For several days, Xu Fengfan did not come to me, nor did he have any contact with me. I happened to be at home, finishing my winter vacation homework seriously, and by the way, I took a few more cram classes. Also at home, meditate, let yourself return to the state of serious study. After a few days, the effect is still good. I started to have a little bit of confidence in my studies again.

Liu Wei is right, you can't just give up on yourself like this. At any time, as long as it is not until the last moment, no final conclusion can be made.

Thinking of Liu Wei, I couldn't help but smile on my face. Look at the time, this time, it should be his late night. He must be dreaming, I wonder if there will be me in the dream?

In the afternoon, I didn't have an appointment, and it was fine, so I went for a walk at the physical education academy alone. It's cold, but I like it.

Sitting on the bench, the phone rang, and I glanced at it, Xu Fengfan. I pressed it and didn't want to answer.

I don't know if it's because I heard Xu Qiuyun say that his life experience was so uneventful that day, I couldn't bear to treat him like that again. Although, he lived a very rich life. His adoptive parents are also relatives themselves, and they are very good to him, but if you don't know about such a thing, it will be a lifetime of happiness. But once I know it, I will always feel a little sad.

I can't bear to hurt it anymore, probably, my nature is not bad. Although there is a little devil living in my heart, in the face of such a choice, I have overcome the hatred in my heart.

The phone kept ringing, ringing, and I pressed it again and again.

In the end, my phone was about to run out of battery after such a toss, and I had to answer his call.

Xu Fengfan said that he was waiting for me at the gate of our compound, but there was no way, so I asked him to walk to the Sports Institute by himself, where I was.

When he came, there was no smile from the past, a faint sadness hung on his face.

He didn't speak, and I didn't speak, I just moved my body to make room for him to sit down.

After a long time, he said, "Xiaoxiao, what are you looking at?" ”

I pointed to the gray sky, "There." ”

He followed the direction of my finger and looked over, "Nothing." ”

I smiled, turned my head, and looked at him, "Mood adjusted?" Does it confirm what your sister said? ”

He nodded, looking lonely.

"That day, when I went back, I asked my parents. Along the way, my sister was trying to persuade me not to ask. But how can I endure my temper. At first they didn't admit it, but then when I pressed them, they did. ”

"What about you...... Do you blame them? ”

"No, I was angry at first, I was angry at why they lied to me. For so many years, this is actually the reason why my parents and my own parents have lived so closely. In the past few days, I have thought about it, and slowly I will not be angry. Both my own parents and my current parents are very good to me. Now that this matter has been talked about, I have figured it out in my heart, and everyone will continue to get along as before. ”

"What about you...... Why are you still not happy. ”

"Xiaoxiao, I'm not unhappy, I just feel that I am the only one who is kept in the dark for such a big matter, can you understand this feeling? The feeling after knowing the truth is really not happy or unhappy, and you can make it clear if you want to understand it or not. ”

I sighed, how could I not understand? At the beginning, because of Liu Wei and Xu Qiuyun, was I still blinded?

"I know, really."

"Xiaoxiao, in front of them, except for the first and second day, I am not happy. From the third day, I pretended to be in a good mood because I had figured it out, and when I faced them, I was smiling. However, the discomfort in my heart can only be suppressed by myself. ”

"Sail, I can understand your feelings. Originally...... I've been deceived like this. It's just that my problem has been solved, but your heart has not completely let go. To say that it is completely down is a lie. I hope that time can be a cure, and after a long time, I naturally don't care so much. ”

"Well, thank you, Xiaoxiao, I knew it was right to come to you. You can make me feel at ease......" Xu Fengfan looked at me and gradually smiled. His eyes are still so innocent and sincere.

I hesitated to tell him the truth about how close I was to him. Tell him and you can stop hurting him. However, in such a situation now, I can't bear to add another scar to him when he is sad.

"Xiaoxiao, you won't lie to me, will you?"

"I ......" Facing Xu Fengfan's words, I didn't know how to answer. I'm not just lying to him, I'm just using him. At this time, in front of this big boy, I suddenly felt so dirty. His sincerity made me hold back a little and didn't dare to tell him the truth. Not for fear that he would know how bad I was, but for fear of hurting him.

Why. In just a few days, I have changed so much? Is it because he also had an unfortunate experience? No, he's not, he's lucky. Although his parents are adoptive parents, they are also very close relatives after all, and he has never left his biological parents since he was a child. It's not unfortunate......

"Xiaoxiao, I know, you are a kind girl, I believe you. My sister told me a lot about you, but I didn't care, and I didn't believe it. I only believe that I see you. You care about me, you care about me, don't you? ”

"Xiaoxiao?" Xu Fengfan seemed to want to get my affirmative answer at this moment, I could have promised to comfort him like this, but I couldn't open my mouth and couldn't say such a thing.

I was silent, as if only silence was the best answer.

"Xiaoxiao...... Well, if you don't speak, I'll take you by default. Hehe......" He smiled, although the smile was not as bright as usual, but at this moment, such a smile may have been the happiest moment in a few days. His optimism gradually returned to him.

"Sails, you know what? You have an inexplicable optimism. Although this optimism made me feel helpless, it is a very good quality and I hope you will keep it up. No matter what kind of setbacks you encounter in the future, you can greet them with a smile and deal with them with optimism. In this way, you will have more courage and strength, so that you can quickly break free from those unpleasant things. ”

In this paragraph, I seem to want to give him a preventive shot, so that one day, when he is disappointed in me, he will not be too sad.

"Xiaoxiao, I didn't expect you to be able to see my advantages, I'm so happy." His smile finally bloomed like a flower.

"Well, come on. You can do it. "I smiled and encouraged him, hoping that I wouldn't hurt him too much.