The original intention is easy to obtain, but it is always difficult to keep. At first, I thought it was my own, but later I realized that it was all my own mistake. Often it backfires, and more leave because of understanding.

Such an understanding shatters self-righteousness, frightening, even frightening, suffocating......

In the end, I chose to let him go, but I didn't let him go......

...... 2018

"Finally graduated, ending this not carefree college career. Graduating, it also means that I have ended my internship career and am ready to officially become a full-time employee. Let's go out and celebrate in the evening......" Chen Liangdao, who was wearing a doctor's gown for the graduation ceremony.

"Yes, I ended the life that can be fooled, and officially entered the mature and responsible pace that adults should have. It's time to celebrate......" Ye Qing took his graduation certificate as a microphone and announced loudly.

Meeting in a KTV, Ye Qing couldn't help but ask: I really want to interview you, there is a word about love.

"Don't touch or mention it...... is the truth," Chen Liang said with a roll of his eyes.

"Well, even if you understand love every word thoroughly, you still can't graduate...... It's been so long, can't you still let it go? Ye Qing asked with a frown.

"It's not that you can't put it down, it's okay not to mention it, it's good now!" Ye Qing picked up the wine glass and took a sip and asked.

"Speaking of which, blame me for it......" Ye Qing touched Chen Liang's wine glass, and after speaking, drank it all.

"Don't take it on yourself, what's your business, if it's not for my own lameness, just rely on your broken skills?" Chen Liang smiled bitterly and drank the wine in his glass. Reminiscences......

Antecedent...... (3 years ago)

Chen Liang - one, since he was a child, he has been accustomed to hiding all his losses and unpleasantness with a big grinning personality, and likes to paint when he is quiet and lonely.

Mom said that Chen Liang means that she hopes that she will be able to have a big tree to enjoy the shade and rely on in the future. (At that time, Chen Liang didn't understand, let alone understand.) ）

However, in Chen Liang's opinion, people are as cool as their name suggests.

Where do you start...... F City! X University!

Freshman year, this is the dream of many students who yearn for a free life, and finally Chen Liang also entered the starting point of a more lonely life from a lonely life, and she named it: the sum of loneliness!

There is no one she is familiar with in this university, and she chose this place because she heard that this school is a first-class art school (of course, there are better schools, but I really don't allow it.) ）。 Therefore, endure the pain and part ways with the "buddy".

Love at first sight, the one who had only seen and heard of it in idol dramas, but didn't expect it to happen to him one day.

When he first arrived at the new school, everything was born, Chen Liang put away his usual optimism, and the stupidity that he thought was cool.

A month after the start of school, Chen Liang met a few "bad friends" (Lu saw the injustice and roared. Although he often violates school rules, he is very good to Chen Liang!

On this day, in the evening self-study, Ye Qing, the best friend, took advantage of the teacher's time to run to the playground with Chen Liang to swallow smoke and smoke.

"Hey, I said, is this really such a good cigarette? Look at the little gesture you enjoy, as for it? Although Chen Liang was also rebellious at that time, he was still very simple.

"You don't understand the feeling in this, but it's okay if you don't understand, I don't have to smoke it, it's just that I'm in a bad mood to find a sustenance, and express it when I'm in a good mood." Ye Qing said with smoke in his mouth.

Although Chen Liang didn't understand it at that time, he felt that it seemed to have a deep meaning.

"Then you're not in a beautiful mood and still beautiful, when is the normal time, can you really not smoke? I don't really understand what you're saying, but I do know that it feels like a fool. Chen Liang sat on the horizontal bar and asked with a smile.

Ye Qing replied with some amusement: I feel that I am in a beautiful mood now, because you accompany me to skip class, enough sisters. When I don't smoke normally, it must be because my parents are there or my teachers are there, or I don't want to be in front of certain people.

Looking at Ye Qing, who was making a funny gesture at the moment, Chen Liang couldn't see clearly, and even felt a little bitter.

"After spitting out the smoke, go back, the provincial teacher found out and pulled me into the water." Chen Liangyang pretended to be angry, but he just wanted to break this atmosphere.

"Okay, cool ......"

Ye Qing took Chen Liang's hand and said with a shake, returning with reconnaissance steps.

"Ah......h

"Liangliang, are you okay......" Ye Qing asked nervously, she accidentally shook Chen Liang over her head and touched the cigarette butts of her fellow practitioners.

"I'm fine." Listening to Ye Qing's anxious voice, Chen Liang replied, looking up and seeing a handsome face.

"It's okay, let's go back quickly." An unfamiliar voice rang out.

A face that made Chen Liang's heart beat faster, his eyes were like stars, the corners of his mouth were raised, and his voice was like an electric shock. Men are not bad, women are not loved, and it is true that they are not deceitful.

"Hey, cool down, wipe your saliva, and go." Ye Qing looked at Chen Liang's appearance and felt a little disgusted.

Chen Liang listened, and while pulling Ye Qing to run, he also wiped the saliva that didn't exist.

Back in class, the head teacher was moving a chair and sitting at the door waiting for them.

Finished...... At this moment, all kinds of regrets, realizations, and pains in their hearts are heartbroken. But every time I ran out, I was so resolute, excited, and unrepentant.

"Teacher, we went to the toilet, people have three urgency, the teacher is not there, we have to cut first and then play." Ye Qing's face was not red, and his heart was flickering.

"Remember that the teacher is a carnivore, not a vegetarian, go back, don't take an example." The teacher said with a grim smile.

Fortunately, it's a male teacher, and with some embarrassing thoughts, it's still a temporary substitute teacher, otherwise it would be a big deal to be a teacher.

"Yes." Ye Qing pulled Chen Liang back to his seat quickly.

After self-study in the evening, on the way back to the dormitory, Ye Qing looked at Chen Liang, who was a little distraught, and asked: What is your situation?

"It seems to be love at first sight......" Chen Liang said without concealment. It is more appropriate to say that there is no concealment, and its usefulness is unconsciously realized.

"No, he's not easy to mess with." Ye Qingzhen said with big eyes.

"You know him?" Chen Liang asked curiously.

"Who doesn't know the people of the year in the third year, who doesn't know them? Forehead... Doesn't include single-mindedly painting you. Ye Qing said mischievously.

"A gentleman does not take the favor of others, although I am a woman...... But I just want to know, does the famous grass have a master? Chen Liang asked bluntly.

"You shouldn't be a big brother's woman, you should be your big brother well, as far as I know, no." Ye Qing raised his forehead and complained.

"It's good if you don't have it, you have a chance to ......," Chen Liang said confidently with the corners of his mouth raised.

"In that case, let it go and chase it backwards, I absolutely support you." Ye Qing said it very well, but her disgusted expression betrayed her.

Chen Liang was in a good mood and chose to ignore ......

Three days later, in the evening, Chen Liang took a three-word love letter and found the famous grass under the big tree-Gu someone.

A group of them were gathered there, and there were girls...... It seemed that he was playing some game, Chen Liang didn't think much about it.

Gu turned his head when he heard Chen Liang's shout, and then simply got up and walked in front of Chen Liang thoughtfully.

took the note from Chen Liang's hand, and suddenly shouted loudly: This classmate, I like you too.

Chen Liang is in the circle, it's so simple?

"Your name? What grade is it? ”

"I'm a freshman in the art department, Chen Liang."

"My classmates are here, you go back first, and when I'm free, I'll talk to you clearly." Gu said with a twinkle in his eyes.

Chen Liang waited for someone Gu for a week in ignorance, but he didn't see him say anything, so there was no follow-up.

"Or... You write a letter and ask him, and I'll help you find someone to hand it to him, right? Ye Qing proposed.

Chen Liang replied with some weakness: It's okay, it's better than being so unclear and unclear.

I only handed the letter the day before yesterday afternoon, and sure enough, the cafeteria at noon the next day came to the cafeteria, but unfortunately it was not the person I wanted to see.

"You're Senior Sister Chen Liang, right?" The visitor, a beautiful senior sister, asked as soon as she came up.

"I am, you are?" Chen Liang asked with a bad premonition.

"I'm Gu someone's girlfriend --- Qianqian, is this a letter you wrote to him?" Qianqian asked bluntly.

Chen Liang is also a person who dares to be a daring person, and he did not shy away from answering: I wrote it, first of all... I didn't know he had a girlfriend again.

Qianqian said angrily: Then now I officially notify you, you know? Moreover, we have already met with our parents, and we will get engaged first this winter vacation.

"I see, I won't move with the Lord, before... Let's just misunderstand. Chen Liang's heart was cold, but he said very happily.

(Wow...) Shameless, they're almost engaged, and they're going to provoke... The flow of people in the cafeteria is so large that one person and one saliva can drown Chen Liang to death, that is, he is strong inside. ）

At this critical time, the male protagonist who killed the cause of this misunderstanding - Gu Sheng, everyone likes to call him Gu someone.

Gu explained in front of the melon-eating crowd in front of the audience: It was because we were playing the truth or dare game that day, and we were offended in a hurry. I wanted to explain it to you afterwards, but I forgot about it after two days of busyness, and I apologize here if I caused you trouble.

Originally... It's just a game in his eyes, it's embarrassing... Chen Liang's only tsundere did not allow himself to bow his head.

(Wow...) Blood, a game, a dream... Sighs rang out all around, and the latest reviews. ）

Ye Qing took Chen Liang's hand and maintained: That's good, otherwise...

Before Ye Qing's words were finished, Gu Someone interrupted and said: However, after this contact, I think you are very different, you have succeeded... I seem to be a little attracted to you, I like your character, if I could...

"No, don't even think about it, I, Chen Liang, am someone you can't climb, phew... Scumbag. Looking at Qianqian's red eyes, Chen Liang felt some sympathy for her, and also expressed her sadness for being blind at a young age.

(Wow...) Ruthless, it's really a scumbag, and he still wants to enjoy the blessings of all people... ）

In the midst of everyone's pointing and gossiping, Chen Liang threw down the fast food that he hadn't touched yet, pulled Ye Qing and left the cafeteria.

In this way, under the circumstance that it is no exaggeration to know, Chen Liang's first first love was "miscarried", and it is not as good as the secret love of "stillbirth". Therefore, Chen Liang sneered even more at the word of love (the misfortune of his parents had caused Chen Liang's slight fear, and this time it was even more untouchable.) ), also made Chen Liang realize his own opinions.

Her opinion is as follows: it is happier to find someone who loves herself than to find someone who loves herself; Whoever loves more and who is too serious loses seems to be the weak side of this love; She even thinks that the word love is better than asking for trouble...

Ye Qing listened to her opinion, smiled at the time, shook his head and said: Mushroom Liang... You are still too young, and the word of love comes and goes without a trace, how can you stop it, you just wait and feel it.

Sure enough, in the three years of college, Chen Liang rejected all suitors, and did not look at any boys again, and lived a big brother's appearance, but such an alternative personality attracted the attention of the opposite sex even more. Some people will understand, some people will disdain, and some people will forget it over time, but for Chen Liang, it's all clouds...