I opened my mouth several times before I spit out dryly: "You explain to him, and he will understand you." ”

She smiled wryly and shook her head: "There's no need. ”

I was stuck in my throat: "Why didn't I ......?"

She slowly raised her eyes to look at me, her eyes were full of sadness, and she interrupted me in a calm tone: "Because what is said on the Internet is true." ”

"I did have a crush on Hu Haodong for four years."

I didn't know what to say or how to comfort her, so I tentatively patted her on the shoulder.

She laughed slowly, it was worse than crying, and my heart was not good.

"I'm really fine. This result was within my expectations, but they missed a point. ”

I pursed my lips and asked softly, "What?" ”

Her eyes slowly lowered, there was no trace of the past brilliance in her eyes, and her voice was thin and lonely: "My crush is not unrequited love. ”

Yan Ting glanced at me and asked cautiously, "Does Hu Haodong like you too?" ”

"Hmm." She answered, the corners of her mouth raised a bitter arc, and the whole person had a sad look.

I don't understand why people who are in love with each other miss out, and I can't help but ask: "Isn't it the expected result to like each other and be together?" ”

She was silent, picking at the phone case in her hand, her nails were so hard that they turned white, and then she slowly spoke: "Everything is my problem." ”

The synagogue was bustling with applause, singing, and musical instruments. But only the area around us, sitting in the third-to-last row by the window of the synagogue, was a sad and sad atmosphere that did not fit in.

She pretended to shrug her shoulders easily, slowly lifted her head that had been raised high in the past, looked into the distance with a faint look, and used her not as sweet and sad and nostalgic voice as background music, bringing us into her unforgettable youth.

"The first time I met him was on the day of admission, when I was queuing up to pay the tuition. I dropped my acceptance letter and he picked it up for me. ”

"At that time, I thought, how can anyone be so dark. But when he laughed and showed his neat row of big, white teeth, I was really amazed. ”

"I thought it was just an occasional encounter, and there will be no story in the future. Who knows, I was placed in the same class as him. ”

"When he entered the class, he was behind me again. As soon as I turned around, I saw him smiling at me and saying that it was a coincidence. ”

"At that time, I thought, maybe this is the legendary fate."

"After that, watching him become the most powerful and eye-catching football center on the school team, but in front of me is delicate and gentle, watching him surrounded by little girls with love letters every day, I have the confidence that he will be dismissive. Because I felt it, he liked me very much. ”

I just looked at his smiling face every day, felt his care and gentleness for me, and spent my freshman year of high school. By the time I got to my sophomore year of high school, everything changed. ”

"In high school, what can cut off ignorant love is the teaching building that is far away, and the second is the recklessness and arrogance that do not know how to cherish. And me and him, just like both. ”

Yan Ting and I listened quietly, both empathetic and sympathetic.

"The science building is far away from the liberal arts building where I am located, and it seems to be on the edge of the sky. As the captain of the football team, he is always on the pitch in his spare time. And I, who are not good at geography, is always in the geography office. ”

"Ridiculous, you say?" She suddenly turned her head to me and asked, with a faint mockery and sarcasm in her eyes: "Since I went to my second year of high school, I have met him no more than five times. Can you believe it? ”

I looked at her with the same feeling in my heart.

How not to believe it. Isn't it the same with Jiang Yueze?

Because I wanted to see him, I would rush to the East Dining Room where science students were gathered at dinner time, just to see him more; Because I wanted to talk to him, I would walk through a school building and run to his class in the afternoon when it was time for someone to talk freely, pretending to carry a workbook and asking him to help me speak, just to listen to him.

Aren't these all for the people you like, and they have made ordinary but accurate calculations of small things?

She shook her head with a wry smile and continued: "He has new friends, a new life, and a new focus of life. Unfortunately, I'm no longer involved. ”

"He seemed to sense my uneasiness. After failing a monthly exam, I escaped to the playground during the evening self-study period. ”

I seemed to have guessed the direction of the plot: "He, came out to accompany you?" ”

"Hmm." A glimmer of light flashed in her eyes, like a ray of sunlight shining in an endless dark room, faint but dazzling: "I don't know how he knows." Anyway, he's here to accompany me. ”

"He taught me to play football, and on dark nights, only he was shining."

"We sat on the playground and watched the flying insects, looked at the night sky, and listened to the endless calls, which was also very beautiful."

"Even in this atmosphere, he confessed to me."

My voice softened: "Shouldn't all of this be going in a good direction?" ”

She shook her head, her voice calm to the point of cruelty: "I rejected him. ”

Yan Ting and I were stunned, and asked in unison, "Why?" ”

She slowly hid her face, but still didn't hide half of her pain: "It's just because I'm too selfish, I don't want to experience the quarrel and red face in love, I just want to enjoy the ambiguity and sweetness, so I rejected him." ”

As she spoke, her shoulders began to tremble slowly, and her voice was also full of suppressed pain and full of remorse: "I was very happy to learn that he was admitted to Southwest Agricultural University, but I didn't have any qualifications or reasons, so I congratulated him generously." ”

"The day before he started school, I wanted to make amends, and sent seven messages in a row. Because he said that 7 was his lucky number. "Beans Book City

"But in the end, I withdrew one by one."

"Because I've lost him already, completely."

"I had missed him a long time ago."

Yan Ting and I were at a loss, but we both understood that no words could comfort her.

"So, when I saw Sun Zeyi in Chongwen and saw that he was so similar to Hu Haodong, it was really difficult for me to ignore it. That's why I used Jiang Wei's account to post a white wall, because I was afraid that he would find me, and I was even more afraid of being rejected again. ”

"After that, everything fell into place, I didn't want to miss this heartbeat again, and I didn't want to be selfish and not be able to catch him. So I didn't hesitate for a moment to agree to his confession. ”

"Sometimes I see him, it's like I see Hu Haodong. I made up all my regrets, all the things I agreed with him, but didn't do, all of them were made up for here by Sun Zeyi, my happiness is really real, and my dedication is also sincere. ”

"But no matter how it is, it can't be concealed, because of the fact that he chased him like Hu Haodong, although it is also a fact that he likes him. The purpose is not pure, it is also true to hide it from him and not treat each other with sincerity. So he broke up with me, and I was to blame. ”

I watched her big tears roll down and drip on the back of my hand holding her hand, burning hot, and my heart was filled with a trace of unbearable and distress.

Seeing that she was crying so sadly, I hurriedly took out a tissue from my bag and comforted her softly while wiping it for her: "You like him so much, make it clear to him seriously, beg him for forgiveness, and he will be with you again." So don't be so pessimistic, don't be sad, okay? ”

"No, no." She shook her head, her delicate makeup had already been spent, and what was not covered by foundation was the bloodshot eyes covered with eyes, chapped lips, and even her usually meticulously combed hair, all messy and messy.

She couldn't stop crying, spoke intermittently, whimpering like a wounded little beast, which made people's hearts ache: "He is so proud, but he has endured my teasing and deception again and again, and now, even the last trace of his love for me has been worn away by me." ”

I wiped the tears from her eyes vigorously, and Yan Ting also hurriedly comforted: "No, no, don't think about it." ”

But she cried even harder, like an abandoned child: "This time, he is real, he doesn't want me anymore." ”

Yan Ting and I frowned, not knowing how to comfort her.

Because Xing Sisi is herself, she knows everything.

In desperation, Yan Ting and I could only pat her on the back and convey some warmth and comfort to her.

Although, it doesn't help.

"Buzz......" Just as I was comforting Xing Sisi, my phone vibrated a few times. I picked it up, it was a message from Jiang Yueze and Xu Siyang.

I clicked on Jiang Yueze's message and saw the sentence "Are you unhappy?" ", instantly hit the center defense.

He was worried about me.

I replied with my fingers: It's not me, it's Xing Sisi's broken love, and I'm sad. I'm comforting her.

He quickly replied: comfort is allowed, not allowed to be brought in.

I was just about to say to him, "Why did I bring it in," when his message came back: we won't. When hell freezes over.

My heart warmed, and I looked at the unusual and tall figure sitting in the first row, and I couldn't help but raise the corners of my lips and type quickly: Got it.

After replying to Jiang Yueze, I clicked on Xu Siyang's message: How is Xing Sisi?

I thought about it for a while and replied: Did you ask, or did Sun Zeyi ask?

He quickly replied: Ask together.

I couldn't laugh or cry: Is there another one here?

He replied seriously: Yes. So she, how's that?

I didn't reply head-on, and asked Sun Zeyi: What does he think?

He replied with a few words, and between the lines, they were all in a very serious and serious tone: Sun Zeyi was cheerful, but not temperless. No matter how much you like it, you won't get back together.

I'm a little anxious: But Xing Sisi really likes him, not because he's someone's stand-in.

He didn't say that I was wrong, but he asked me the same question: If it were you, what would you do?

I read his words over and over again, and I thought about them over and over again, and the answer was always the same.

I will make the same choice as Sun Zeyi.

Because no matter how much I like it, no matter how much I care, my heart has been knotted, and I will always remember that his original intention of loving me is not because he likes me.

He approached me not because of myself, but because I was a stand-in.

I will regret it at any time, I was not firmly chosen by him at the beginning.

Xu Siyang obviously knew my answer, and silently changed the topic: Sun Zeyi will no longer have anything to do with her. If there's anything you can't handle, tell me and we'll be together.

I'll take it seriously: Yes. You also tell Sun Zeyi that Xing Sisi won't bother him anymore.

Xu Siyang replied for a long time: Well, I know.

I watched the beautiful performance on the stage, and sighed in my heart, this finals is really an unusual moment.

It's sad and worrying.