Chapter 76: Life and Death

I was taken aback, and I hurriedly picked it with my hand, only to find out that it was the Taoist priest's beard, which was too long and inserted into my ears.

At this time, I suddenly felt that this person was a little familiar, and when I looked at it carefully, I couldn't help but be taken aback, this Taoist priest in front of me turned out to be my master, and he was whispering something to me.

Naturally, I immediately thought of my wife and the child, and wanted to ask him, but the master seemed to know my thoughts, and at this time, he gradually became blurred, and there seemed to be a layer of fog between him and me, and his face was a little difficult to see.

I regret it very much, didn't this thought touch a sore spot in his heart?

He said something meaningfully, and I didn't hear it, and looked at him suspiciously, but he said no more.

I thought of the child at this time, and asked him, who thought, at this moment the figure of the master has become ethereal, which makes me more and more anxious, and hurriedly asked a few times, intermittently, from the shadowy place came a word, I listened with great difficulty, barely to hear clearly, the master is telling me, in the future, one day, I will save you again. You'll meet afterwards.

I also want to ask him, when will that be?

But by this time, the master had disappeared without a trace.

The moonlight in the room was like water, and it was silent.

The master must have left, I was in a hurry, struggled again, wanted to chase out, suddenly startled, woke up, only to know that it was a dream, opened the window lattice and looked out, only to see the dark and secluded doorway, the big stone at the top door was still faintly there, which means that no one has come in at all.

I was disappointed and deeply saddened.

Thinking of my wife, thinking of our son, I couldn't sleep anymore.

I was determined to get up and look for them as soon as the morning dawned.

In the morning, when the east showed the white belly of the fish, I got up and walked out of the mountain gate, but, facing the vast mountains, I could not decide which direction to go, and I wanted to ask for directions, but at a glance, I could not see a single house until the end of the mountain.

At this time, my stomach "gurgling" sounded, and I remembered that since last night until now, I have not eaten a little, so I turned back and entered the Taoist temple. To my astonishment, I found some food, and it seemed that I was right, that it had been inhabited before, and that it had just left, and who could it be.

This reminds me of the master, could it be that he dreamed of me last night, if so, it is possible that he lived here before, in that case, why did he leave again, is it related to the matter between me and my wife?

If that's the case, it's somewhat understandable, and as for the child, he must be with him, and these toys in front of him are examples.

Thinking about it this way, this is all the painstaking work of the master, who took in our son without our knowledge, raised it with him, and then sent it back at the right time?

If the master is really so large, then, in comparison, what kind of face do I have to face the teacher?

Suddenly, I felt ashamed, ashamed, and guilty.

What else am I looking for, my wife is long gone, take a step back and say, if she survives, I'm afraid she won't have the face to go back.

If you want to find it, you can only go to the master, because the child is fixed by his side, but how will I face my son?

However, the strong longing for my wife made me change my mind: since my wife and I have our own children, and now her life and death are uncertain, how can I be calm, no, I still have to look for her, and if I don't find her, I will not give up.

So, he resolutely walked down the mountain.

I slept day and night, and I didn't know how far I had walked, but I couldn't get out of the mountains, and finally, tired and hungry, I fell on the side of the road, and could never get up again.

Lying on a meadow, I looked up at the blue sky, the white clouds that drifted by, and listened to the beautiful chirping of birds, and I fell into confusion.

If you keep going like this, even if you are tired and starving, you will not be able to get out.

After pondering for a long time, I thought it would be better to go back while I still have some strength, and after a while, it is not too late to make plans.

Strange to say, when I walked back, I found that it was very smooth, because there was only one road ahead, and I didn't have to look for it at all, but only followed this not very wide but very flat path, and gradually realized that I had returned to the road from which I came.

When I returned to the Taoist temple, I remembered the situation in my dream in the morning and evening, and guessed that all this was arranged by the master, who led me here in a delirious way when I was on the verge of death.

Now that I think about it, the master did it on purpose when he ran away, and he had already seen the subtleties between me and my wife, and he was just pretending to turn a blind eye.

In the years that followed, he was also secretly helping, that is, the so-called child had been given away, but in fact the master brought the child here to raise it.

His purpose is not difficult to understand, that is, he wants his children to have a safe and secure environment to grow up.

The child grows up day by day, and it is not a long-term solution to be separated from his parents all the time, and finally the master took the child to see us, which is also to fulfill the three of us.

It's just that my wife and I couldn't face the master and misunderstood his intentions.

Now it seems that before his wife ran out of the mountain gate, he seemed to have seen the clues, but the tragedy still happened, is this still out of jealousy towards his wife?

However, from the analysis of the master's behavior before and after, it seems that there is no such possibility, since the master has raised all our children, it shows that his generosity has exceeded the scope of our imagination.

But why did it turn out this way?

I remember what the master often said: life and death are fate, wealth is in the sky, and the Taoist idea is passive and inactive, that is, people will not be able to overcome the sky, so that the master is also powerless and powerless.

What should happen will eventually happen, and we can't prevent tomorrow if we prevent it today.

In other words, there are many things in the world, and the development of the situation cannot be reversed by human intervention.

Therefore, Taoists believe that life and death are predestined and should be taken as they come.

In other words, the separation between my wife and me has become a catastrophe, and it is not subject to human will, sooner or later, that day will come.

In the minds of Taoists, death is no longer a shocking, incomprehensible nightmare. Zhuangzi's wife died, and a new, optimistic philosophy of death appeared in such a shocking way.

Life is nothing but an orderly process of life from the airless to the qi, from the formless to the tangible, from the lifeless to the living, and death is the return of this evolution. This is more distant than the Confucian soul theory, more ethereal, life and death are one, life and death are one, death is life, the dialectic of life is in it, the "Tao" of nature transcends everything, people can never compete with the work of creation, "life can not stop, its go can not stop", life and death are the limit of life problems, it is best to see a little, affection is pain, "ruthless" can be "suspended" and free. In the depths, we still feel that behind its optimism is the wind of pessimism and helplessness about life.

It is true that my way and deeds are far from that of my master, and if I want to reach his realm, it will take time, and perhaps in his opinion, whether my master lives or dies, it is an extremely natural thing, and there is no need to force it.

Because from the Taoist view, death is no longer a certain limit of life, the "soul" and "spirit" from the ethereal things containing "ghost" gas to the "form" and "god" that can make a difference, from the void of the god, the god of the gas, the gas of the essence, the refinement of the form, the formation of the human beings of the generation of all things, the derivation of a pleasant god to keep the form, the cultivation of the form of refinement, refining the refinement of the gas, refining the qi of the gods, refining the gods and returning to the void such a way of reverse cultivation and return to the source, in the cave fairyland, time and space began to become flexible, can be reversed or reflowed, the light of the golden pill obscured the boundary of life and death, When meeting elsewhere, the ancients and the present can communicate back and forth in the true realm of life and in a unique aura.

As I said earlier, if I haven't cultivated to such a high level, naturally I can't explain the philosophy in it.

Therefore, I couldn't let go of that unforgettable true feeling no matter what, and I couldn't help crying loudly in front of the vast mountains.

In the following months, I tried several more times, looking for my wife, and finally although I walked out of the mountains and arrived in the area of Songshan, I couldn't tell where the specific place was, and I searched for a long time, and the more I walked, the more confused I became.

For I found that these places were as if they had undergone a catastrophe, and many of them should have been green and green, and large fields were barren and even exposed to loess.

Later, I inquired about the people of some villages and described to them the approximate geographical location of the Taoist temple, but I saw that those people were very ignorant. They told me that no one had ever heard of such a Taoist temple, and that not long ago, it had rained heavily for nearly a month, causing flash floods, destroying hundreds of villages and leveling all the houses at the foot of Songshan Mountain.

At this point, I was completely disappointed, and in the end, I had to give up the idea of continuing to search, but the unforgettable pain has always haunted my heart and lasted for a long time.

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At this, the Taoist priest stopped talking and fell into deep thought, neither of us said a word, and we were both deeply moved by his experience.

We saw two lines of tears running down the Taoist priest's cheeks.

Soon, it was almost noon, and I got up to prepare lunch, when the Taoist priest seemed to wake up from his memory, looked outside, stood up, and said goodbye to us.

My siblings tried to keep me, but he insisted on not staying, and turned and walked out the door.

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Xia Zining stopped talking, and when she saw that the tea was already a little cold, she called her younger brother to refill the tea.

Mu Ziqi immediately thought, should he say goodbye?

Xia Zining immediately saw what Mu Ziqi meant, and hurriedly glanced at his younger brother.

This scene was seen by Mu Ziqi, and he was puzzled, what did this sister and brother want to do?