I woke up at this moment, and the tears finally couldn't stop sliding.

"Su ...... Susan, in this life, my king Chuyan owes you. I whispered as I looked at where Susan had disappeared.

The old woman put away the bowl and walked slowly to my side, she looked at me and then said to the ghost, "Okay, you two go back first, I'll talk to him." ”

After hearing this, the ghost nodded and said, "Okay Meng Po, retire in the next place." ”

After saying that, the two ghosts turned around and walked into the distance.

"Young man, sit down by the river and talk." The old woman looked at me and opened her mouth and said.

I didn't refuse, and followed the old woman slowly to the riverside of the Lechuan River, and then found a fairly flat place to do it.

"Young man, do you see that the river is clear?" The old woman asked suddenly.

When I heard this, I looked into the Lethe River, and I found that it was no different from an ordinary river, and that the water was even clearer than the water of the Sun.

I turned to look at the old woman and said, "Clear, very clear." ”

The old woman smiled and shook her head, then wiped her hand in front of my eyes. Immediately, I felt a little dizzy, and I hurriedly closed my eyes. When I opened my eyes again, the Lethe River in front of me changed.

The water of the Lechuan River has turned blood-yellow, and there are countless snakes and insects and countless souls in the river. The bodies of those souls were mercilessly bitten by those snakes and insects.

"Actually, you should feel fortunate that these people are people who don't want to drink soup. There is only one reason for them, and that is that they can't let go of the people they love. I didn't say just now that I could not drink Meng Po soup, because I couldn't bear to see a girl jump into this Lethe River for love.

In order to meet their beloved again in the next life, these people choose not to drink Meng Po soup and forget all this. Therefore, they had to jump into the Lethe River to endure the bite of snakes and insects for thousands of years. In between, they may see their beloved walking over the bridge again and again, but their beloved will not be able to see him suffering in the river.

They have waited for thousands of years, and in these thousand years, the most difficult thing is not the bite of snakes and insects, but thousands of years of loneliness and loneliness. When a thousand years have passed, they are reincarnated as human beings and see the person they like, but the person they like still can't remember why this person reunited with him, and suffered from thousands of years of loneliness in this Lethe River.

I sometimes wonder if it's worth it to endure such pain for someone who has forgotten himself. Whenever I meet someone who wants to jump off the Lethe River, I will persuade them. But they'll all smile and jump in. Maybe...... This is what the world often calls love. The old woman said as she looked at the suffering souls in the Lethe River.

I felt a strange feeling in my heart, and I didn't know whether to be happy or sad. If the old woman had really told Susan about this, I think Susan might have jumped off as well. If that were the case, I would really be even more guilty of myself. However, Susan's death for me also became a pain in my heart.

I looked at the souls in the river, and their expressions were painful, but they were still patient.

For some reason, I suddenly remembered Qing Yao. Qing Yao is a demon, and I am a person. One day I really grew old and died. Qing Yao will still live in this world, when it comes time for me to drink Meng Po soup, how should I choose?

Maybe...... I would also choose to jump into this Lethe River and wait for her. Suddenly I found that when some things are not in my own right, I will never be able to understand them. When those things happen to you, you will not hesitate to make a decision.

I watched the Lethe River for a long time, watching those souls struggle in the Lethe River. But they were still there, or rather waiting.

The old woman glanced at me, and then said, "It's hard to say about fate, as soon as people drink Meng Po soup, they will forget their past and present lives." And after reincarnation, that person has a new beginning, a new beloved. And also...... A new life. And you, just in her life, send her on her last journey. ”

I smiled wryly and nodded, "I know what you mean, it's just in her life." But she died because of me, an irrelevant outsider, and there was no perfect ending to her life. ”

After hearing this, the old woman slowly got up and said, "In this world, nothing is perfect. However, the outcome of some things is not the worst, at least. Isn't it? ”

I got up and looked at the old woman and said, "You're right, at least not the worst outcome. ”

"Okay, I won't send you, you can go back by yourself." As she spoke, the old woman walked towards the cauldron where the soup was boiling.

I turned my head to look at the old woman, and then at the Lethe River. I don't know when, the blood-colored water and soul of the Lechuan River disappeared, and the river water changed back to its clear appearance.

I shook my head and smiled, then closed my eyes and recited a mantra in my heart. When I opened my eyes again, I found myself in the study.

I moved my body slowly, and my body was a little stiff and numb. Maybe it was because I sat cross-legged for a long time and didn't move, so I slowly got up and slapped my thigh.

When I pushed open the door and walked out, a ray of moonlight shone down.

"Uh...... Good wine......" A voice came from the direction of the backyard.

Don't think about it, it must be Jiusheng's voice, this kid must be very sad at this time.

I walked slowly in the direction of the backyard, and then I saw Jiusheng drinking on the stone table. There were still one or two empty flasks on the table, and one was still in his arms.

"Sent down?" Hisashi's voice came again.

I walked to the table and said, "Send it down, personally hand it over to the seventh master, you can rest assured." ”

After hearing this, Jiusheng nodded and said, "That little thing has been with me for three years, and in these three years, he will come out to chat with me whenever he has time." Although I know that he is a ghost baby, in my mind, I treat him like my child. ”

I smiled and said, "Okay, don't think about it, when you get along with him, you have to think about the day you were separated." ”

Hisashi didn't speak, and I grabbed a new jug of wine from the side, and walked towards the front yard. To be honest, I'm in a terrible mood right now.

It's useless, but you can use it to temporarily anesthetize yourself.

I drank sip after sip in the front yard, thinking about what had happened since I met Susan. In my heart, I only apologize to this woman I never loved.

"What's wrong with you? You seem to have something on your mind. Qing Yao slowly walked to my side and said.

I slowly turned my head to look at Qing Yao and asked, "If a woman falls in love with a man who doesn't like her, is this woman particularly painful?" ”

After hearing this, Qing Yao sat down beside me, she slowly raised her head and looked at the night sky and said, "I don't know about this, but I guess that feeling must be uncomfortable." If you fall in love with someone who doesn't love you, then what's the point of this life? ”

Only then did I remember that Qing Yao had lost her memory. She has forgotten about what happened to us before.

I nodded slowly, and continued to drink.

Qing Yao turned her head to look at me and asked, "I have seen it, is there anything you can tell me?" ”

I hesitated, but in the end I ended up knowing Susan and the year and a half I spent at Susan's house. And also...... Susan died for me, and told Qing Yao everything.

I originally thought that Qing Yao would be a little unhappy, but who knew that after Qing Yao heard this, her eyes were actually a little moist.

"I'm also a woman now, and I seem to be able to understand Susan's pain now. How she missed you before she committed suicide. Qing Yao slowly lowered her head and said.

I gently put my arm around Qing Yao's shoulders and said, "Yes, I feel indebted to her." I thought that I owed you alone for women in this life. But now it seems that I owe Susan what I owe. But I can't make up for Susan's debt. Even if she lives, I don't know what to do to compensate her. ”

As he spoke, he poured a sip of wine into his mouth again, and a teardrop crossed his cheek.

"Don't drink it, it's not going to help. Even if Susan was here, she wouldn't want to see you like this. Qing Yao took the flask from my hand and said.

After hearing this, I nodded and said, "Okay, just listen to you, I won't drink anymore." ”

After a while, Qing Yao looked at me and said, "When we have time, let's go see Susan." ”

I nodded and said, "Well, we'll go over and have a look when we have time, but we have other things to do right now." ”

"What's the matter?" Qing Yao looked at me and asked.

I didn't tell the soul about it, but said, "This matter is kept secret for the time being, you go back to rest first, and I will go back to rest too." ”

Qing Yao didn't ask any more after hearing this, but turned around and walked towards her room.

After Qing Yao left, I walked in the courtyard for a while, and then turned around and walked towards my room. I fell asleep very late that night.

For the next few days, I wasn't in a good mood. But I have also been looking for Zhang Xiu's whereabouts, but Jiusheng has helped me divinate several times, and the hexagrams are very messy, and I can't find them at all.

In desperation, we had to give up for the time being. And then, I also decided to take Qingyao to see Susan in a few days. After all, Zhang Xiu's matter has no result for the time being, and we can't wait here forever, it's better to find something to do first.