I thought a lot about it tonight.

I don't know if I'm a qualified author.

To be honest, when I don't update or take leave, I'm really not happy at all, and I know that I am ashamed of the expectations of readers, and this feeling is really uncomfortable.

There is no update tonight, I have been at home with a straight face, my heart is messy, and my girlfriend knows that I am depressed.

I don't update, not because I'm lazy, but because I'm confused.

The longer you enter the industry, the more difficult it becomes.

When I used to write "Ghost Doctor", I didn't understand anything, I just did it, and I was happy to write it.

When it came time to write "The Great Sniper", I may have been in a hurry and wanted to write a masterpiece, but I was slapped hard by reality.

Now that I am writing "The Prince", An An is divided into points, honest, and I write that readers like and cater to the market, which can barely get by.

But the ups and downs of this book are really too many to count.

A series of blocking and unlocking operations make new readers unable to read it, and old readers can't watch it, and the rhythm is chaotic.

Maybe this is what everyone calls the bottleneck period.

Since the beginning of this year, I have lost a lot of smiles on my face, the stubble on my chin has become thicker and thicker, and I, who have always rejected smoking, smoked my first cigarette for the first time in my life today.

It's really choking.

Sometimes I'm really scared of my depression.

It's not that I can't write it, but I don't know how to write better and more exciting, and I don't want to cheat everyone's money out of the chapters with random word counts.

Four shifts a day, I want to have content, otherwise I will write casually, and I will accept the money, but I really don't want to do that.

I'm sorry, I feel very guilty, I went out to travel at the beginning of the month, and promised everyone that I would watch four more every day after I came back.

But in the next period of time, the old man wants to reduce it to two watches, and think clearly about how to go in the future.

"The Prince" may have put more effort into it than the previous two books combined, it is a good story, a story that I am not willing to give up.

If I wanted fame, the book could have been finished in two months, but of course, it was a bad end.

Yan Yu's plot, if it doesn't shrink, can at least write more than 800,000 words.

In any case, the story must be well written to the end.

It really doesn't matter if you make money or not, the only thing that makes me want to read reviews now is to see everyone's discussion about the plot, and sometimes everyone's comments will also become a source of inspiration for me.

If you like this story, you don't need to worry, the old man will do his best to tell the story well.

If you just want to have fun, you can only apologize to your friends, too many things in this world are not satisfactory, and it is also a helpless move to do your best to obey the destiny of God.

Again, thank you.

Ghost Cry Decay, September 20, 2019.