I'm called Joe Meng.

This is the name my father gave me, but once, I overheard the people below talking about it, it was the second lady who especially wanted a boy, but unfortunately she gave birth to two female dolls, so she didn't even want to think about the name of the fifth girl.

That's right, the second lady in their mouth is my own mother, Qi.

Before my mother gave birth to me, I had a sister, but she didn't even have time to take her name, so she died early.

In Nanqi, it is a bad omen for a child to die young, so no matter how hard my father tried, my grandmother would not allow my sister to go to the family tree.

This ignorant and selfish old woman, she is afraid that her sister will kill the children in the house.

In this way, even if the elder sister was born in front of the fourth sister, she could not get the title of the eldest daughter.

I grew up gradually.

Although I am the only descendant of the second room, I have heard of those concubines, I don't have half of the concubines behind my back, and I am completely different from Qiao Mei in the big house.

I was angry, but I couldn't argue with them.

Because it's a fact.

Qiao Mei is my fourth sister, and in my eyes, she is a dazzling light in front of me.

If anyone wants to come to see me, they can't ignore her light and be attracted to her.

If the fourth sister is unhappy, she can punish her servant at will; She was afraid of water, so she stayed with her no longer cruises; If she falls, my grandmother, my uncle, and my aunt will be so distressed that they will die of distress, and even my father will muttered to her in his mouth, "Why did Sister Mei fall?" ”

And my mother is even more so, calling from the heart of her mouth, as if the fourth sister is her daughter.

It's a pity that she isn't, I am.

That's it, the fourth sister is the existence of the stars holding the moon, and I am just a faint star beside her.

I use the word weak because if I fall and no one comes to help me, I can only sneak to the cave and cry twice in a place where others can't see.

When the maidservants came here to whisper, I could only swallow the sobs in my mouth, and I did not dare to go out.

What I hear the most here is that they talk about my mother, how my mother is not good, and my mother is a freak, not good to her own daughter, but close to the fourth sister in the next room.

I think their words are reasonable, but the peace in my heart is still biased against my mother.

Until later.

When my mother began to indoctrinate me with words such as "you must have a concubine" and "you are no worse than your fourth sister", my heart was slightly shaken, and I began to believe the words of those servants.

Because at that time, my mother's face showed a greedy and crazy look.

But she didn't mention it by chance, but in my ear all day long, asking me to pull Qiao Mei down, and even asking me to ...... Instead of her, she married into the East Palace.

Later, the fourth sister inexplicably took on the evil act of beating and scolding the maid at will, and the grandmother began to alienate the fourth sister. It's just that she is still so heartless, no matter what my mother does, the fourth sister is still close to my mother and doesn't pay attention to my aunt.

I only know that after returning from a trip to Qingye Temple, the fourth sister seems to have quietly changed some places, and she has begun to stay at home and copy the "Female Ring" seriously.

Later, I thought more than once that this might be the beginning of the tragedy of the fourth sister's life.

With the help of my mother, the fourth sister fell in love with Qi Medal - I don't like this cousin at all, although he is good-looking, but his eyes tell me that he hides a lot of stories.

Although he is my cousin, he has never been like the cousin of the fourth sister, he will make fun of his sister, and if I want to lose my temper, he will probably just look at me with a smile and do nothing.

The fourth sister married into Qi Mansion, and my grandmother was quite disappointed in her, and she and my mother began to pin their hopes on me.

They wanted me to marry in the East Palace.

The first time I disobeyed my mother, I told her that I was not willing to rob the fourth sister's things.

I can see clearly and clearly, the prince only has the fourth sister in his eyes, what does it matter if I marry?

But as soon as my words came out, I received a heavy slap, and I saw her eyes turn with disgust and disgust.

Her: "You just can't hold up the wall with mud!" I've been working hard for so long, just for so little, you don't want to? I'm your mother! Can I hurt you? ”

I cried so hard that night, and I don't know what I was grieving about, maybe because my mother hit me for the first time.

But I cried heartbreakingly, and only Cui Er was with me, distressing for me.

After that day, I began to become more submissive, hoping that my grandmother and mother would not join forces and let me marry a man who did not love me.

But in their eyes, they were even more dissatisfied with me, once, my grandmother was still in front of me, I didn't have the shadow of half a fourth sister, and I couldn't learn her noble girl's style.

I don't know who to bury in this, anyway, although no one made a joke at the time, my mother's face was not good-looking.

After I went back, she forced me to admit my mistake and asked me to promise her that I must marry better than Qiao Mei.

I don't understand, why should I fight with Qiao Mei. With or without her, I am the daughter of the second room, and I am equally noble.

I refused to respond, so she wouldn't let Cui Er bring me food.

Until, when the news of the unfortunate death of His Royal Highness the Crown Prince came, the emperor's health became more and more declining, and the battle for the succession of the four or five princes officially began.

And I, like a gift, went to the powerful hand Zheng

Later, after the fifth prince began to gain the upper hand, he began to suppress the Jingguo Mansion, and everyone in the mansion was in danger.

And my mother-in-law, the Qi family, in order to seek peace, wants to send me to the mansion of the fifth prince and make her a concubine.

It was also on that day that I could see clearly that the third sister, who was married to the fourth prince as a side concubine, fell down with her pregnant belly hair in a high posture.

She saw me pale, but she just smiled, and in that smile I could see her pride, and I fled.

When I returned to the house, I didn't wait to go back to the courtyard, and Qi gave me a slap in the face of Xia Rao - these days, she will only beat and scold me when she doesn't like me.

Because she didn't have her father's heart, her father often wandered outside, and he would rest in Aunt Xu's yard, but he rarely came to Jinhua Courtyard.

She scolded me for being useless, complained that I was not a boy, and why she didn't strangle me as soon as I was born.

Thunder and lightning began to flash, the wind howled fiercely, she scolded for a while and was helped back by Mama Li, before leaving, she ordered me to kneel here for two hours, and left two strong maids to watch me.

The rain fell quickly, and it fell very heavily, and the two maids ran away to hide from the rain, and Cui Er wanted to help me up secretly.

But I was probably so cold that my body was shivering, and my mind kept echoing the old handmaidens.

"The sister of the fifth girl, that is, the second lady died talking about the child, in fact, the second lady strangled her own hands, she didn't want a female doll......"

The rain slid down my face, my heart was cold, and I closed my eyes so that the tears could fall with the rain.

I don't think she deserves to be a mother.

Before the five princes sent to the Jingguo Mansion, the Qi family found a family for me. It is a town far away from the capital, where the staff is outside, and he is his twelfth concubine, and he is older than his father.

I didn't refuse, I obediently put on the big pink wedding dress, Qi smiled with satisfaction, she was high-breasted and wanted to hug me.

I was held in her arms, but I thought about it - her heart was beating so hard. I don't know if she will be so happy if she has broken a hole here......

Sitting in a simple carriage that day, in the middle of the night, Qi died at the hands of Cui Er—I knew she had martial arts, and she was probably a killer.

However, none of this matters anymore, and when I was about to kill the Qi clan, I took the poison.

I finally told Cui Er: "You go, go far, don't come back......

In the blurred vision, I could still see Cui'er's anxious face, and I could no longer hear her call.

Now that I'm dead, Cui Er is probably the saddest one.

I wish it was a dream, a nonsensical dream.

I hope that if I do it all over again, if I can do it all over again, I will give Qi a taste of despair......

When the light struck again, there was Qi's indifferent face in front of her, and if you looked closely, there was still a trace of impatience in her eyebrows and eyes.

I stared blankly and smiled......