After listening to her story, my pity for her came up again. Li Jie made herself so humble for the sake of love. Just to get a little warmth from Wang Feng, I would rather just be with a person with the same name and be wronged. She's really pathetic......

"Xiaojie, do you still like Wang Feng now?"

Li Jie shook her head, "No, Xiaoxiao, I don't like him at all now." ”

"Why? You've done it for him. ”

Li Jie smiled: "Xiaoxiao, that day at his house, when he showed me the pregnancy test stick, I knew in my heart that my fate with him was over." ”

"But, even if that's the case, how can you so easily give up this attachment that you've been pursuing for so long?"

"Because, if you haven't gotten it, you will have obsession. Once you have it, the rest is just the difference between cherishing and not understanding cherishing. That obsession, when you have it, disappears. ”

……

The roar of the rain drowned out Li Jie's voice. I didn't hear what she said next. I was in a trance, thinking about what she said.

Is it really that realistic? If you have it, you don't cherish it.

Is everyone's obsession because they don't have it? It's like my deep obsession with the sea, after I went there, I really let go! What I look forward to the most is no longer the yearning for the sea, but the exploration of the future. I wonder what will happen to me after Liu Wei is gone? I wondered, in his heart, how much do I weigh? I wonder if he will miss me when he is gone.

Yes, now, probably these unknown futures, are my obsessions. Because the future will never be available.

"Xiaoxiao, let's go, it's time for evening self-study." Li Jie shook my arm and shook me from my thoughts.

"Oh, good." I looked out the window.

The rain is still so heavy, just such a small umbrella given by Chen Yingjie, before we get home, Li Jie and I will become soup chickens.

At the end of March, it was still cold.

I took out the umbrella from my desk and walked with Li Jie to the hallway outside the classroom.

I saw Chen Yingjie running over: "Xiaolong, where is the lunch box?" ”

"Here you go." Li Jie stretched out her hand and handed it to him.

"Okay, let's go. My dad is coming to pick me up, so you guys go together. ”

This is really a house leak that happened to rain overnight, and the willows and flowers were bright and another village.

When I got home, my shoes and pants were still wet. After changing my clothes and lying down in the warm quilt, I suddenly felt that I was so lucky.

Although, my life is not very happy either. But I don't have a bumpy story like Li Jie, and I don't have her sad reason.

The night, heavy, raining, still falling......

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The next morning, when I woke up, the rain had stopped.

The pants that got wet last night weren't dry, they were still wet. I took out another set of school uniforms and changed into them. Tidy yourself up, Chen Yingjie is already waiting for me outside.

Heavy rain overnight, although the rain has stopped at this moment, the traces of heavy rain can be seen everywhere.

Puddles of water were piling up everywhere in the ground, and some of the young shoots that had just been pulled out had been bent over by the heavy rain. Scattered new leaves also fell to the ground. On the dirt in the yard, there are large earthworms thicker than chopsticks. When Chen Yingjie and I passed by, I was startled, shouted, and hid behind him.

"Xiaolong, it's okay, it's not a snake, it's an earthworm."

"I know, but it's so big, I'm afraid, I'm really afraid." Tears rolled in his eyes.

Ever since I was a child, I've been afraid of all kinds of bugs, the kind of fear that goes to the bone marrow. So the last time Wang Feng used an earthworm to scare me, I reacted so much and jumped up from my seat.

Speaking of which, it's because when I was younger, I wasn't sensible. The boys in the yard played with it, and I played with it. I think it's fluffy and can be tossed around. Later, I followed the boys and brutally tossed the earthworm to death. When my mother saw me, my mother told me that no. Earthworms are also small creatures and can hurt.

At night, I had a terrible dream, and from then on, I would be terrified when I saw these soft things, such as caterpillars and snakes. Bigger, all the bugs, I'm afraid. Even the green worms on the vegetables will make me tremble for a long time.

"Okay Xiaolong, let's go this way." Chen Yingjie blocked my view and didn't let me see the big earthworm.

I shuddered as I passed by, far away from it, and I still had palpitations.

"Xiaolong, you are so cowardly, how can you do it without your brother's protection?" Chen Yingjie laughed at me proudly, he will always be so arrogant and beautiful in front of me.

"Yinjian-san, please correct your attitude. Is Sister someone who needs your protection? What my sister needs is Erha. ”

As soon as Chen Yingjie heard it, I called him a nickname, and when he came angry, he scratched me, of course I couldn't let him get it at will. So boring, I ran the game he chased, and after playing for a few years, I actually felt quite boring in my heart, and I was so old, and I still played this? However, the two of us enjoyed it every time.

Finally, under a large tree, he caught me. I struggled as hard as I could, and he grabbed me.

Before, I didn't have any discomfort with such movements. This time, however, I suddenly felt blushing and shy. It seems that the innocence between Chen Yingjie and Chen Yingjie no longer exists. No, to be exact, my innocence is gone.

I reached out and pushed him, and he thought I was still playing, so he hugged me harder.

I slammed it hard, and Chen Yingjie stumbled and took a few steps back.

He looked at me with a puzzled expression: "Xiaolong, what's wrong with you?" ”

"Nothing." I bowed my head and replied unhappily.

"Xiaolong, I'm sorry, did I hurt you?"

"No, it's not your business, it's me."

"What the hell is going on? Xiaolong, tell me, what are you not happy about, I will change it, can't I change it? ”

"Oh, it's really not your business, don't say it anymore, let's go."

Chen Yingjie's unprecedented solemn expression, looking at me, tears were about to come out.

"Xiaoxiao, don't be angry, it's all my fault, it's all my fault, don't be angry, okay?"

I ignored him, and he kept following me, apologizing.

He didn't know how tormented my heart was at the moment.

I feel so terrible, Chen Yingjie has always been a good sister in my heart, even if we lie in the same bed, we are the kind of good girlfriends that no one will think about.

However, now, he is still simple, and I have changed.

This makes me very annoyed, how will I get along with him in the future? When he was innocent to me, my heart was filthy and uneasy. I'm angry that I was who I am.

"Xiaoxiao, can you just tell me? Please, you don't talk like this, I know, you must be angry. "Chen Yingjie's understanding of me is really extraordinary. Unfortunately, this time, he misjudged. I'm not angry with him, so he can't persuade me. Only by myself, breaking through the shackles that imprison me, can I feel better.

I should have been a little moved by Chen Yingjie hugging me because I had hugged Liu Wei. At that moment, I must have missed the warm moment with Liu Wei, so I mistook Chen Yingjie for him! Yes, it must be. Okay, since that's the case, I don't have to worry about it, otherwise, Chen Yingjie will probably go crazy. This incident was not his fault.