"I was walking home alone when I was about to get to the door of my house when I met a man. This man was very familiar, and I vaguely felt that I had a strong love for him, but I couldn't tell who he really was. Vaguely, I heard a voice from the bottom of my heart that was my mother's ex-husband (which is contrary to the truth, because my parents had never been divorced), my dad, my first boyfriend, Ah Jun. ”

In the dream, judging from the size of the body, it is most likely to be a father, but why did I instill two other identities in him, my mother's ex-husband, but my parents have never divorced since then. I guess it's based on the logic of dreams.

I remember in the first paragraph that my mother disappeared, probably because I cursed her to die. This gives a more ethical explanation, that she and my father are divorced, and I probably haven't seen her for a long time. Her disappearance had nothing to do with me, it was because of my father.

And the shadow of Brother Ah Jun appeared in my dream, which made me believe again that my love for him was a real feeling, and the loss of love was also a real pain.

It was just before my twenty-second birthday, and during the winter break, I went to work in the South with a dozen alumni. During those difficult days, I fell in love with Brother Jun, who was five years older than me. Seventeen or eighteen meters tall, deep eyes, high nose bridge, thick lips, abrupt frontal bones, white skin, sharp edges and corners. Holding an Anhui accent Mandarin, a very magnetic baritone.

The black-and-white life of eight o'clock in the morning and eight o'clock in the evening every day, the boring production line work, the repetition of mechanical plug-ins and plug-ins, and the tired self-comfort.

I don't know when, I began to look forward to seeing his face at eight o'clock every day, looking for his figure all the time, not seeing the uneasiness, and watching him laugh inexplicably silly. When eating, look for eye contact across the distance of people. So much so that I forgot to eat, and I lost ten pounds of weight during a winter vacation.

Love is really a force that can create miracles. I like the feeling that I can't tell what it's for.,Probably since the first weekend of overtime.,A strange emotion has arisen.,Explain his every expression.,Every word.,Is it related to himself.。

College students who work during the winter vacation often have to endure more physical and mental torture, while those of us, far away from our families, away from friends, away from the lively and warm Chinese New Year's Eve, are alone in a foreign land, helpless, and desolate in a landless place.

Is it just to fulfill a dream of the warm south that sprouted in my heart when I was a child? The authentic northern girl can endure the dry cold of minus 20 degrees, but she can't adapt to the damp and cold everywhere in the southern winter. The cold in the north is like the man in the north, the cold is so pure and crisp, so direct, no need to be fortified, no need to be fortified.

I remember one time, during the Chinese New Year's overtime, it rained heavily in the south, which is rarely seen in the north.

Has spring come? A rain almost shook my mind. I remember going to breakfast yesterday and being pleasantly surprised by the budding of an unknown pink and white six-petal flower in the yard. Why did this rain wash away the winter and say goodbye to spring in a hurry? I forgot to bring an umbrella when I went out, and through a few big-leaved nurture trees that were dark green all the year round, the bead-sized raindrops fell on the heavy coat, and I really felt that it was in the south.

In a foreign land, you will know what homesickness is, and you will understand the mood that is the most beautiful hometown of Mingyue. will suddenly understand a lot of poems that I have read.

After falling in love with Brother Ajun, I paid more and more attention to my dress, food, clothing, housing and transportation. Don't indulge in the longing for your hometown, and actively live the current life. In the workshop, the machinery rumbles non-stop, and my eardrums also ring day and night. I can't sleep well and eat well, and I'm very sad. Brother Jun, three words, has become a spiritual medicine to cure all my bad emotions.

So much so that when I left, I thought about him like crazy, bothered him with buttons, and told him that I liked him. A man who was once afraid to talk when he met cautiously said to a man who didn't know anything about himself, I like you. How did such an 180-degree turn happen, even I was taken aback afterwards. It reminds me of that inexplicable happy time.

In the factory, summer jobs are very embarrassing. These people are often students, secondary school and college students, and only those in these groups are probably willing to leave their hometowns to fill in the vacancies in the factory when everyone else is returning home for the Chinese New Year.

Processing and manufacturing factory labor-intensive industry, no need for superb technical requirements, rich life experience and ability, the first Chinese literacy to recognize ABC's aunts and uncles will get started.

And we summer workers are just the spare tire of the factory, and the large factories often don't mind hoarding some labor during the summer vacation, because the credibility of completing the project on time is the foundation of the factory.

During the Chinese New Year, a large number of employees lost and changed jobs, and the factory could not start production on time, which was a heavy loss for the company. But for us students, the basic level of food, clothing, housing and transportation for a part-time job in a field is not less than seven or eight hundred, which still has to be covered by the company. The construction period depends on the school holidays (ranging from 30 to 40), and there are no special circumstances to remove the five-day holiday on Chinese New Year's Eve, and usually Saturdays and Sundays will not necessarily let you process.

In this way, you can earn one or two thousand yuan a month. So we can add a weekend 400 yuan class is the honor of our summer workers. I was the only girl among my classmates who worked overtime on the first weekend of the week, which gave me a great honor. At that time, Brother Ah Jun was the line leader who was in charge of the attendance and production of our operators.

One day, I was responsible for inserting a semiconductor plug-in into the circuit board, and I didn't look carefully at the direction of the diagram, and more than 1,600 of them were plugged in backwards all day. At the end of the day, the monitor checked the first one with the last one, only to find that there was a problem. He ran over and yelled, "Have you been plugged in this direction all day today?" ”

I said, "yes."

Brother Jun: "What are you doing?" Whoever taught you, have you carefully read the homework instructions, and who taught you to be smart and not follow the homework instructions. More than 1,600 of them are plugged in this way. Such a big accident is that I can't afford to pay for you and my salary, I can't think of such a simple thing, you are still a college student, fooling around, thinking about what to think about all day long. ”

I was frightened. "What should I do if I can't afford such a big loss?" I thought to myself.

"It's all wrong, it's useless for you to scold me, what do you say next?" Then I said.

I can't even imagine how I can be so calm! I was not frightened and did not say a word. On the contrary, when he is angry, he is as quiet as flowing water, neither humble nor arrogant.

Later, I realized that my ability to pretend to be deep and calm in the face of a major accident is excellent. In fact, I was even ten or twenty times more scared than him in my heart.

"What to do, what can I do? Ask the engineer if he can remedy it," he said thoughtfully, as if he were scolding me, as if asking himself.

Then, he stopped the production line and went to an engineer. After coming back, he was overjoyed, "Say it's okay, just plug it in according to your method, and the engineer said that in fact, we plug it in like this, which is required by the manufacturer." There is a problem with the printing on the work instructions. But that's okay, this plugin is fine anyway. ”