Shao Xun suddenly let go of my hand, and while gently pressing my shoulder, his hand gradually moved down, touching my waist down, his lips on my neck, intentionally or unintentionally.

"Shaoxun, don't ...... Don't do that!" subconsciously took his hand that moved downstream, and said with some confusion.

Shao Xun stopped what he was doing, hugged my waist, looked at my eyes, and said with a hint of evil at the corner of his mouth, "What......? This flower of yours has been plucked by Maple Mozi?"

"No...... No, I didn't lie to you, I just don't think it's good?"

"Then don't refuse me!"

Shao Xun looked at me and said categorically, his tone full of meaning that I could not refuse or consider.

Watching Shao Xun slowly kiss my neck, his hand slowly moving over me, my bear nightdress was gradually faded by him.

I...... Do I really want to do this kind of thing with Shao Xun? Do I really want to? Or did I really let go of that incident back then? That incident, I finally pressed it into the deepest part of my heart, and almost forgot about it, can I really have no scruples about such things in bed?

When I came back to my senses, my body could be said to be naked, Shao Xun's hand slowly crossed my shoulder, holding my face, very gentle but also with a hint of distrust and said angrily: "Until now, I still doubt whether you and Feng Mozi have anything to do with each other, after all, this time you killed me with your own hands, I don't want to force people to make it difficult, let alone force you to do what you don't want, now...... As long as you say you don't want to, I'll let you go right away!"

I......

I understand what Shao Xun means, it's not that I don't like him, it's just that in my heart, I've always been very afraid of this kind of thing, terrified to the extreme, at the beginning of a non-nervous touch of the opposite sex, it will remind me of that dark day, and my heart hurts once. Now, although it is not so serious, it is still very resistant to such a thing, and I don't know how to answer him......

Shao Xun saw that I didn't react silently, so he let go of me a little angrily, glanced at me with a little disgust, and was about to get up to leave, I subconsciously took his hand, slowly got up and covered myself with the quilt, and slowly hugged him from behind.

At this moment, I couldn't help but feel my heart ache, and the scene from my childhood forced to appear in front of my eyes. At this time, I couldn't help crying anymore: "Woo woo woo ~ don't go, I don't want you to leave me, woo woo ......"

Shao Xun turned to look at me crying, very distressed wiped away the tears on my face, put my head on his shoulder, I leaned on his arms, he gently held my hand, silently sat with me.

At this moment, I suddenly felt that his shoulders were no longer so cold, but there was a trace of warmth, and his heart gradually quieted down in his arms

It's like magic, and it makes me want to rely on it all the time, and I don't want to leave......

I looked up at Shao Xun's gaze, and I was a little fascinated, such a sense of security, to be honest, has not appeared since my father left, but I just found it in him, a feeling that can make me feel at ease......

I couldn't help but kiss Shao Xun, the quilt slowly slipped down at this moment, Shao Xun turned his head to look, held the back of my head, and responded to my kiss......

For a while, the spring is beautiful......

I lay on my side on the bed, looking at the bear pajamas that Shao Xun had taken off on the ground, the hair scattered on the pillow, and me under the quilt......

Shao Xun turned me over with some doubts at this time, I pillowed on his arm, he got up slightly, his hand gently crossed my shoulder, and said with some dissatisfaction: "It's not the first time you ......"

"Shaoxun, you...... "I knew I couldn't hide it from him, and I didn't want to hide it from him, but I didn't have the courage to face that unbearable memory.

"Others naturally don't feel it, but you ...... Have you forgotten, who am I? I can clearly feel the feelings in your heart, and what is going on in your head, do you think you will be full of me for the first time?" Shao Xun asked with some dissatisfaction.

Shao Xun looked at my gradually sad face, and the tears that slowly slipped from the corners of his eyes, gently brushed the strawberries he planted on his body, looked at me and said: "You don't want to say, I don't have to ask, I know that the first time I took you away was not Feng Mozi, in your body, I feel that it was a long time ago......"

"Then you must not doubt me again, the last time I killed you, that scene is still my nightmare, I have been able to go more than once, I dreamed that I ended your life with a knife in my hand, I have been regretting and grieving......"

"Okay, I'll just forgive you. ”

Shao Xun stroked my face, smiled very satisfied, and said sweetly, but in the blink of an eye, his eyes became very cold and terrifying, and he said again: "But Feng Mozi...... I will never let him go, and Feng Ci, I want them to feel my pain at that time in the same way, and to make amends for my biological father!"

At this moment, Shao Xun became very terrifying, his eyes were full of hatred, every pore of him seemed to be exuding evil, the black smoke around him was billowing more and more terrifying, and the items in the whole room shook involuntarily, until the teacup on the desk on the side fell to the ground, and I was scared and trembled.

Shao Xun slowly lowered his head, his hand ran down my face, gently slid my neck, he held my neck, tightened it little by little, looked at me who was a little scared, and said coldly: "What...... You're still afraid of me? Didn't you know early on that I was a terrible ghost that I couldn't mess with? Today I took the initiative to dedicate myself, I thought you weren't afraid of me, but I didn't expect you, like those laymen, to tremble with fear just by seeing this!"

I shook my head and pressed hard

The uneasiness in his heart, this uneasiness, not because he is afraid that he is a ghost, but because he is afraid that the resentment in his body will swallow up all his reason, and then he will really be an out-and-out ghost, presumably by then, it is estimated that he will not think of my existence.

"Shaoxun, I'm not afraid of you, I'm afraid of your resentment, I'm afraid that your resentment will make you lose your mind......"

"And then ......"

I raised my hand and gently put my arm around his neck, and pressed him down, I fell on his chest, his hand was on my waist, and the other hand was around me, I said slowly: "You are a person I like, how can I be afraid of you, I am afraid that one day, your resentment will swallow your reason, I am afraid that one day, you will not know me, you will forget me, if so, then I would rather be selfish, I don't want your hands to stick to the bloody ......"

"You don't want me to kill his father and son, you want me to be a saint and let go of hatred?" Shao Xun asked me indifferently.

I lay on his chest, looked up at him, and when I heard him say this, I quickly vetoed: "No, they have done so much and need to pay for their actions, but I don't want you to end them, now there is a law to punish them, and the power of the media and public opinion will make them nowhere to hide, so ...... Can you promise me not to let their blood spill on your hands?"

"Can I think that Feng Shuiya wants you, you are unwilling, and I will take the initiative to dedicate myself in exchange, should I want to use this in exchange for letting me let go of my hatred?" Shao Xun gently stroked the hair on my sideburns, as if he was smiling and smiling, as if he would explode in the next moment.

I really didn't expect him to think so, hearing his words, my heart suddenly hurt, his words and sentences, like a sharp sword, cut my heart one by one.

I sat up slowly, and my heart hurt at the moment and I was unconscious: "Shaoxun, I thank you, thank you for letting me experience such heartache again, it hurts so much that I can't breathe! Last time, it was my dad who gave it to me, he promised me, but he didn't say goodbye and lay there forever, this time it was you who gave it to me, I was wrong...... I shouldn't have been tempted by you, I shouldn't have had all this happen to you!"

Shao Xun smiled indifferently at the corner of his mouth, slowly sat up and looked at me, and said painlessly: "Since this is the case, then it should be regarded as a dream, a momentary pleasure!"

As soon as Shao Xun turned around, he was already wearing a very handsome and neat clothes, and he couldn't see any trace of having a relationship with a woman just now, just glanced at me, and disappeared into this room.

I was left alone, I wanted to cry but cried, I could only flow all my tears into my heart, turn into blood in my heart drop by drop, and flow out again......

I'm so sad, but why is it so sad that my heart hurts, but I can't shed a single tear in pain, are my tears dry? Or is it really not to the point of sadness?

My father deceived me and made up such a beautiful dream for me, but before I could wake up, he quietly left, and then, almost everyone in the family except my mother could no longer believe them......

But now, I am willing to believe you, do you know how much courage I had to overcome the shadow in my heart with you, and you? did not drive away the shadow in my heart, but added another layer to me......

I lay on the bed with a blank face, and my mind kept thinking of the darkest day of my childhood......

I was alone at home doing my homework, and the arrival of the man left me unprepared, and when he saw half a bottle of liquor in the corner, he gave me some money and asked me to buy two bottles of beer.

But I didn't expect that when the wine was bought, he let me drink it, and I still remember that at that time, I said, "No, my mother told me that my child can't drink......

But he said, "It's okay, your mother is not here, and I will talk to ......her when your mother will come."

Immediately afterward, in an unguarded state, I drank several glasses of liquor mixed with beer, and at that time there was no cup for drinking at home, so I drank it from the same cup of water at home......

At that time, I was still so young, it was the first time I drank alcohol, the first time I tasted the spicy and exciting of wine, and the first time I really knew what it was: I was still counting money for others after selling!

I thought he was going to drink, but I didn't expect it to be bought for myself, maybe he didn't expect that after a few glasses, I wasn't drunk, but sobered up......

But when he woke up, he saw that he was indeed standing next to the bed and lifting his pants and belt......

As if I kept thinking about it, I cried out, "It hurts...... It hurts......"

But the man said, "It's okay, it won't hurt for a while......"

Heh~hehe......

Yan Xixi, you should have hid in the utility room with a knife a long time ago, cut your wrists and died in front of your father's portrait, why should you be cowardly? Why should you be afraid? If you had been resolute at that time, you would not have had all the difficulties and pains you have today......

(End of this chapter) I want to talk about "Coffin Man, Please Hold Me Tight" with more like-minded people, and pay attention to "Excellent Reading Literature" on WeChat, talk about life, and find a confidant~