Eighteen years, what is the significance of this number? I thought about it again at one point.

In the Anti-Japanese War chapter on the screen, before the hero was killed, he had to say "Eighteen years later, he is a good man again." “

Another meaning comes from Reader's Digest, which I started reading when I was twelve, "I struggled for eighteen years just to have coffee with you."

I remember when I was in my third year of high school, I had a beautiful math teacher and homeroom teacher, who had a sweet temperament and was not lacking in vigorous and resolute behavior, which was excellent to each of our classmates.

At that time, our class was a key science class for the whole grade, with a total of 37 students, and there were more than a dozen seedlings who could be admitted to the second line or above, which attracted much attention. At that time, I had already fallen out of the top 15, and I was physically and mentally exhausted and powerless to change.

Then, my lovely teacher, she took out this article to encourage us, and made me have a thought in my heart, fate can be changed, if it doesn't change, it's just that your efforts are not enough, and the time you spend is not enough.

So, deep down in my heart, the reincarnation of fate in the world cannot be seen when I am alive, and I will not see it unless I die. Even if you die and see the reincarnation of fate, what can you do, do you still have a chance to change?

I do not know. But I believe that eighteen years means a reincarnation that can be seen, a reincarnation that you can shape with all your might.

I think there is hatred and love for Brother Ajun, and this love really exists in the depths of my heart, because he has affected my subconscious, and dreams are irrecognizable evidence.

In the dream, he is the betrayer of our love, and I hope that someone can expose his evil deeds and make him suffer eighteen years in prison, and I will forgive him, and he is still a man, and he can get his own happiness.

Eighteen years later, I was able to live the life I wanted.

When I started talking about the dream, I mentioned that my mother had an ex-husband who was my current father. Does this mean that I thought they would get divorced?

It seems that subconsciously nothing is impossible. I admit that I thought about it before, and I didn't think about it once.

I remember the first time my father and my mother quarreled, I came home from playing and hid under my parents' bed with my family Heiliang.

I searched for this answer for many years, until one day, I rummaged through the cabinets and found one of my mother's ledgers, and I figured out the whole ins and outs by myself.

When my father was young, he poured bee coal in the coal yard, did not make any money, and owed more than 12,000 yuan to the coal boss. 12,000 in '98 was considered a worker's salary for 20 years at the price at that time. For a poor jingle family of four children, parents without a regular job are an astronomical amount of money.

But where exactly does this money go?

My mother married my father at the age of 23 when she was 19 years old. At the age of thirty-two, she was already a housewife with four children, and probably she didn't count the two or three thousand yuan in her hand.

Twelve thousand dollars, how have you ever seen it?

My mom couldn't accept the fact that it was natural to quarrel with my father. Then, she started smashing things, smashing everything that my house could smash that was worthless and worthless. A black-and-white TV that I couldn't see, a washing machine that couldn't be used but could be turned on and off to make a buzzing sound, the only toy in my childhood that could hear the sound, and the most profound memory was the big mirror in the red wardrobe, which was my favorite thing, and it shattered in my ears with a bang. Later, my family didn't even have a bowl to eat for several days.

My father couldn't stand my mother's hysterical distress, and rode his 28 donkey to go, and my mother hooked the wheel of the bicycle with an iron hook, and the wheel bar broke several times, and my father didn't come home for a long, long time after that.

Later, I heard from my mother that she asked someone to give me a message to my father and ask him to come back. The two of them approached the guarantor and the coal boss to discuss an agreement to repay the money, and repay the money at the end of every three years, with an interest of 5 percent, to be repaid in ten years.

Since then, my father and mother have started a small business at home, selling tofu on their own, farming, raising pigs, supporting the basic livelihood of their four children in school, and keeping their savings to pay off.

Twelve years. The coal boss and his wife became uninvited guests of our family for the New Year, and every time they came, my mother's pain was broken, and inevitably afterward, there was a family dispute that could be big or small. When I was older, my mother took me and my brother to my aunt's house, shouting to go back to my mother's house (and I know that my uncle and grandmother live in Qinling, far away), but because of poverty, even the divorce has become a farce, and I need the cooperation of the people around me.

Their noise scared and annoyed me. I even hope that they will divorce early, so that I can have two parents and two parents, and even if they don't love me, they can receive two New Year's money. They can all live happily without quarreling.

When I grew up, I often lamented that my mother's farce when I was a child was really the same as the news made by some celebrities now. We often see many celebrities on the Internet who are divorced, and they often don't know how to divide tens of millions of assets, which makes a lot of troublesome news.

This reminds me of what love expert Tu Lei said, in marriage, the one who has no money must be the one who will not divorce, and the one who has money must be the one who wants to divorce. If two people don't have money, they don't have anything, two people have money, they must be good to talk, they can leave if they want to leave, they can live together if they want to live together, and anyone can find the next family without interfering.

This is the truth when love becomes marriage, when marriage meets money.

When we understand this truth, we should and can still have more love, more understanding, and more trust in the family. This is what we should be looking for a better life, and what a happy and fulfilling family we strive to build looks like.

The dream revealed such a sinful thought to me, and I had nothing to hide. In fact, if parents do not give their children enough love and attention from an early age, then the child will grow up lacking the ability to feel love. It's like a person who doesn't feel pain, and then establishes a social sense of pain under protection, but still doesn't know the feeling of pain.

No physical response to the protection of pain is terrible, and likewise the lack of the ability to perceive love is a disaster. I think I was such a catastrophic existence before until I met Mr. Liu.

However, my parents are not divorced, they have raised four children together, we are allowed to go to higher education, and our family is getting better and better.