I was born as a general's daughter, Anhou, the god of war in the Li Dynasty, is my uncle, my brother is known as General Cui Xiao, and the beloved Pingning County Lord is my cousin. My dearest relatives are the most powerful people in the Li Dynasty, and I am inconspicuous in their glory, but I am proud of them from the bottom of my heart.

In my impression, my cousin Pingning has always been a strange woman who is different from the vulgar, she is peerless when she is serious, and she is even more dazzling when she jokes, which makes people reluctant to look away. Since she was a child, wherever she appeared was always noticed by people at first sight, no matter what the identity of the other party was, as long as she was there, she would become a foil.

She is a person who makes people satisfied just by looking at her.

"Jingyu, Your Majesty asked someone to take me into the palace. said that the Queen Mother took pity on me and asked me to move to the palace. ”

There was an abnormality at the border pass, and my uncle was ordered to lead the troops to check, I am afraid that there will be a war.

"What is this called, my uncle led the troops to the border pass, and he didn't take the entire Hou Mansion with him. The housekeeper is all here, I think it's fake to let you go into the palace to take care of it, I'm afraid that my uncle is in power! ”

Ping Ning smiled faintly, knowing it, took a sip of tea, and said, "Your Majesty is suspicious, there are some things you can understand in your heart, you don't need to say it." I'm telling you, I'm telling you to pay attention too. Uncle and my father are together, Your Majesty may not let people stare at Cui Mansion, you should be cautious after I enter the palace. ”

Seeing that she was absent-minded, Ping Ning raised his hand and knocked on her head, "Remember?" ”

"Remembered, remembered. Then can I come into the palace to see you? ”

"It's okay to come, but don't be too diligent, or our majesty will be cranky again."

"Yes, Jingyu is not a child anymore, she knows it."

My cousin entered the palace, and when I entered the palace to see her, I found that there was a young man next to her who was more delicate than a girl, and I heard that it was His Majesty's ninth son, Xiao Chulan. As soon as I saw him, I felt uncomfortable, especially when I saw that my cousin almost paid more attention to him than I did.

It's just that he is not a favored prince, and his cousin cares about him kindly. But when I noticed that my cousin smiled at him differently from usual, I also saw a look of nostalgia and forbearance for my cousin in his eyes. From that moment on, I vaguely understood that Xiao Chulan was definitely the person I hated the most in my life.

In the past few years, every time I enter the palace, I can find the changes in Xiao Chulan, and now he is no longer the weak and bullying female doll he looked like when he was a child, but more and more like a man, on the surface he looks mature and harmless, but in fact he is pretending to be a pig and eating a tiger, but my cousin, who has always been shrewd, has not noticed anything.

His cousin looked at him in one way, and when he didn't look at him, he looked in another. There were several times when I wanted to break her body and let her see Xiao Chulan's appearance.

But I didn't do it in the end, because Xiao Chulan looked at Ping Ning's eyes with gentleness and affection, forbearance and restraint, as if he was satisfied as long as he looked at her from afar. Pingning's treatment in the Li Dynasty is the same as that of the royal princess, and there are a lot of young talents waiting for her to grow up, even if she chooses a son-in-law, it will not be Xiao Chulan's turn.

Maybe out of unbearability, or maybe I didn't want Ping Ning to know Xiao Chulan's feelings for her, I chose to remain silent.

Soon after, my brother returned from the battlefield. He told me that the war was urgent, and then hurried into the palace and hurried away.

I still remember that day when it was raining heavily, I heard the news that the family came to report the death of Uncle Anhou, Pingning ran out of the palace in the rain and fainted at the gate of the Hou Mansion, and I hurried from Cui's house to the Hou Mansion. Who knew that in addition to his face being almost pale, Ping Ning even changed his clothes and sat in the room very calmly.

I was not surprised to see that I was coming, but I just said: "... It's coming so fast, Jingyu. ”

Seeing her like this, I didn't even know how to start my own sadness.

"You came just in time, the 'Pingning County Lord' will be out for a few days, and you will come forward for me when someone from the palace comes."

She proposed to marry my brother to stabilize the army's heart, and at the same time broke His Majesty's and the Queen Mother's mind to give marriage. I asked her what her ninth brother was going to do, and she showed the first hint of hesitation in so many days, and said, "Time doesn't wait for me, I... And how? ”

I understand her helplessness, and I have a little more sympathy for Xiao Chulan, a person like my cousin who doesn't put his personal feelings first will eventually lose him.

If you don't look for trouble, trouble will come to you. In the days that followed, even if my cousin was engaged, the forces of all parties did not stop, and she could remarry if she married, let alone not married. Anhou's daughter is still fragrant even if she withdraws, whether it is her own talent or Anhou's old department, these are all reasons to attract people to compete for it. Not only that, but the royal family also chose a silent wait-and-see attitude, if the cousin really quit, they were afraid that they would be the first to pounce.

So my cousin could only mediate between various forces, and she never mentioned Xiao Chulan during this period, and it seemed that she really put that person down.

The eldest prince forced the palace to fail, the corpse and the head of the third prince, the body of the seventh prince were left in the main hall together, the second prince left Kyoto, the fourth prince was nowhere to be found, and the remaining princes were not afraid.

My cousin knew about it, and Xiao Chulan actually came to look for her. I knew it was a wolf in sheep's clothing, and I thought that he would let his cousin enter the palace immediately when he got the throne, but who knew that he didn't. As if it was the same as before, he and Pingning were in the palace and outside the palace, and they were at peace with each other and did not interfere with each other.

Pingning said that they needed an emperor of the main battle faction. So Xiao Chulan became the emperor for the sake of Pingning? Is there really any selfishness?

This is how my cousin replied to my doubts. "The current Li Dynasty is a hot potato, don't give it to me for nothing. If it weren't for the identity and my father's teachings since childhood, I would have been the same as the second prince. He naturally understands that most of the rest of the people, except for those who can't leave, are the same. ”

Xiao Chulan became the emperor, and most of the people who came to harass his cousin were inadvertently reduced, and they all disappeared gradually. I don't think it's accidental.

Of course, I also found out that my cousin has never let him go, otherwise how could he help him out of his anger in the teahouse, horse farm, and all kinds of overt and secret? I don't know what the point of the two of them obviously liking each other, but dragging it out like this. But when my cousin finally pierced the window paper, the two decided to get married, but when my father and brother left me.

I hated the man who robbed me of my only relative, but I was secretly relieved, but I forgot that my cousin was an impulsive person who couldn't put her personal feelings first.

On the day of her wedding, I was asked to wait in the temple for a while, saying that she had something to say to me when she came back from the church. I put on her scarlet veil with my own hands, answered the question, and waited for her to come back.

But she lied to me just like my brother, and they all left me alone.

When I heard that the new queen poisoned half of the ministers who came to the banquet, my mind was empty all of a sudden, and I didn't know how to run through the palace road with no end in sight, and came there on a rampage, but I only saw her corpse in Xiao Chulan's arms.

I scolded them for being liars, but Xiao Chulan willingly returned her body to me. Seeing her as she was before her death, I couldn't help but collapse, and I didn't even hear what Xiao Chulan said later.

After a long time, he went out of the palace to see me once.

"Pinning... I have entrusted you to me, the battle of Pingding is a foregone conclusion, and now that I, the emperor, can do something, I will help you pave the road. ”

Compared to last time, he seemed to have lost a lot of weight, and his face was getting paler. I wanted to say no but I couldn't, because he said that this was my cousin's last wish, and it was also the most worrying thing for my father and brother.

The people I once admired and admired were gone from me, but they wanted me to live well. This feeling is really suffocating me.

Xiao Chulan: "You, do you have someone you like?" ”

I shook my head.

"I will choose one person for you, he is not from a big family, although he is a poor family, he is a person with real skills, and his official position in the court can be advanced or retreated. If the dynasty is overturned, if he is out of office, he will have a bright future, and if he is not an official, he will have a way to protect your life. He's from a simple background, he's gentle, and most importantly, he probably likes you. ”

"What, what?" In a trance, I was pulled back by that sentence of liking.

Xiao Chulan: "Let him be your husband, I am relieved." But I called him privately, and asked, "If I entrust you to him, he wills." Of course, he said yes. I asked him again what he would marry you? It was his answer that made me choose him for you. ”

"What did he answer?"

Xiao Chulan smiled: "Commitment and ability." ”

He looked at me and said, "It's hard to find someone who really likes you, and I can't guarantee that he will do it for the rest of his life." Therefore, whether it is trustworthy and responsible is my first fancy, even if it is ruthless, it can be respectful and protect you. He knows what I like about him, and such a person is at least half sincere to you, not to say ten. ”

"Of course, there are no absolutes. I promise Ping Ning to take care of you and let you choose for yourself. He's the best person I can pick for you, but if you don't, that's fine. I'll send you out of town right away, and I'll choose a son-in-law for you, just because I think you might be better suited to have a home of your own, with a family of your own. ”

…..

"He... What is your name? I asked.

"Qin Yuewei, the word Xiwen."

I finally married the person Xiao Chulan said, he was often shy when he first got married, but as he described, he was a good husband with affection and righteousness, but I was a little cold.

Later, Xiao Chulan stepped back without a sound and left. Maybe it was because he saw that I didn't want to stay in Kyoto, Qin Yuewei actually resigned from his official position and took me away, and I looked at him and stopped. Later, he became a businessman, so that I had no worries about food and clothing, doing business, living a life, and taking the rest of the money to do good, the two of us have been together for more than 30 years, and have no children, he doesn't mind, I am the only one in this life.

Before he died, I sat on the edge of the bed and held his hand. Every one of my relatives seemed to go before me, and I couldn't help but cry. It's not like crying loudly like when she was a girl, but she just held back, and tears poured out of her eyes uncontrollably.

"Xiwen, I'm so cold to you, do you regret marrying?"

He smiled, took my hand and said, "If I don't come back, you will always wait for me with the light on." I made cotton clothes for me with my own hands, and added them to me when it was cold. I was sick and took care of me without clothes. For more than 30 years with me, every day has made me feel that marrying you is the greatest blessing of my life.

The first time I saw you was at a palace banquet, you were with the county lord of Pingning, there was no jealousy and hypocrisy in the eyes of others, you were happy, and you did whatever you wanted. It's so clean and it's beautiful. After that, you became a dream of mine, but I didn't expect it to come true. Let's be honest... I'm a little scared now, will this life be a dream? Dead, awake, nothing. ”

I snorted, "If there is an afterlife, I still want to... Be your wife. ”

"Okay, don't coax me."

After saying this, his eyes lit up for a moment, revealing the shy look when he first got married, and then completely darkened and closed his eyes.

Shortly after he went, I also died. When he opened his eyes again, his hands and feet were like babies, and he was reincarnated as Zhang Shihua. At that time, the Li Dynasty was already 300 years ago.

Three hundred years later, Zhang Shihua's body lives Cui Jingyu three hundred years ago. Reincarnation did not erase the memories of my past life, so I recognized my twin brother as my brother Choi Yeon-woo from my previous life. I was pleasantly surprised and thanked God for giving my loved ones back to me. Especially after the birth of the third sister, I found out that she was actually Pingning's cousin. I thought that since I have become their sister in this life, then I must protect them. Let them, no, our family live in peace and security in this peaceful and prosperous world.

The elder brother became the younger brother and was named Zhang Tingyu; The cousin became a younger sister and was named Zhang Qining.

I believed so, but then I realized that things were not as simple as I thought. Qi Ning didn't know why, I was sure that she didn't have any memories of her past life, but she was different from ordinary children, even different from Ping Ning, or even the complete opposite. The greater the expectation, the greater the disappointment, and I couldn't help but snub her for a while.

Later, the family hired a teacher named An Yuanxi for her. The wind reviews in the house don't seem to be bad, Qi Ning is no different from usual, plus my mother passed away, my father was depressed, my brother and I ... The younger brother gradually began to get involved in family affairs. There is less and less attention to Qi Ning.

In my previous life, I went through business, and I also experienced major events, and the Zhang family had a great fortune, but it was not difficult for me.

didn't expect that a year later, my father still went with my mother and was seen by Qi Ning. He held on to his breath and said An Yuanxi's thoughts about Qi Ning, Tingyu hadn't reacted yet, but I was shocked after living for two lives. Immediately let him come with the dark whistle, and leave it to me from my father's side.

Deal with An Yuanxi, prepare for his father's death, and take care of Qi Ning, who has a high fever... After all the dust settled, I found that Qi Ning had changed a little, and she had become a little like her cousin in her previous life. I've always wanted her to be like Pingning, but when she really changed, I realized that it wasn't a good thing.

Later, I tried to get closer, but I couldn't find a way. As she got older, Tingyu and I discovered that at some point in the year, her whole person would become very wrong, and even nearly strangled me to death once. Because of this incident, the relationship between the two of us became more and more awkward.

Thinking of Pingning's ending, plus her own reincarnation, she believes in cause and effect more, will there be any danger in her life of poisoning the minister in her previous life? Maybe... Danger is already here?

Consciously or unconsciously, I wish she could be where I could see when I looked up. I knew I was a little scared, and I knew that cutting off her contact with the outside world would make her hate me even more and stay away from me, but I couldn't help it. I can't stand losing her more than she hates me.

She ran away from home on her thirteenth birthday, I had a good temper, everyone in the family was in danger, Tingyu stabilized me and went to find her back. After coming back that time, Qi Ning seemed to have changed somewhere. When asked Tingyu, he said he didn't know either. Since then, she's been running away from home every once in a while, and I'm heartbroken about it, but she seems to be enjoying it.

It wasn't until one time after she came back that she gave in to me for the first time, but that wasn't what I wanted. I heard from the people in her courtyard that Miss San seemed to be in a good mood after coming back, but I didn't take it seriously at first, thinking that she had encountered something interesting again. It wasn't until that person named Zhan Sui Yu appeared in Zhangfu that I realized what I had missed in Qi Ning's life. Especially when I saw him, I found out that he was Xiao Chulan.

I hate this person who snatched her from her, both in her past life and in this life.

"I really want to marry Qi Ning and spend my life with her, it's not a joke."

When he said this, he suddenly coincided with what Xiao Chulan said in his mind. But to take them apart? She... Some hesitation.

Qi Ning became ill. Because of Zhao Qianqian, An Yuanxi's matter was pulled out again... Zhan Suiyu who should know and who shouldn't know all know knows.

At this time, Zhang Tingyu came to her, and when he heard Cui Jingyu, Ping Ning, Cui Yanyu from his mouth... Her mind was empty for a moment when she was looking at these names, and she didn't even dare to ask any further questions. He said that these were some scenes and people in his dreams when he was a child, and he was deeply impressed because they were too real.

For the first time, I was numbing myself by pouring alcohol, and I vaguely heard my cousin calling out to me.

"Jingyu?"

I naturally responded, already drunk.

When I realized what was going on, I got up and chased after him, and the female envoys in the courtyard couldn't help but be stunned, probably because they had never seen me so out of shape.

I found it out and saw Qi Ning from a distance, next to her was Zhan Sui Yu.

I saw Zhan Suiyu take out a wooden box-like thing, walk up to her, kneel down on one knee, and raise his hand to hand the wooden box to her. I couldn't hear what he said, but Zhang Qining was stunned, took the wooden box in his hand and said with a smile: "I am willing." ”

There is an obsession, even a trace of it is deeply affected, and it is not easy to let go.

At that moment, there was a sense of relief that the melons were ripe. My heart was empty, and there was nothing else. As if the world is like this, if you can't see the end, you will be scared, and after experiencing the tragedy of life and death, you will say: "That's it, it's okay..."