106 If there is a way back
didn't return overnight, and Shangguan Jueai just sat there all night guarding Shangguan Yunxiao's tablet. There is nowhere to speak of that confusion. Wrong, after all, it's wrong, how can I find her solution.
In the house, everything is still quiet, and there has been no change because of Shangguan's disappearance overnight.
Just walked step by step without a purpose, and before he knew it, Shangguan Jueai actually came to Enfeng Pavilion. For a while, all kinds of flavors came to my heart.
Since Kou Leer gave birth, she has not entered her room, the pain of losing a child, how can a woman who has just given birth bear it. The subordinate saw him enter the Enfeng Pavilion and wanted to say hello, but he waved his hand to stop him.
Ko Le'er was lying on the bed with a pale face, weak, her long hair scattered, her face without any expression, and there was no blood at all. Chunhong sat on the edge of the bed with a bowl of porridge, and sent it to her mouth one by one, only after a few bites, she was waved back by Kou Le'er.
"Miss, take another bite, just a small bite. Good no good? "Chunhong has been lowered. Tears want to come out in a hurry.
"Miss is obedient, the body is important, the little master is gone, you can have another one after your body is better, you must take care of your body now." Chunhong's words were reasonable, but Kou Le'er still didn't speak, didn't pay attention to Chunhong, and didn't move, so powerless, her eyes were blank and blank. I can't seem to see anything.
Shangguan Jueai's heart tightened, this was a feeling that he had never felt before. Some are sorry for Ko Le'er, no, more heartache. He really wanted to soothe the melancholy on her face at this time, to kiss the sadness on the corner of her mouth, he didn't have any desire, he just wanted to give her a little comfort, let her know that he had always been by her side and had never gone far.
"Young Master." Chunhong saw Shangguan Jueai coming over, put down the bowl, and gave a salute.
"How's Le'er? Why don't you eat? Knowing why, he still wanted to ask, to know what was going on in her mind.
"For three days, I only drink a little brown sugar water every day, and this little porridge is still willing to eat this little bit under the cry of the slave maid, if this continues, the young lady's body must not be able to stand it?" Chunhong cried again, she had been by Kou Le'er's side since she was a child, she knew what she was thinking, but now that the child died young, no one could replace her.
Shangguan Jueai motioned for Chunhong to go down, then picked up the bowl on the table and sat on the edge of the bed. Looking at Kou Le'er in front of her, her eyes were still empty and she didn't have any ideology.
"Come on, Le'er, eat a little more." Shangguan Jue loved to bring porridge to her lips, but she really didn't open her mouth, ignored him, and didn't look at him, as if there was no such person in front of her.
"Le'er, be obedient, just take one bite, I'll beg you." He didn't dare to claim to be a justice in front of her, because he hurt her too much.
Kou Le'er still didn't open her mouth, helpless, Shangguan Jueai put down the bowl and gently touched her face with her hand, tears just fell, stained with messy hair, entangled.
"Le'er, I was wrong before, I shouldn't have done that to you. Forgive me, give me another chance, and I'll treat you well. Believe me. Kou Le'er didn't speak yet, no matter how good the Shangguan in front of her said it, she still didn't want to listen to it, because, at this time, it was too difficult and too difficult for her to believe him.
"Just say a word, just say a word to me, okay? Le'er. I beg you, don't torture yourself like this. Kid, we'll have it again. And I promise, I will love you well in the future. "Such a promise is too empty, you can love Kole alone, or you can love all the women in the world, this kind of love, I'm afraid it can't touch her heart.
Seeing that she was silent, Shangguan Jueai took her hand and put it on his face, I don't know when these hands became thin like this. Hold it as if there are only bones. My heart hurt again, and everything was done by myself. Is it someone else's fault?
"Will everything you say be true?" A little brilliance suddenly appeared in Koleer's empty eyes. Shangguan absolutely loves to catch it.
"Yes, Le'er, it's all true." Shangguan Jueai finally waited for her to speak, and naturally didn't want to let go of the opportunity to perform.
"Then I want you to do something for me. May I? The hand was still in his palm, and his heart was still cold and not a little warm.
"Good. I'll do it for you. All right? Without asking what was the matter, Shangguan Jueai responded in one bite.
"Kill Zi Ruoqing. Can you do it? There was a kind of Lingli in Kou Le'er's eyes again.
"Why?" Shangguan Jueai didn't expect Kou Le'er to ask him to do this.
"Embarrassed? If I live. She had to die. If I die, I will draw her to die with me. Kole said this fiercely, expressing her inner thoughts.
"Le'er, you're not you anymore." When he said this, Shangguan Jueai obviously felt disbelief, when did it start, this woman's heart turned ruthless. When I hadn't seen her for three years, I hadn't seen her so vicious.
"Hahaha. Shangguan is absolutely loved. I really don't mean me anymore. I'm not the Kou Le'er I was four years ago, and I've told you this countless times. But you don't believe it, I just want to live well with you. Trust each other. But what you have given me is endless pain. In your heart, have you ever truly loved me. Who am I, Koleer, and what have you given me? The sentence after sentence of reproach made Shangguan Jueai speechless. These are all facts.
"Le'er, we can start over. Isn't it? ”
"No way, we don't have a chance to start over. Do you want to put your left hand around Zi Ruoqing and your right hand around me and start over? My child has been killed by Zi Ruoqing. It's going to be me next. Between me and her. You can only choose one. If you choose me, you will let her die. If you choose her, you will be the result of me. In this way, only one person was injured. Which do you choose? "Only in this way is a good solution to the problem. It's just that Shangguan Jueai won't choose, and he won't choose any of them.
"Le'er, this question is too difficult. Do you know? I owe Qing'er so much that I can't leave her alone. Besides, she still has my baby. I can't kill her. As for you, it turns out that I misunderstood you, so I have repeatedly done it to you. Breaks your heart. Now I must not abandon you. Besides, we once had a child. Shangguan Jueai hesitated. I don't know how to make an idea, and I don't know how to comfort the woman in front of me.
"My child, has you been killed by Zi Ruoqing? And my child has nothing to do with you. I already know your decision. Are you leaving? Kole pulled out the hand in his hand, which was still stained with his little temperature.
"Le'er, Qing'er is so kind. She did not kill our children. I promise. You have to trust me. Shangguan Jueai saw that Kou Le'er had returned to her coldness just now. My heart was sad again. I don't know when this woman's joy and anger can affect her emotions. It's just that my discovery is a little late.
"I never believed in you. And you, too, have never done anything worthy of my trust. Kou Leer gently pulled the corner of the quilt, nested herself in the quilt again, turned her back to him, and shed tears on her face.
"Don't do this to yourself. I was wrong, really wrong. Give me a chance. All right. Le'er. Le'er... No matter how much Shangguan loves to call again, Kou Le'er is still unmoved. Nest yourself tightly under the covers. Try not to listen to his call. She is afraid, afraid that her heart will soften, and then everything she has paid will be lost.
"Do you think your Qing'er is still the same Qing'er you knew back then? Do you think I'm still the same Koleer you married? You're wrong, Shangguan is absolutely loved. I can accommodate all the women to be your concubines. However, she was not accommodated. Kou Le'er lifted the quilt and looked into Shangguan's beloved eyes, as if she wanted to see through his heart.
"Why?" Shangguan was absolutely puzzled.
"For thou hast seen only her people, but not her heart. She drugged and killed the nurse first, and then blamed me. She counted the time. You're sure to see it all. Xiaoyun's whole family was also harmed by her. Still, you believe her. The person who entered the mansion that night and fought with Chang Wu was also her. Also, she is the one who has repeatedly staged a traitorous story for me. She is the female master of the so-called Shuramon. When you believe in her, you give up your trust in everyone. So, I say, you're the dumbest person in the world, carried away by love. You don't care about anything. Will you still take care of me? So, Shangguan Jueai, I don't trust you. Only when she is dead can you make me trust again. I've given you a chance. You chose to give up. So I have nothing to say. If you still have a little bit of conjugal affection, I beg you, you let me live well, okay? Let me go? Kou Le'er's words were almost pleading. Such a man, don't do it.
"Le'er, there is no evidence for what you said. Such a fact cannot be established. You give me time. Find out everything. All right? ”
"You can't find out. I can't find it out for the rest of my life. Because you don't want to look it up at all. Let's go. Shangguan Jueai, you are not the lover I want. If possible, please set me free. In the end, the tears fell again.
"Is it really impossible for us to go back to the past?" Shangguan is still hopeful. If only admitting mistakes can resolve everything, then everyone will be happy.
"I'm sorry, it's hard to look back. Chunhong, send the young master out. I'm going to rest. "There are no more languages. That kind of coldness. Anyone can see clearly.
"Young Master. Please. Chunhong made a gesture of please. Shangguan Jueai had no choice but to walk out.
A fresh breeze blew. His mind cleared a little. No wonder people often say. There is no turning back. If you make a mistake in your life, you will never have a chance to look back.
I watched the door of Enfeng Pavilion close again. Shangguan's absolute love heart sank little by little.