At six o'clock in the morning, I was woken up by the alarm clock set in advance last night. I really don't want to climb out, but now there is something important, and I must force myself to leave this warm and tempting bed.

At seven o'clock, I had already knocked on the door at the door of Li Jie's house with breakfast.

A few minutes later, she opened the door sleepily. I went in and put breakfast on the table. The room was back to the same chaos as before. A strong smell of smoke came to me, and I quickly opened the curtains and opened the window. Only then did I see that there were more than a dozen remaining cigarette butts in the ground.

"Jie, why do you smoke so much? Not good for the body. ”

"So what can I do? So boring. ”

"Jie, have you written your winter vacation homework?"

"No Sakura"

"That's right, then when you are free, you can do your homework, clean your room, do laundry, etc., there are many things you can do, why do you have to smoke."

"Xiaoxiao, I'm not you, and you're not me, so I can't be a good student like you. That's how my real life is, and I can't help it. I wanted to change it, but after working hard, I realized that everything was as usual. My efforts and dedication are nothing compared to the helplessness of life. Xiaoxiao, have you ever had that kind of despair? Despair is not terrible, what is terrible is that there is still hope even though it cannot be changed. ”

In the past, I was very sympathetic to Li Jie, but now, the sympathy is still there, but I think it is important for her to not continue to give up on herself.

"Jesher, I really don't know what your life is like. Although the things your dad did before were very excessive, I don't think that's a reason for you to give up on yourself. At the very least, you can choose to clean yourself, and you don't have to face such a dilemma now. ”

Li Jie sneered: "Xiaoxiao, do you know? There is a saying called: Standing and talking does not hurt your back. In this case, everyone will. I'm the same, and it's the way to raise others. Well, you don't need it anymore, who doesn't understand your truths? Keep it to yourself. ”

After Li Jie, he went out to brush his teeth and wash his face. Originally, I wanted to do something more, but looking at her appearance, I didn't want to hear it, so I gave up. Maybe she's right, but what I see is always just the surface.

I'll take it out of the bag early, set it up, and wait for her to come and eat it together.

Li Jie's village sells tofu brains and fritters, and I like salty tofu brains. The white and tender tofu brain is drizzled with a thick marinade, sprinkled with green onions, coriander, mustard, soybeans, and fried crispy fritters, which are so delicious. It's a pity that in the current mood, there is no way to devote yourself to enjoying the food.

After having breakfast with Li Jie, the two of us took the bus to the hospital to line up before that. There are a lot of people, and I am amazed that so many people come to do such surgery.

Not long after, the nurse called Li Jie in the order of making an appointment in advance, and told me to wait directly at the door of the ward on the third floor.

Time slipped through the cracks in the branches outside the window. The strong smell of disinfectant water in the hospital made me feel very comfortable. For some reason, I really like smells like this, such as the ink smell of a new book, the peculiar smell of the injection room, and so many, many more. I was once ridiculed by my classmates because I liked the taste. The first thing I do every semester is to put the new books under my nose and suck them greedily. It wasn't until junior high school, when I grew up, that I learned to be restrained.

The wait was anxious, and I walked around the hallway. Li Jie told me that the operation would be soon, but I had been waiting for two hours and had not seen her come out.

It wasn't until noon, when I was hungry, that I saw the nurse pushing her.

Li Jie was lying on the bed, her face pale, with needles in her hands and infusions. I hurriedly followed, and the nurse said to me: "You can go after the loss, if you are hungry, you can eat something, don't eat dry hard and cold." ”

"Okay, thank you."

"Xiaoxiao, I want to drink water."

"Okay, you wait, I'll find it for you." I went to the nurse's station, took a water cup, picked it up, and hurried it over.

"I can't get up, you go to the nurse's station and get a straw."

Yes? I just wondered why there was a box of straws next to the water glass, which turned out to be for patients. I hurriedly took one over, and Li Jie finally drank the water.

Not long after, the nurse pushed another patient in and changed to another bed next to her.

I asked Li Jie gently, "Does it hurt?" ”

She shook her head, "It didn't hurt at the time, there was anesthetic, and it's fine now." ”

"Are you hungry? I'm going to buy you something to eat? ”

"Don't do it yet." Finished, she closed her eyes and fell asleep.

I saw a tear in the corner of her eye.

At this moment, she is fragile, even if she is hated on weekdays, she now makes me feel distressed.

I regret her words in the morning, her right, every encounter, in fact, only I understand. Just like surgery, even if she is wrong, the pain of the operation and the damage to the body will always be borne by herself alone, and there is no substitute.

About two hours later, Li Jie's injection was finished, and I helped her slowly to the door, called a taxi, and hurried back to her house.

At this time, it was already more than three o'clock in the afternoon.

Li Jie turned on the air conditioner, and the room quickly warmed up. I went to her kitchen to take a look, and there were no dishes, so I cooked a pot of porridge with a rice cooker first.

"Jie, you lie down first, I'll go to the market to buy you some food."

"I don't need vegetables, I don't want to eat stir-fried vegetables, I want to lie down now, I don't want to do anything."

"There is no vegetable and only drink white porridge is not nutritious, or I will cook it for you into vegetable porridge, chop the green vegetables and boil them, put a little salt and sesame oil, which is both delicious and more nutritious than white porridge."

"Okay, whatever you want, you can do it."

I hurriedly went to the market to buy some greens and some tofu, and when I came back, I washed and chopped them, turned on the rice cooker, put everything away, and quickly boiled her a pot of boiling water and put it in the kettle.

When I was in the hospital before, I was so nervous that I forgot that I was hungry. Now, as soon as I came back, and I did something, my stomach gurgled all of a sudden.

I was rummaging around half of Li Jie's house, and I didn't touch my pockets anymore for any ready-made things that could be eaten, and I had no money. I took out the phone and called Chen Yingjie and asked him to bring some food over immediately, and I waited for him at the entrance of the village.

Ten minutes later, Chen Yingjie came with a large bag of things. When I opened it, there were canned fish, beef jerky, potato chips, instant noodles, etc., all of which were my favorite foods.

He whispered to me, "Did the surgery happen?" ”

I nodded and said to him, "I'm so hungry, go in first." ”

When I entered the house, I saw that Li Jie's eyes were still closed, and I thought she should be very hungry too.

"Jie, I just asked Chen Yingjie to send some food, do you want to eat a little first, the porridge may have to wait a little longer."

"No, I don't want to eat it, you can eat it." When she was out of breath, she went back to sleep.

I sat on my side, opened a packet of beef jerky and chips, and munched on it.

Alas, I was just a little hungry and so uncomfortable. Li Jie had such an operation, she didn't know how uncomfortable she should feel......

Poor Li Jie......