If Lao Wei guessed correctly, Master Ji should have reconciled with the past this time, right? In that case, it is not convenient for the old man to be here. Ji Shi, please excuse me, there is no one here today. ”

After the abbot left, Gu Jiuli asked, "Since you don't believe in Buddhism, why do you enshrine her here?" ”

Ji Ruchen picked up the futon on the ground and put it on the stool, pulling her to sit down.

The corners of Gu Jiuli's mouth twitched wildly, feeling embarrassed like sitting on pins and needles.

Although neither of them believes in Buddhism, but it's not a big deal to be so disrespectful, right?

Ji Ruchen understood her expression and said with a smile: "The Buddha Lord is merciful, knowing that you are pregnant and can't suffer the cold, I will be considerate of you." ”

Gu Jiuli: "......."

Thinking of the past, Ji Ruchen restrained the smile on his face, thought about the language for a while, and then said: "Because she committed suicide, in the concept of the older generation, the person who commits suicide is guilty after death, so grandpa enshrines her here, hoping to help her wash away her sins." ”

When Su Lianmeng committed suicide, Ji Ruchen's blood was cold, and there was bitter pain and fear in his eyes.

This is not the powerful Ji Ruchen in adulthood, but the fear and pain of the little Ji Ruchen, who is still young and dependent on his mother and has no ability to resist.

Gu Jiu hugged him painfully, but did not stop him from continuing.

This pain, which was buried deep in the bones and blood, could only come out on his own, and when the tightly covered wound was exposed to the sun, the pain was only temporary, but it would heal after enduring.

How could Gu Jiuli bear to deprive him of a chance to recover?

"Do you know why I called Ji Ruchen the name?"

“...... I don't know. Xu is past is too heavy, I love him so much that I empathize, and Gu Jiuli's voice can't help but be hoarse.

"When my brother was born, it was when they lived happily as a couple, and the third generation of the eldest grandson of the Ji family was given infinite high hopes, and he was the heir as soon as he spoke out, so he was named Xu, which means sun."

"And when she was pregnant with me, he cheated on her, and she had prenatal depression because of it. The eldest brother is the heir of the Ji family, so he has always been personally taken by his grandfather, so everyone didn't pay much attention to me after I was born. She gave her a name and lived with her. ”

Ji Ruchen paused when he said this, and Gu Jiuli could clearly feel that he was trembling.

I don't know what to say to comfort, so I can only hold him tightly in my hands, and tell him with my actions that all this is in the past, and now she is there.

"She always thought that because she was pregnant with me, she gave that man an excuse and a chance to cheat, and I hated me since I was born. The name Ji Ruchen means that I am as dirty and despicable as dust. ”

Such as dust, such as dust, means low as dust.

Gu Jiuli wanted to say something, but Ji Ruchen stopped her: "Let me finish speaking, since it's all said here, there is no reason to retreat again." ”

Gu Jiuli nodded with difficulty.

"I heard the maid discuss in private that she never held me or nursed me when I was born, and that the nanny was all taking care of me. By the time I was about two years old, she was getting sicker. It's fine during the day, but at night I start to go crazy. ”

"First locked me in a dark closet, cursed me, abused me, called me filthy and mean, and a scourge, so that the man would cheat and ignore her. Slowly he began to beat me, punished me for not eating, and asked me to beg the man to come back and see her. Later, she didn't know what to think, and thought that if I got sick and was dying, the man would come back to see her. ”

"Then in the winter, she locked me out of the balcony, the cold wind blew fiercely, and I didn't treat the cold, and I waited for a serious delay to have a reason to let the man come back to take a look, until it developed to the point where I was six years old and made me kneel outside the ice and snow, if the maid hadn't called my grandfather because she couldn't stand it, I might have frozen to death and she wouldn't have felt distressed."