Chapter 72: It's hard to give up

Hurriedly turned my head to look, only to see two women pressing my wife, I was very scared, I wanted to go over, but I was afraid of being reprimanded, so I didn't dare.

Later, when I saw that my wife was calm again, I felt a little relieved.

The mind went back to the past-

In fact, it is far from the case, my mother always picks up some leftovers after we have eaten, and it can be said that she can't eat at all, and now her belly is so big, it is really incomprehensible.

She has difficulty moving, eats less, but has to do a lot of work, even if she has a big belly, her hands always refuse to stop, that is, since the day I was sensible, I have never seen my mother have a time of idleness, every day before dawn, when we are still in a dream, she gets up alone, cooks on the fire, feeds those chickens, ducks, geese and dogs, and washes clothes.

In the evening, when everyone had gone to sleep, she had to pick up the lamp and sew up the clothes that we had torn during the day.

In the end, it was evident that my mother was unable to work because of her big belly, and that day, when I followed my father to the field to harvest the crops, before I could enter the house, I saw my aunt who lived next to me leading an old lady into my yard in a hurry.

When my father saw this, he did not enter the hospital, I was a little puzzled, and I thought to myself, when is this, my stomach rings like a snort, and at this time, despite the difficulty of moving, my mother puts the food on the table with a big belly, and we who work can eat hot meals as soon as we enter the house.

But what's going on today?

I wanted to go in and see what was going on, but some of the women in the neighborhood kept me out of the courtyard and said to me, "Go, go, go to the side!" ”

I was very dissatisfied, you dare to eat enough, but I was so hungry that my chest was pressed against my back, and if I didn't eat again, how could I still do my job!

But they just wouldn't let me in, and I couldn't do anything about it.

Looking at this scene, no matter how much you grind, there will be no results, and you don't want to eat for a while.

It seems that something extraordinary must have happened today.

This immediately piqued my curiosity, and when I saw that the front was inaccessible, I sneaked around to the back to see what was going on through the back window.

When I got there, I pushed the window with my hand, only to find that it was plugged in from the inside.

No, I had to put my ear to the window and listen.

It doesn't matter if I don't listen, I was shocked to hear my mother's heart-rending cry inside.

I was shocked, what's the matter, could it be that those women are bullying their mothers?

However, at this time, they could all comfort their mothers: "It doesn't matter, don't be afraid, hard, hard, that's right, that's all!" ”

I seemed to understand something, and listened as I listened, and in a moment I heard my mother cry again and more violently, followed by a loud cry of a baby.

I could hear the women inside shouting happily, "Great, great, there's another boy in the house!" ”

Down, I didn't hear my mother's cry anymore, and the adults in the room calmed down, but the man they were talking about, my brother, was crying......

I think back to that experience, and although I understand that giving birth to a woman without exception is a painful process, I still feel terrified to hear the mournful cries of this woman who is so close to me.

Before I knew it, my eyes were blurry and tears were streaming down my face.

"Alright, come out!" Suddenly, the old woman shouted excitedly.

Then, a loud cry came from there.

My heart shook, and I only felt that the whole world became brighter, and then my wife fell silent.

Not being able to hear her screams was the greatest comfort to me.

"Come on, come and see your son!"

I couldn't seem to understand the old woman calling me, and I turned to look at the old man, but he didn't have any expression, but just waved his head to that side, as if to let me pass.

Then I realized the reality that they were calling me, that my son had been born.

I walked three steps and two steps, and came to my wife, whose lower body was covered with blood, and the old woman was holding a baby covered in blood in her arms, and she asked the young woman to find a cloth, wipe the baby's face, and show it to me.

At this time, I was indescribably excited, excited and happy, but then, I felt as heavy as lead pour.

After seeing my son, I walked to my wife's side and tried to comfort her, but as soon as I bent down, my legs became weak.

Involuntarily, with a "plop", he fell beside her.

"What's wrong with you?" The young woman exclaimed, "Don't hurry up!" ”

Hearing her exclamation, my wife, who had closed her eyes, opened her eyes, and she was taken aback and wanted to help me, but she couldn't.

The old woman hurriedly called out to the old man, and when the old man came, he picked me up without saying a word, and with his support, I walked to the side and found a bluestone to sit down.

……

Afterwards, after two days of recuperation there, the two of us took the child back to the Taoist temple.

During this period, the old woman's family asked us who we were, but we did not dare to tell her, only that we had come from the north to join relatives.

Because this place has been in chaos all these years, and there is an endless stream of outsiders coming and going, they did not ask in detail.

When we returned, we were depressed again.

In the face of this little life, I felt that my previous thoughts were too naïve, because this matter is not so easy to fool.

My wife came up with an idea, and that day, we took the child down the mountain early in the morning, went out for miles, and found a family who wanted to put the child in their house, but at first the family refused to do so, because in these days, many people have problems surviving on their own, and who wants to raise a child for others.

Unable to stand the two of us, the man accepted it, but put forward a condition that we should come over and take care of the child every once in a while.

We happily agreed.

However, after we had been there a few times, one day the family suddenly came up with an idea and asked if we would like to give the child away.

When we heard it, we were a little confused, you look at me, I look at you, I don't know what to do.

Giving away, from the current situation of the two of us, has certain benefits, but in the face of such a lovely child's family, who is willing to do that.

The family told us that they wanted their children to be richer, just because there were all girls and no boys, and if the children came to their house, they would not suffer.

Still, we can't part with that.

They told me that it didn't matter if I couldn't figure it out for a while, I would go back and think about it for a few days, and it would never be too late to make a decision.

After a few days, my wife's lips were covered with bubbles, she couldn't eat, she couldn't sleep, and she only sighed at night.

I am not like this, and the thought of a child being separated from us within a few days is as uncomfortable as cutting flesh from us.

However, the harsh reality is in front of us, and if we want to stay at the Taoist temple, we must make a decision to give the child away.

Otherwise, when the master returns, the consequences are unimaginable, when the child was not born, he never thought much about all this, and now in the face of this boy, no matter how he looks at it, he has nothing to do with the master, anyone has to draw a question mark in their hearts, not to mention him.

After thinking about it, we had to make up our minds and give it away!

That night, both of us stayed up all night, and my wife sewed a set of clothes for the child overnight, and boiled a basket of eggs and duck eggs.

The next morning, I saw that her eyes were red and swollen.

When they got to the house, they said they didn't need it, because the family had said that everything on the child had to be replaced.

When my wife heard this, she was dumbfounded, and when she looked at me, I also felt that there was nothing I could do, because even if the other party didn't say this, when we got there, everything was up to us, and what we wanted to do was someone else's business, and we couldn't and didn't have the right to interfere.

However, the mother insisted on putting on the new set of clothes for the child, and the child was very well-behaved, as if he was very sensible, and when he changed his clothes, he did not cry at all, and his big clear eyes were like adults, and he kept staring at the mother, and laughed from time to time, and others must have sounded pleasant.

However, for both of us, the laughter was like a hammer, smashing heavily on your heart, and I saw that when my wife was changing clothes, her tears fell down like beads with broken threads, falling on the newly changed clothes, and on the child's white little face, and the child still did not cry, but quietly licked the tears that fell on his lips, and when he felt the taste, he immediately frowned.

When the master saw this, she really couldn't restrain her emotions, and suddenly, she leaned down on the child's body and cried bitterly.

After crying for a while, she picked up the child again, wiped a handful of tears, and said firmly to the family: "We will take him back and not give him away!" ”

The family was very surprised, the husband and wife looked at each other, and asked her puzzled: "Why are you here, haven't you said it all, the family got the car ready yesterday, and they will come to pick up the child at noon. ”

Men are always clear-headed than women, and when I saw that it was difficult for my wife to let go of the child, I began to hesitate in my heart, but after thinking about it, I still felt that there was only one way to go.

When my wife saw that I was afraid, she put forward an idea that I couldn't imagine: if you don't go back to the Taoist temple, take the child away, and the three of us will raise the child even if we are wandering the world and begging everywhere!

As soon as I heard this, I felt even more that this decision was not feasible, thinking about how we both entered the Taoist temple in the first place, weren't we both taken in by the master because we were desperate and on the verge of despair, and we were able to survive.

Now to drag the family and get back on that road is tantamount to throwing yourself into the fire pit again, when this month, two adults can't survive, plus a child, the prospect is unimaginable.