All I remember is that a pile of rocks rolled down from the top of the hill and smashed straight at us.

Since then, my dreams have recurred the scene of that day, those stones are like a heavy rain, and under the heavy "rain curtain", the passing years have thrown me to the ground.

Uncle Du and Aunt Du shouted, get out of the way! Dangerous!

The earth shook and the mountains shook, and the snow flew.

I woke up from the shock and struggled to push Du Liunian away, pounced on the rubble from him. I shook his body as hard as I could, shouting his name.

Frightened, there were no tears to shed, I mechanically patted the gravel on his body, and I said, Wake up, wake up, wake up!

Uncle Du and Aunt Du have also gotten up and are constantly searching.

The moment Du Liunian opened his eyes, the gravel in my hand fell to the ground abruptly, I couldn't control it anymore, and I cried out loud.

Du Liunian got up in pain, carefully measured me, made sure I was okay, and hugged me into his arms.

He gently stroked my hair, endured the wound on my shoulder, patted me on the back, and said, it's okay.

I don't know if I was scared silly or what, I followed his words, as if to comfort myself, it's okay, it's okay.

But if you keep talking, you have become extremely stupid. For the rest of my life, I would cry and say, "Oh, I'm coming...... I want to tell you that I don't know who this longevity lock is......

No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't push him away, and the moment the tears rolled down, Uncle Du's voice sounded behind him, and he shouted, Mo Nian-

The voice was so sad and desperate.

Wrapped in silver, a touch of blood red.

That was three years ago, when I was 16 and I was 22.

Probably because of Wilson's disease, since the accident left in the past few years, my memory of him began to gradually blur, and finally completely forgotten, until the past few days together, I gradually recalled.

As for why Du Liunian kept pretending not to know me, I also felt very puzzled, and sometimes even wondered if he was also sick.

"It turns out that you really haven't forgotten, I thought it was ......." Degree flow of the year.

"Wait...... degree si

, you calm down first, Tong Tong is still here. I pushed his body away and said solemnly.

Du Liunian was stunned on the side.

I walked up to Jian Tong, touched his shaking little head and told him that I would convince Grandpa to let him stay in D aw

。

Although I didn't know what was going on, I just thought Tong Tong should be very reluctant to let Grandma and Daw go

This home.

Maybe it was a little too aggressive when chasing Tongtong, or maybe I fell a few times just now, and I felt that my eyes were a little trance

Suddenly, my whole world suddenly darkened, my vision blurred, and my heart became unusually heavy. The mind was foggy, and the body began to lose weight, as if it was about to float.

A feeling of falling into a black hole turned into tears coming out of my eyes. I suddenly realized that my body had fallen out of my control!

When you wake up again.

——In a daze, I heard my grandfather talking to Du Liunian.

Grandpa asked how she could be so sick when she was so sick when she was in the past few years?

There were two other people discussing my condition, but my condition didn't seem to allow me to continue listening.

When I was fully awake, I looked around and it was Daw

in the room. Look out the window.

In the yard, he was spending the New Year with his grandfather receiving the sunshine, gently combing Grandma Du's hair, very careful, and the children on the side were playing happily.

I love this moment, me, grandpa, and dusi

, Grandma, Tong Tong, the quiet yard, and those crazy screams on the tall trees. If life could stop at this moment, I would be willing to enjoy this beauty that is not good.

Because at this moment, there are my family here, there are two people I love the most, my old grandfather and the passing years.

Since when did Grandpa become silent and silent?

Yes, a broken life, is there any language that can make it reglue?

A lot of books and a lot of rhetoric teach us to be strong. I think that's bullshit. As long as the tears don't come out of your own eyes, you never know how bitter they are.

Moreover, people like my grandfather can't learn to be strong, and at this time, I'd rather he learn to cry than be silent now.

In that landslide incident, Du Liunian lost his father and mother, and it was after that that that he supported the entire Du family by himself, for which he went abroad, and it was also in that year that he disappeared from my life, I never thought that three years later, he would come back again.

I shuffled myself and slowly walked out of the yard, staring at them blankly.

When Tong Tong saw me, he asked me, "Sister Nian, don't be in a daze, let's play together?"

I pushed Tong Tong into the house and smiled at Xiao Jiu. "What's the matter, grandpa promised you to stay?"

Tong Tong sneered, sneered, and said, "you stupid girl, Sister Nian, well, grandpa said, as long as you keep living here, I don't have to go back to Shi's house, in fact, Sister Nian, you are my cousin, my real name is Shi Jiantong, and I am your cousin who has never met." ”

I was surprised, but quickly calmed down, and I asked Tong Tong if he wanted to call his grandfather to confront him.

Tong Tong seemed to understand my heart and said, "No, my mother is Jane, so I don't need to explain it now." ”

I'm most afraid of Tong Tong using the word "Jane Yiren", as soon as he uses it, I feel like I'm scared, I'm not afraid of the sky or the earth, and the most afraid is my aunt Jane Yiren.

I said to Tong Tong, "In addition to the beautiful grassland, the sky is very blue, and the water is very clear, there is actually nothing good about it." ”

Tong Tong smiled and said, "My sister is really home, the lawn is a tourist attraction, I'm just walking around." Oops, sister, look, what does that mean? He pointed to a large sign on a wall.

“Daw

A warm family, the home of a group of sick children. ”

I looked at Tong Tong and laughed too.

At dinner, Tong Tong told his grandfather and grandmother about the funny slogan he saw?

Du Liunian smiled and said, "Tong Tong, what is wrong with you taking your sister to see, how can you take her to see those things."

After dinner, I was about to go back to my room, and suddenly I was stunned, saw Du Liunian in my room, and asked, why is he here?

He looked down, rubbed the Totoro journal I had left behind, which recorded the last thing I wanted to do before the end of my life, and said to me, "Is this your wish?" ”

I didn't speak, and I had mixed feelings.

He asked me, "How long does it take to forget a person?" ”

I was stunned, not knowing how to answer.

He sighed and said, don't tell me the answer.

He said, "I don't think I'll ever forget it." ”

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He turned to look at me and said, "Are you going to stay here or go home?" ”

I was silent for a long time and said, "I'm not going to leave here." ”

Du Liunian said, "You can stay here, and let's fulfill those wishes together." ”

I shook my head and said, "This is my life, it doesn't belong to you, Dusi."

You don't need to do so much for me, not to mention, we're just ordinary friends! ”

Du Liunian looked at me forcefully and said, "What if I don't!" ”

I opened my mouth.

He said, "Well, you can not remember that we were together!" You can't remember who gave you that chain of longevity! You can't remember the thousand paper cranes of the Shi family! But if you can remember that I hugged you on the edge of a cliff, that's enough!

I bowed my head, and for some reason I was so stubborn, and I said, "What's the matter?" It's not the road back, the bridge is back to the bridge, everything is back to square one! ”

Du Liunian grabbed my hand and said, "Do you have to use such cruel words to stab me in pain before you are happy?" ”

I looked at him and said, "I don't like you anymore, back when you were abroad." ”

He said, "I know. ”

I smiled wryly.

He said, "I know it all!" ”

But he ......

I looked up at him and said, "You've abandoned me, haven't you?" So, now because of my illness, I can only come back to you pitifully, I don't need anyone's pity, you understand?

I said, "But that's not the love I want to give you." I don't want me to be taken in by you because I have no way out, I don't want you to love me because you pity me! ”

He said, "That's what you have to think!" ”

I said, "I'm afraid you'll end up thinking that!" ”

He said, "Shi Mo Nian, don't be like this, okay!" ”

I said, "I thought I liked you, an unbreakable faith!" I used to think that if I was with Tang Yi, it would be because he had an eye that looked like you! But then I realized I was wrong! I ......"

He said, "Shi Mo Nian, don't say it." ”

He reached out and pulled me into his arms, trying to soothe my agitation.

My tears were all over my face, and I pounded him and said, "Why did you leave me alone in the United States?" Why would you want to give me the chance to see you again?

You gave me a sword that could stab me to death, so that I could be hurt like I am today, why?! Tell me, why?!

I cried and said, "I hate you so much!

He said, "I'm sorry. ”

He said, "Shi Mo Nian, I'm sorry. ”

That night, I cried in his arms and fell asleep.

Grandpa once said that everyone has a past.

I asked my grandfather, what if I can't get by?

Grandpa didn't answer, I don't know if there was no answer, or if he didn't want to answer.

Du Liunian was by the bedside, looking at me who was sleeping, his hand gently touched my eyebrows, so careful, he said, from tonight on, he is your past. I will guard you, accompany you, and forget all the past.

He was silent for a long time before he said word by word, and that past will really become the past.

He said, I swear......