Early in the morning of May 29, Zhu Yi came to knock on Zuo Qi's door. Zuo Chu saw that she was carrying a burden and seemed to be going out, so he asked her what was wrong. Zhu Yi said that she and Qiu Shui needed to go out for three days because of something, and hoped that he could help take care of A-Niang.

Seeing that she didn't explain the matter, Zuo Chu said that he would go with her, but Zhu Yi was not in a high mood, and explained that he was going to sweep the grave for someone.

Sweep the grave of the person who borrowed her corpse more than a year ago.

May 30 was the girl's birthday. Last year, Zhu Yi wanted to go, but at that time, Qiu Shui took care of A-Niang, and he couldn't do without it, and he didn't worry about her going alone, so he couldn't get his wish.

Hearing this, Zuo Chu no longer bothered about the entourage, and only ordered Xu Yu Ying to bring some shadows to protect them.

With Zuo Zhu here, A-Niang will definitely be fine, and Zhu Yi moved with confidence.

The site of the tomb to be swept on this trip is in the original valley, an oasis a little far away from the ancient village.

It was noon on the second day when we arrived at Haraya. The person buried by Zhu Yi herself, she remembers the specific location clearly. After walking deep into the valley for two quarters of an hour, and rounding a patch of dry reeds, they saw a lonely grave.

This small grave is too simple, Xu Eucalyptus couldn't stand it, and ordered the shadow to buy a tombstone. Zhu Yi and Qiu Shui plucked the new grass from the grave one by one, cultivated new soil for the grave, and trimmed it carefully.

After finishing this, Zhu Yi put the food and fruits he brought in front of the grave, took out the paper money and burned it to the people in the grave, and bowed sincerely.

The paper money burned out, and Zhu Yi sat down in front of the grave, saying that he wanted to talk to the people in the grave. Qiu Shui wiped the thin sweat on her forehead for her, nodded and walked away, and Xu Eucalyptus also retreated far away with the shadow.

Seeing everyone walking away, Zhu Yi fanned his forehead with his hand and felt a little cool. She went to see the trimmed grave and laughed, "It looks like a pitiful little pile." ”

As if waiting for someone to answer, she waited for a long time before she continued: "Xia Cong, I'm sorry, I'm just here to sweep your grave now." ”

On the day she set fire to the garden, she borrowed the body of Xia Cong, who died of illness. Xia Cong is a native of Xili, I don't know where my home is in Xili, and I vaguely remember such a place as Yuangu, so Zhu Yi sent her here for burial in accordance with her last wishes.

"Don't look at this little grave and look pitiful, I still envy you a little. It's nice to fall asleep and no longer have to worry about the big and small things in this world. After a pause, she sighed, "I've been in a bad state lately, and I'm afraid that I won't be able to control myself and walk away...... At least there's my mother, my brother and you. ”

"But no, A-Niang and my brother are so good to me, if I only want to be happy, but I don't take into account their feelings, I'm afraid that I won't be at ease even if I die."

"You see, it's not safe to live, it's not safe to die. How can you be born as a human being, so tired. ”

The breeze blew the thin sweat on her forehead and dried it, and she looked down at her hands, "The people from before have come here, and they don't seem to hate me anymore." I wasn't happy at all. ”

"Xia Cong, am I too ......?"

Blinking her reddened apricot eyes, she said, "I may be hypocritical, otherwise I shouldn't be entangled if people show favor." But I tried, but I still couldn't untie the knot. ”

"They laugh at me, and I can laugh at them too. I can get along with people very happily, but there is a question, I have never understood, except for 'I shouldn't make my mother and brother sad', what is the meaning of my life? ”

"When I couldn't sleep, my mind was fantasizing about someone coming and killing me. In that case, I wouldn't be suicidal. After all, I can't afford to kill myself......"

"Mr. Tsubi, do you remember? It's the Tingyu I used to tell you about. He was hell-bent on making it up to me, and I knew how it felt. But he didn't do anything to be sorry for me......" Zhu Yi saw two tears falling from his hands, and quickly wiped them, "Mr. Chu really didn't feel sorry for me, but I hurt him." If you have a spirit in the sky, bless me, let me quickly help him get the Gu, and I will be much easier. ”

"I'm so tired right now. I pretend to be happy every day, and I don't dare to let them see the corruption in my heart. ”

"I'm still sick to myself. People who come out of the dirt only deserve to live in rancid stench in this life, right? The tears couldn't be controlled, she looked at the tears on her hands in a daze, and didn't wipe them anymore, trying to continue in a steady tone: "If only the one lying here was really my body, Xia Cong." ”

"Life has come this far, and I'm almost twenty. In the past, I didn't care about other people's eyes, as long as there were a few people who loved me, I could be very chic and comfortable. But looking back now, all I see is exclusion, humiliation, and absurdity. How much failure do you think I have to live such a life? ”

"Zhu Yi is useless." She said.

The valley became silent, and the breeze disappeared.

"Xia Cong, you are also a poor person, I am still complaining to you, will you look for me at night?" Zhu Yi couldn't hold back her tears, so she simply didn't care, and sniffed, "You still come to me, I'm very noisy in my head, I have a headache, why don't you come and accompany me......"

Half a sound, no one answered, Zhu Yi patted the grave angrily, "Don't speak!" I might as well save some effort to deal with the living! ”

After chattering for a long time, Zhu Yi confided his thoughts to a person who no longer existed, and felt a lot more relaxed.

After waiting for an hour, Shadow finally bought a valuable tombstone and even hired an engraver. The tombstone was erected in front of the tomb, and the master carefully carved a few big characters on the tombstone: "Sister of Zhu Yi - the tomb of Xia Cong." ”

Qiu Shui saw that Zhu Yi's eyes were red and swollen, hugged her and smiled. Zhu Yi squeezed out his tears and said, "It's good, Xia Cong has a tombstone." ”

"Hmm." Qiu Shui let go of her, bowed to the grave, and then said to Zhu Yi: "Let's go back." ”

"Okay."

……

After a day and a half, the group returned to their lodgings at dark.

Zuo Qi was talking to A-Niang in front of the door and was waiting for them. Zhu Yi saw it from a distance, ran forward briskly, hugged A-Niang, and did not forget to thank Zuo Qi: "Thank you, Mr. Zhu, because you let Brother Xu accompany you, everyone has set up a tombstone!" I remember your kindness, and I will go to repay it now. Then he went back to his room.

Looking at the back of her quickly rushing into the house, Zuo Chu said with a smile: "Don't be in a hurry, just rest first when you come back." ”

"It's okay, I'm really tired, I'll have a good night's sleep later." Zhu Yi turned around and closed the door.

A-Niang saw that it was not early, and asked Zuo Chu to rest early, and also went back to the room. As soon as Qiu Shui got home, she went to boil hot water, and when she carried the water into the clothes room, she was in a daze and insisted on waiting for a bath.

"If you're tired, go to bed first, and then wash tomorrow." He blamed her.

Zhu Yi's upper and lower eyelids fought, "No, it's dirt." ”

Qiu Shui poured the water, went out and closed the door, and took a shower with a yawn.