Chapter Ninety-Four: Mourning is greater than heart death

Zhong Lishuo had never been looked down upon so much, and Jin Se's words seemed to knead his heart until it shattered. His breathing became heavy, and every breath and exhale was anger that could not be ignored, Zhong Lishuo tried to suppress his anger, turning this anger that was about to erupt into his heavier and heavier breathing.

This suffocating feeling reminded him of being bullied by the palace maids in the palace when he was a child because of his mother's unwieldy relationship, which made him feel resentful, and he suddenly slapped his palm on the table and yelled at Jinse:

"Do you think I really don't dare to kill you!" As soon as the words came out, Zhong Lishuo himself was also shocked, how could he say such a thing to Jin Se. But the words have been spoken, and they can't be recovered. The anger in his eyes suddenly extinguished a little, and he looked at Jin Se in front of him, not feeling his hatred for her, but more of a jealousy for Xuan Ming, which would make him crazy.

Jin Se heard what Zhong Lishuo said to her, raised her eyes to look at Zhong Lishuo, the light in her eyes was cold, as if she had seen through the indifference of the world, she stopped for a long time, she slowly got up from the Taishi chair, stood up, and went to Zhong Lishuo, her eyes looked at Zhong Lishuo without blinking, and a cold sentence slipped from the corner of her mouth:

"I hope the prince will be fulfilled." This sentence was like a piece of ice, which froze Zhong Lishuo's heart in an instant. He was stunned for a moment, only to feel that his heart was blocked by a stone, making him unable to breathe. He could no longer utter a word, and there were faint tears in his eyes. He didn't understand why Jin Se took such a fancy to Xuan Ming, just as he took a fancy to her, but maybe in Jin Se's eyes, the importance from Zhong Lishuo would only make her feel inferior to Cao Kei. For a moment, Zhong Lishuo felt that his heart was being pierced by thousands of arrows, and he couldn't talk to Jin Se anymore, he was afraid that he would open his mouth again, and his voice would be hoarse.

Zhong Lishuo's fingertips gradually exerted force, so that the hand that was clapping on the table returned to a fist, he closed his eyes, turned around sharply, and rushed out of the door.

When Zhong Lishuo came out of the tent, Jin Se suddenly felt that the strength of her whole body had been drained in an instant, and she suddenly fell to her knees, and the long-suppressed emotions poured out at this moment. Tears slid down her face like beads of broken thread, and she bit her lip hard to keep herself from making a sound.

At that moment, Jin Se finally realized what it meant to be painful, but she understood very clearly that the end was all because she personally pushed Xuan Ming further, and even as far as the long decades after this life, she had nothing to do with him. However, early in the morning, Jin Se's idea was just to want Xuan Ming to live, but only now did she realize that this was the only irreversible mistake she had made in her life. Sadly, there is no way to reverse it.

A feeling of emptiness enveloped Jin Se tightly, as if he couldn't reach out and grasp anything, a powerless weakness, as uncomfortable as a dream, but it was real. Perhaps, it will take many years for Jin Se to figure out that this feeling is called heart death, and in this earthly world, there is no greater sorrow than this.

Jin Se only felt tired, without the slightest strength in her body, and after crying for a long time, she fell asleep on the ground.

The sky was bright, Jin Se felt dizzy, and tried to open his eyes only to feel that there was a blur in front of him, and vaguely, Jin Se felt that there was a person in front of him looking at him, and his heart was suddenly stunned, thinking that it was Xuan Ming. Such a familiar feeling is very similar to the picture of her waking up after being injured at that time, Xuan Ming was lying on her stomach next to her bed, not daring to fall asleep, just looking at her, waiting for her to wake up.

Jin Se felt a little sour, and hurriedly propped himself up with his hands, but heard a male voice close at hand:

"Awake?" With just two words, Jin Se can conclude that he is not Xuan Ming. Jin Se woke up at this time, Xuan Ming had already left her, and now it was only the eldest prince sitting next to her bed. Lost, Jin Se just felt a terrible headache, but he didn't want to talk to Zhong Lishuo, so he just lay back and slowly closed his eyes.

When Zhong Lishuo saw Jin Se behaving like this, he felt very uncomfortable in his heart, and after looking at her for a long time, he finally sighed and said:

"If you're tired, get up and get something to eat. Your body hasn't recovered in the past few days, so don't go back for the time being, and then leave when you're better. After speaking, Zhong Lishuo retreated very interestingly. Only then did Jin Se open his eyes. The scene in front of me is much clearer, but it is still a little blurry. Jin Se got up and leaned back on the couch in a daze.

She couldn't remember how she got to this couch, thinking that Zhong Lishuo had hugged her. But as soon as such a thought flashed in her mind, Jin Se felt disgusted, her dislike for Zhong Lishuo had never been so obvious, but for some reason, she just couldn't let go of it now.

So Xuan Ming, where is he now.

Jin Se thought about it foolishly, but he couldn't come up with an answer. After all, she paid him, and it was difficult to say what he would forgive. Thinking about it, she is not lucky, but this world is impermanent, and she should not be involved in this turmoil. Suddenly, Jin Se seemed to have figured out a lot, and since he had come here, he didn't have to dwell on the past anymore. I think that in the next few decades, I must face a person like Zhong Lishuo. Born in a royal family, there must not be too few women around her, and Jin Se just wants a stable place, so that she can quietly remember the little time with Xuan Ming alone, which is also good for her.

It's good to think too much. My heart is dead, and I don't think it hurts anymore. Said to be married on the night of the full moon. Jin Se suddenly remembered the big red wedding dress that Qingyan sewed for her, and now that she thinks about it, it is redundant in the end.

Jin Se thought, and everything in front of him gradually became clear.

This is supposed to be the back hall of the tent. Although it is a small place, it is also quite clean. Jin Se only felt tired, and his whole body seemed to be unable to exert any strength. She was suddenly in a trance, she didn't understand what attracted Zhong Lishuo, she wanted her to stimulate Zhong Lishuo like yesterday, but he didn't mean to be angry, if she rested on other princes, it was estimated that she Jinse would already be a ghost under the knife. But the eldest prince still came to her today to take care of her. It's really hard to understand what he's thinking.

Even if it's hard to guess, Jinse doesn't bother to guess. This day passed like this, and she just begged to die. Suffering in glory is actually no different from going to prison.

Jin Se raised a bleak smile and shook her head, no matter what, it was her own choice. After all, no one else is to blame.