Throughout the movie, I sat restlessly between Li Jie and Wang Feng, and I didn't watch it carefully at all.

Although I swore that Li Jie would help her, as soon as I saw Wang Feng, I felt cowardly. I didn't know how to speak, let alone know that I would be so weak after knowing that Wang Feng liked me.

In the cinema, it was pitch black, and I secretly watched him several times.

He was very serious, staring intently at the big screen of the movie theater, and he didn't even glance at me.

And Li Jie, however, bypassed me from time to time and would glance at Wang Feng.

I was a little heartbroken, sitting among them, I could clearly feel Li Jie's liking for Wang Feng, which was difficult to hide. And Wang Feng really didn't respond to her at all.

At the end of the movie, the two of them were discussing the wonderful plot that had just been made. I can't get a word in.

On the one hand, it's that I haven't really watched the movie at all, so I don't know how to participate in the discussion. On the other hand, my hateful, innate sense of indifference makes it easy for me to see some sadness in the midst of the excitement.

Chen Yingjie once published a long criticism of this trait, I don't remember how to say it, but it probably means that I, such a character is easy to be sad and sad, easy to get depression, easy to immerse myself in unhappy emotions and unable to get out. To say that I always see the pessimistic side of things, there will be a lot less fun in life.

Actually, he was right. But this is a character, how can I change it?

Although I am cheerful and optimistic most of the time, I am happy and happy, but the sadness in my heart is like a gossamer, which is constantly cut and cannot be seen. Sometimes, just inadvertently, it pops up.

Chen Yingjie said that I like rainy days and watch the rain tick, which is actually the embodiment of the sadness in my heart.

Just like now, Li Jie and Wang Feng are chatting happily, while I am alone and feeling sorry for Li Jie.

"Xiaoxiao, what are you doing? Why are you stunned again? ”

"Oh, oh, no, I was thinking what we're going to do later?"

Li Jie woke me up from my own world.

"Let's go, we've all said it, you don't know yet." She said, taking my arm by the arm.

Not far away, there is an ancient street, which not only has scenery, but also food.

So, the three of us happily walked around and ate until it was almost dark.

Li Jie jumped happily, feeling that her IQ had dropped by a level. Is this love? Although, there are classmates in junior high school who fall in love, but I don't understand, what is love? I've always felt that it should be like loving my father and mother.

The school has always forbidden early love, but the current students are very precocious, and the girls who chased Chen Yingjie in junior high school are in long queues. Now in high school, I am afraid that this phenomenon will be more in the future.

I sighed, they all say that first love is the most romantic, I wonder if Li Jie and Wang Fengfeng will also have a romantic development? Thinking of this, I couldn't help but laugh again.

When we went home, the three of us broke up at the bus stop, and Li Jie and I went all the way.

"Xiaojie, I want to ask you a question."

"Well, you say."

"Xiaojie, are you and Wang Feng like this, are they considered early love?"

Li Jie didn't think about it, so she replied to me: "Count." ”

"And you're still like this? Aren't you afraid that teachers and parents will know? ”

"Xiaoxiao, you know what? When you don't have anything in your life to sustenance for your feelings, you will naturally look for new ones. What if teachers and parents know? Do I place my feelings on them? As long as my dad doesn't know. I'm not afraid that he will criticize me if he knows about it, but I'm afraid that he will find Wang Feng's business. ”

"Li Jie, what does it feel like to like someone?"

"Hmm...... It's that you'll think of him everywhere, in whatever you do. I want to see him laugh, I want to talk to him about your heart. When you don't see him, you're anxious, you're worried, you're wondering what he's doing. When you eat, you wonder if he has eaten. It's raining and you're worried about whether he's going to get wet. Heck, anyway, you're thinking about him all the time, that's right. ”

"Xiaojie, what you said is the same as what my mother said. Are you sure you like someone, not find a mother? ”

"Cut, what do you know, when you have someone you like, you'll know."

"Me...... I'm afraid not, it should be difficult. ”

"That means your life is quite happy! Xiaoxiao, you know what? What's the one thing I want to do most right now? ”

I shook my head.

"I'm telling you, I want to grow up quickly and find someone to marry now!"

"Ah!!h

"Why are you so surprised? If one day you feel that living in this home is a pain, you will understand. If you want to escape, there is only one way. ”

"You, you feel like this, maybe I won't have it. But, Xiaojie, why is there only one way? ”

Li Jie smiled, "Because, if you want to hide in a place that belongs to you and have someone who can comfort you, then you can only get married." When you get married, you have a house of your own. When you are tired from work, you can go home and rest. When you're lonely, someone to talk to you. And this person is still the person you like. Xiaoxiao, tell me, is there any other way to get the best of both worlds like getting married? ”

"Yes...... However, isn't there unhappiness in getting married? For example, your parents and my parents, aren't they both divorced? ”

"Yes, that's why I don't want to listen to my dad's arrangement, I want to find my own happiness." When she said this, Li Jie's face was full of hope for the future.

What kind of despair would make her have such a deep disgust for her current life. What kind of disgust made her flee so strongly.

I think that the harm that her family has brought to her is probably not only her father's selfishness towards her...... Perhaps, as she said in the morning, no one cares about everything about her.

In my life, although I don't feel the warmth of my stepmother, at least I don't expect much from her in my heart. Because I know that my stepmother and I are not relatives.

And Li Jie obviously lives among her relatives, but as she said, she is just indifferent. That would be a hundred times more painful than my disappointment and sadness.

Her father's patriarchy comes from the inheritance of her grandparents, so her grandparents are only responsible for raising her. There is no real concern for her.

This is probably the source of her disappointment with her family and her desire to build her own family in the future.

"Xiaojie, rest well, don't think too much, I'm going home."

"Well, do you have any arrangements for tomorrow?"

I shook my head.

"Then make an appointment with Wang Feng tomorrow, you go and talk to him."

"Are you going?"

"Of course I can't go, you promised to help me today, right, you can't go back."

"Oh, I won't regret it, but I haven't figured out what to say, or, Xiaojie, you teach me?"

"Go home and think for yourself, bye-bye." After speaking, Li Jie walked to the alley of their house.

I also had to turn around and go home.

Tomorrow, how should I speak to Wang Feng? Is it straightforward? Or is it a roundabout? I should think about it......