In the week that Nan Yuanshan died, Nan Huaifeng didn't even know how he spent his life, walking aimlessly on the street every day like a walking corpse, and did not return home until evening. When I got home, I either sat in the living room and looked at the door, or I sat stupidly with my back to the door......

He didn't know what the meaning of such a life was, and after the man left, it was as if he was the only one left in the world. He has been withdrawn since he was a child, but he doesn't like to deal with people anymore, and sometimes he doesn't say a word to people all day.

Late at night, he always sat on the balcony at night and looked at the starry sky, thinking about what he had done in the past ten years. Or why do you live in this world? He has no friends, and now he has no family. It's a question he often asks himself, and it's the one that has always bothered him.

In the past, when men were still around, he would occasionally ask men: "Why do people like us live in this world?" ”

The man smiled every time and replied, "Sometimes I feel that I don't live for anything." It's about meeting, meeting different people, meeting different things. And all we have to do is to live better in this world. ”

Whenever he felt depressed about dealing with people, unhappy because of many injustices in life. Men always tell him: "Go out and walk more, see the world more, where is there so much fairness in life?" But there is still a lot of good in the world. Is it because 'the wicked have their own wicked grinding' that you go to be the wicked man? Or is it because of a little kindness that you feel insignificant, you won't do it? ”

"Actually, when you realize that the world is unfair, it's already good. Although there are very few people like us, there is no shortage of people like us in this life. And what we have to do is to do a little bit to make others feel that life is good. ”

……

He finally mustered up the courage and decided to go out and have a look. After school for three consecutive days, he didn't go home for dinner in the afternoon, and he didn't say a word to the man after returning home, just washed up silently and went to bed.

On the first day, he came to a "beggar's den" that was even more difficult than theirs. A small number of people have haggard faces because of begging. What's more is to remove those lifelike props, with spittle on your hands, counting the money, laughing? And the children who begged not enough to complete the task and were punished? In a small alley, there is everything. He only felt angry, and left the alley without staying long.

The next day, despite his reluctance, he was patient and came to a slum, where poorly clothed children were playing and playing, men were cooking, and women were wiping sweat and respecting each other. He thinks this may be what men call "beautiful", right? But when he was about to leave, he overheard two so-called "little heads" who seemed to be discussing how to squeeze those poor people again? He left in despair, a place full of joy and sorrow.

By the third day, he was numb. He walked down the street without direction, looking at the crowds coming and going, and he didn't know where to go. Under the colorful neon lights of the city, the boy's face looked very pale, and he couldn't help but raise his head and look at the night sky. On what basis do men say that there is still a lot of beauty in the world? It was the first time he doubted a man's thoughts. Before he knew it, he had walked to the park, some distance from his home, and he looked at the fallen leaves on the ground that had been blown away by the wind, not knowing what he was thinking.

He sat on a park bench with his chin propped up in his hands, and there was a hint of loneliness in his eyes. Growing up, he closed himself off and never tried to communicate with people, he felt that he could see clearly enough, so he was too lazy to deal with those complicated interpersonal relationships. Looking at the people on the street in groups of three or five joking, or on the other bench, a couple snuggling up to each other, and the old man carrying a cloth bag on the side of the road, waiting for his wife to finish dancing with a smile......

It was the first time he felt a little lonely, as if he was out of place with the world, no, the world was out of place with him.

He got up silently, bought a string of rock sugar gourds at the stall next to the park, and turned around to go home.

While the man was warming up his meal, he looked back and smiled and asked, "What do you see?" ”

He was silent, finished eating the last rock sugar gourd, opened his mouth and spit out the pit out of the window, threw away the bamboo sticks, and prepared to turn around and wash and sleep.

The man kept silent about him, just stunned for a moment, and then continued to laugh: "I look at your expression, it seems that you are very unhappy with what you see and hear?" ”

He was a little irritable, and no longer paid attention to the man, but he didn't leave, just quietly took a glass of water, leaned against the windowsill, and looked out the window.

The man didn't seem surprised that he had such a reaction, the man smiled and said in that mellow voice: "Actually, each of us is the same, it just depends on your mentality, how to see the world." When you are happy, you feel that what you see is beautiful. When you're down, it's as if everything isn't going well. It is difficult for a person to really know himself, and every day he thinks about why people who are alive are so tired. Why can't you try to take it slowly and try it? ”

He took a sip from his cup and looked away.

In fact, he did not believe that there were good things in this world, and neither did people.

Until that day, he met her, and she met him.

After the man died, for a week, Nan Huaifeng felt that everything was lost, and whenever he couldn't stand the loneliness, he wanted to kill himself. On Wednesday afternoon, he bought a fruit knife on his way home, and several times on the way he wanted to do it, but remembering his father's last words, he leaned against the wall, gasped for breath, shed tears, and slapped himself wildly.

He put away the fruit knife and silently walked home along the familiar alley.

As he walked, he suddenly paused and frowned, and not far away, three or four thugs stopped a little girl, who was about to move.

Looking at the girl's blue school uniform, it seems that it is a student of their school, or his classmate, Shen Qing?

He didn't have anything to do with her school, but he couldn't bear to watch the girl being molested by a few unscrupulous youths.

If he just pretended not to see it and left silently, I'm afraid he would feel guilty for the rest of his life, right?

He stood where he was, staring slightly, looking into the dim alley under the sunset.

The leader of a gangster with dyed blonde hair, who seemed to be a leader, propped himself on the wall next to the little girl with one hand, forced the little girl in the corner, and smiled lightly: "Little girl, why don't you call it?" How many times do you scream? ”

A few thugs around, whistling and laughing.

Nan Huaifeng no longer hesitated, quietly hid the fruit knife in his sleeve, and took a step directly in front of those gangsters.

He said with a calm face: "Get out of the way." ”

It seems to be saying a particularly mundane thing, but it makes people feel unquestionable.

A few thugs looked back at the boy in a blue school uniform, with short hair, a thin body, and a pale face.

One of the thugs was stunned for a while, quickly covered his stomach, squatted on the ground and laughed, and the rest of the thugs also laughed.

Like hearing the funniest joke in the world?

The golden retriever scolded with a smile and rewarded them with a kick, what the hell?

Then he turned his head to look at the young man who was standing silently at the end of the alley, the hand hidden in the sleeve of the young man's coat, as if he was pinching something?

He looked up at him, only to see a pair of black eyes staring at him calmly. If you are an ordinary person, how can you be so calm and calm? The blonde young man didn't have a brain on the brain, he frowned, like this kind of people who came alone, either they were prepared, or they were hot-blooded and had a sick brain? But his intuition told him that the young man's cold eyes were full of danger.

His eyes were contemptuous, and he said casually:

"Boy, if you know each other, hurry up and give Lao Tzu a fuck, it's none of your business, uncle, I'm in a good mood today, so I won't be embarrassed by you."

The boy still stood still like a pestle of wood, and said in a deep voice, "Get out of the way"! ”

Looking at the posture, the young man is clearly going to "see the unevenness of the road and draw a knife to help".

The golden retriever looked displeased and spat fiercely. turned around and was about to make a move on the young man, obviously he was also a little angry, and took Lao Tzu's words as wind in his ears? As the wind in your ears, there are gusts of wind blowing at all.

Shen Qing's face turned pale, and when she saw the person clearly, she grabbed the corner of her clothes with both hands, and tears burst out of her eyes. She said loudly: "Nan Huaifeng, you go!" Let's go! ……”

For this classmate, because of his difference, she felt as if the young man's eyes were always full of an indescribable meaning, which had nothing to do with good or evil. She would always pay attention to him silently during recess, but she still didn't feel that she knew him well enough.

In her impression, the teenager has almost no vitality that his peers should have, but seems dull. A pair of black eyes, like an abyss, bottomless, make it impossible to guess what he was thinking. Usually dressed very plainly, it is always a set of washed white blue school uniforms. No amount of joy, anger, sorrow or joy seemed to be suitable for his eyes.

She had learned about Nan Huaifeng's background, she was an orphan who happened to be picked up by the director of the orphanage and raised by her. His grades are not good, and his conditions are not good.

The more such a person, the more lonely she feels, so she intends to enter his life and help him change. But every time she greeted her with a smile, the boy just nodded, and didn't want to say more. Due to his poor grades, the teacher basically wouldn't ask him to answer questions in class, so even his name was only secretly glimpsed from his textbook.

She was curious, and she felt that he was lonely.

But the boy stood there alone, even if he couldn't save her, she felt very good.

Hearing the girl shouting for the boy to leave, the golden retriever turned his head to look at the girl, his eyes were gloomy, and he spit, what he hated most in his life was this kind of "you and me" between men and women.

He looked unhappy and shouted loudly:

"Are you a toast and don't eat and drink? Then the uncle will teach you how to behave! ”

The gangsters next to him muttered, and they all felt that the boss talked a lot today, and with the usual personality of the boss, he must have beaten him up directly, and stripped the boy naked and threw it out.

The boy didn't look at them again, just grinned at the girl who was trembling with tears.

He squinted, and suddenly slid the fruit knife hidden in his sleeve into his hand, his eyes were cold, and he frantically waved the fruit knife towards the girl.

Seeing that this was wrong, the golden retriever gangster hurriedly hid aside and asked the younger brothers to stop him. But a few gangsters who only dare to sneak oil on the bus on weekdays and scare girls, how have they ever seen this kind of scene, this kind of deadly person? They all stopped, not daring to step forward.

So he soon came to the pale girl, and without saying a word, he pulled her and ran out.

Most of the golden retrievers were still people who had seen some scenes, so they immediately picked up a wooden stick and threw it at the boy's head.

As if he hadn't seen it, the boy didn't dodge, but just dragged the girl and ran wildly.

The thugs stood dumbfounded, looked at each other, and shook their heads again. Sure enough, it's still a young man's blood? Is that stick a joke? The young man who wielded the knife didn't even look back, just pulling his "girlfriend" to escape?

……

After running to the side of the road not far from the mall, he let go of her, and the girl squatted on the ground panting: "Thank you, thank you, Nan, Nan Huaifeng, if you don't come forward today, I will ......"

The boy covered his head and was about to turn around and go home.

The girl stood up with her waist propped up, and when she saw the blood trickling through her fingers on Nan Huaifeng's head, she couldn't help but cover her mouth with her hand and whispered, "Nan Huaifeng, wait." ”

Although the boy was puzzled, he still stopped, and turned his head to look at her with deep eyes.

This is the first time he has taken a closer look at this female classmate, this school flower? Although she took the initiative to find him a few times in good faith in the past and wanted to help him, he didn't believe that anyone would treat him well for no reason, so he didn't accept it.

At dusk, a layer of blush appeared on the face of the girl without makeup, and she was constantly panting, and there were still some tears on her delicate face. I don't know if it's because I'm in a hurry, or because I'm nervous.

Shen Qing hurriedly trotted over and pulled out the strap of the schoolbag with both hands. lowered his head, but his face turned even redder, "Thank you for today, that, you have an injury on your head, can I wipe it for you with a handkerchief?" ”

Nan Huaifeng waved his hand and was about to lift his feet to leave, but Shen Qing stretched out his hand. He looked displeased, glancing at a white hand that was holding his arm. Since he was a child, in addition to nurses, this is the first time that the opposite sex has touched his hand and wants to struggle.

Shen Qing's face flushed, lowered his head, and gently let go of his hand, but said with a crying voice: "Hey, how can you do this to me?" If you save me, won't you allow me to help you stop the bleeding? ”

Nan Huaifeng couldn't help frowning again, he couldn't see a girl crying the most, but he was not good at dealing with girls.

He finally didn't refuse, stretched out a hand, and pointed again. Probably mean, bring me the handkerchief and I'll wipe it myself.

Shen Qing couldn't wipe her tears, smiled suddenly, took out a white handkerchief with the girl's faint body fragrance from her backpack, and reached out and handed it to him.

When he reached out and was about to wipe it, he smelled the faint fragrance of the girl's handkerchief. He looked at Shen Qing, who had red ears and red ears and looked like a little girl, with a strange expression. As if thinking of something, he casually put his handkerchief in his trouser pocket, waved his hand, and turned away.

Only Shen Qing was left standing in place, and for a while, she blushed to the root of her ears, a little apprehensive, and a little happy. In the end, she looked at the figure of the teenager in the sunset, the teenager who was not very tall, at this moment, it seemed to be so tall in her heart. She smiled brightly, looked at the young man's back, put her hands to her mouth to make a trumpet shape, and shouted: "Nan Huaifeng, thank you for saving me!" But can you smile more? It's scary for you to do this......"

Nan Huaifeng still didn't look back, until after leaving the girl's sight, he raised his eyebrows, thought about it seriously, and then muttered to himself: "I don't look good when I laugh, but I don't seem to look scary?" ”

Unbeknownst to the boy, when he put away his handkerchief, a figure had quietly entered his life.

But she knew that he wasn't so impersonal either? It turns out that he is also a shy boy?

Freezing three feet, not a day's cold.

He is not an indifferent person in his bones, although he has no favorite person or thing before now, and he may not have it in the future, but he seems to have some hope gradually?

Then take a look at it again? Wait?