.

When I walked to a place where there were few people, I found a stone and sat down, and He Beici stood beside me. We listened to the sound of the sea breeze lapping on the shore, and we all didn't open our mouths to break the rare tranquility.

"He Beici." I opened my eyes and called his full name, and I realized that I hadn't called him "Abei" for a long time, "Let's break up." "I don't look over my head to wipe away the tears that have slid from the corners of my eyes.

"What?" He Beici frowned, the wind was too strong to blow Su Yuzhi's already small voice to pieces. "What did you say?"

"I said—" I raised my voice, but didn't dare look up at him, "let's finish." ”

"Su Yuzhi, you're kidding." He Beici's heart gradually twisted together, so uncomfortable that he couldn't believe what he had heard. "Wasn't it okay yesterday?"

What should have ended long ago was delayed because of my selfishness, and I wiped away the tears from my face and stood up to face him, "I'm not kidding. ”

The wind was stronger again, and the waves slapped on the stones again and again, Su Yuzhi's words were like ocean waves, and it was He Beici's heart that was beaten.

"Did something happen? You tell me? He Beici's tone was a little excited.

Looking at Su Yuzhi's expression as usual, He Beici was completely panicked, stretched out his hand and tried to grab her hand indiscriminately, but Su Yuzhi avoided it without a trace.

He Beici may have seen my determination, the whole person froze in place, and said coldly, "After so many years of relationship, you just gave up when you said to give up." ”

"Yes." I nodded desperately, then gave him a smile I had squeezed out with all my might, "I gave up." The other few days I was like a fish in the water with you, and I was just seeking solace in my soul. ”

He Beici took a breath and wiped away the tears that had slid to the corners of his mouth, as if it was the first time I had seen him cry. "What you just said... Is that really what you think in your heart? ”

He hugged me without saying a word, as if he was going to rub me into his body, and my back hurt from his press, and I unconsciously twisted my eyebrows. "He Beici, you see, you don't know me anymore. Over the years, we have been together and scattered, and there have been a few more years when we have really been together. You may be busy with an important surgery when I need you, you may be resting, but you will never be there for me right away.

You always say that I don't rely on you enough, I don't warm enough. But do you know, all these years I have been eating and traveling alone in the United States, and I will think of you when I look at those loving lovers on the street, and I will think about when you will suddenly appear in front of me and surprise me, but in the past few years, I have never felt the feeling of joy to see you.

We all don't know each other anymore. I'm in business, you're in medicine, and I have to look up the internet to understand the terms you occasionally come up with, and you don't understand the contract documents or anything I tell you. You see, our circles have changed. ”

I could clearly feel He Beici's body trembling, and he was still guilty after all. His hand holding me suddenly let go, and I stood trembling and looked at the man in front of me who was bruised by my words, "He Beici, think about it carefully." Figured it out, we... Say goodbye either. ”

We really haven't seen each other since.

He Beici chose not to bother, and I rarely went back. When I said those words to him, I didn't know the discomfort in his heart, the ending of a long-distance relationship is nothing more than one glory and one loss.

We had the opportunity to be the former, but I chose the latter.

But my heart still hurts when I learn that he is going to get married.

The most painful thing in this world is when you watch the person you love fall in love with someone else, because you know that from now on he marries a wife and has children, and his joys and sorrows have nothing to do with you.

Li Youluo sighed on the other end of the phone, and I changed the subject and asked her, "Are you going to his wedding?" ”

"The bride is not you, who am I going to see?" Youluo paused, probably guessed my thoughts, and his voice couldn't help but raise a little, "Isn't it, Su Yuzhi, you're going to participate?" ”

"Just give myself a break." Just give myself an excuse to clean up all the things he has in my place as garbage.

After all, the leftover tofu could not be eaten, so it had to be shelved. I got up and walked out to find him, he was smoking, and when he saw me coming out, he skillfully snuffed out the remaining cigarettes and threw them into the trash can on the side.

He Beici in my memory never smoked.

He's a doctor, so he has to make sure he's healthy, and there's another reason why I don't like the smell of smoke.

I walked towards him casually, "There is a temple not far ahead, I want to go and worship, if you have something to do, go back first, it is also very convenient to take a taxi here." ”

He Beici looked at me for a long time but didn't speak, and I didn't want to leave directly. "He Beici?"

He turned his gaze away from me, "I'm fine, and I've had a lot of things lately, so I'll come and worship with you." ”

I pondered the date of his wedding, guessing that he might want to pray to the Buddha to bless the wedding without mistakes, and nodded and walked side by side with him.

In the winter, there were more people worshipping the Buddha than usual, and the crowds of people skipped past us, but the distance between me and him never narrowed. There was a hurried pedestrian who was walking down the steps quickly, and He Beiqi quickly grabbed my shoulder and pulled me to his side. "Be careful!"

As soon as I stood firm, I pulled out of his arms, thanked him with some restraint, and when I looked at him, he was already standing aside and continued to walk side by side with me.

We lined up to buy tickets and incense, and knelt on the futon in front of the Buddha to pray. I wish, I wish the man next to me a happy family and a successful career in the future.

May I survive the cold winter and no longer suffer from the past by dwelling on it. May everything go well for the rest of my life, and the stars will be bright in the winter.

I don't know if the Buddha will do what I want.

After the goodbye, we walked outside, and we really couldn't find a topic. I pretended to be okay and asked him, "Can you take the liberty of asking who the bride is?" ”

Speaking of the bride, he turned his head to look at me, "You should know, Lin Sheng." ”

"Lin Sheng?" With these two words in my mouth, I suddenly remembered her face and smiled, "Lin Sheng is very good." ”

"Ah Yu...", he suddenly called me, and I was a little surprised. After a long time, he exhaled deeply, as if he had never been relieved in all these years, "In a few lifetimes, we will always meet the person who wants to live his whole life." Before Lin Sheng, I thought that person would be you, but I didn't expect...,"