Book 4: There is a knot in the heart

My best mate is among women, like a lily among thorns.

Wenzi was the first batch of graduates who were signed by the company at the double election meeting and got the opportunity to intern in a commercial bank. Staying in Lizhou, the provincial capital, to work and live is what he and Liu Mianmian have always dreamed of. At that time, most of the graduates were still in school, busy running for their future during the day, and Wenzi had quickly rented a 50-square-meter one-bedroom apartment with kitchen and bathroom near the unit with the financial support of his parents.

Liu Mianmian is like a happy bird, busy cleaning, installing curtains, cleaning glass, sitting on a small three-wheeler to the logistics company to transport back the newly bought mattress, after two busy days, the small home has a new look. The 10-story window has a different view, with light green floral curtains fluttering along the window, a yellow four-piece duck set on a comfy bed, and a round wooden coffee table in front of a light green fold-out sofa. On the balcony, a set of rattan tables and chairs from the thrift market is placed, which is as bright as new by the willows.

On the night of moving to a new house, Zhang Yuan, Su Rui, Zhao Xiaochan, and Xiao Minqiang flocked to the house with beer, lo-mei, and the small living room was lively for a while. Zhang Yuan laughed and said: "Sister-in-law, is tonight a housewarming or a celebration of the candle night in your cave room, and you have a lot of fun?" ”

When everyone heard this, they coaxed together, Rao is a person like Liu Mianmian, who is used to being arrogant, and he blushed at the moment, and looked at Wenzi for help.

Unexpectedly, Wen Ziqi lowered his eyebrows and smiled, and said in front of everyone's eyes: "It's also a good idea." There was an uproar.

Suddenly, Liu Mianmian was shocked and ashamed, and kicked him angrily.

I have always been overwhelmed by alcohol, and I feel a little dizzy after two glasses of willow in my belly. Zhao Xiaochan on the side, Su Rui and Zhang Yuan played with cards and drew Wang Ba. Zhang Yuan and Zhao Xiaochan, who lost a few handfuls in a row, became angry and began to cheat together.

"Su Rui, you can't draw Wang Ba anymore, I will follow your surname, master!" Zhao Xiaochan rubbed the brain's airway.

Su Rui smiled and said nothing, watching Zhao Xiaochan take away the king.

Zhang Yuan looked at her sympathetically and worriedly: "Su Zhao, do you still have a last word?"

It wasn't until many years later that Zhao Xiaochan knew from Su Rui's mouth that the king card that day was manipulated by him in advance.

Xiao Minqiang, who was drunk, suddenly became sad, lamenting that youth is fleeting, and lamenting that the school girls are really cute and cute.

Zhang Yuan was also affected and cried sadly: "The little master didn't ask about the flowers and the moon for four years, and he didn't understand the love in the world, but he didn't know that the early birds not only had insects to eat, but the nests were all built!" He gestured and looked around, pretending to vomit blood.

"Are you still a little girl who has harmed you? How many love poems to send? Casting nets everywhere resulted in fish escaping and breaking the nets, and they deserved it! Xiao Minqiang patted him on the back of the head.

frolicking until late at night, Zhao Xiaochan looked at her watch and it was already eleven o'clock, dragging Liu Mianmian to go back to the dormitory, and the dormitory manager closed the door at twelve o'clock, she didn't want to sleep on the street. Naturally, their boys are fine, and it's okay to make do with them during the Wenzi period.

Unexpectedly, before they could move, Su Rui and Wen Ziqi discussed it together, one grabbed Zhao Xiaochan's arm, and the other grabbed Liu Mianmian's arm.

Zhang Yuan and Xiao Minqiang looked at each other: "Yes, if you should go, let's go together!" Then he hooked his shoulders and waved his hands and left first.

Su Rui said to Zhao Xiaochan: "I'll ride you back to school." ”

Zhao Xiaochan looked at Liu Mianmian, then at Wenziqi, and then confirmed Su Rui's eyes, and then comprehended at the moment, and said again and again: "Yes, yes, yes, I just want to ask you the trick of smoking Wang Ba, let's go!" ”

After a burst of slamming doors, the commotion in the room abruptly stopped, and there was a sudden awkwardness in the air.

"I'll clean up!" Liu Mianmian hurriedly ran over and carefully cleaned up the mess on the table.

Wen Ziqi went to the bathroom to wash his face and came out, there were still water droplets hanging on his hair, looking at the busy figure, and said gently: "I'll clean it up tomorrow." It's too late, let's rest early. ”

The two of them were a little surprised when they said the words "rest early", and they stood there awkwardly.

"Tomorrow after tomorrow," Liu Mianmian stumbled, blushing and incoherently said: "Tomorrow is so much!" She wrung the rag in both hands and sneered: "Hehe, besides, it's not very sleepy, not in a hurry!" ”

A trace of panic flashed in his eyes, and he quickly came back to his senses, pointing to the folding sofa: "I sleep here, you sleep in the bedroom." ”

After cleaning up and washing, Liu Mianmian lay on the bed alone, covering her face with a quilt, and she didn't know what to be ashamed of.

Xu was drinking, Liu Mianmian comforted herself.

There was a knock on the door.

It's June now, Liu Mianmian is wearing a T-shirt and five-point pants, no pajamas, and lies down in a kimono, so she says, "Please come in!" "Sit up against the head of the bed.

"I'll take a pillow." Wenzi came to the bedside.

The two pillows were stacked up by Liu Mianmian and leaned against him, and Liu Mianmian hurriedly pulled them out from his back.

Wen Ziqi leaned over to help, and a burst of incense came to him, which made him confused for a while.

I couldn't help but lean forward a little more and kissed the girl on the forehead.

The next moment, he came to the body, accompanied by a warm itchy breath, looking at Liu Mianmian with confused eyes, kissing her lips affectionately and slightly domineeringly, and the strength went from shallow to deep.

Tonight's Wenzi period is different from the past, although in the previous days, they also kissed when they were in love, but every time they tasted it, they never ate the forbidden fruit, he loved her and protected her.

But tonight, Liu Mianmian smelled the danger signal of the child, I don't know if it was the effect of alcohol or the different environment, the air was filled with lingering compassion, filled with an inexplicable breath and impulse.

Wen Ziqi reached out and swept away the scattered hair on Liu Mianmian's forehead, and once again covered her soft sigh with his lips.

The early morning sun shines in, a beautiful bed has nowhere to hide, and Wenzi unabashedly admires the lovely child in his arms. Can't help but pinch the tip of her mischievous nose.

"Who is the one who knows each other in the middle of the night? The wings are flying high, and I don't feel that I think about the remaining sorrow. ”

Liu Mianmian, I am the Wenzi period, and I live with you in this life, give birth to children, and be in the same coffin after death.

The years are like this, very good!

At that time, Liu Mianmian was his little wife who had never passed through the door, and she took great pains to help him organize his wardrobe, match his shirt, and cook delicacies. On the day of the salary, he would take her out for a big meal, buy her favorite gifts for her, and let her be coquettish, grab his arm, and beg him to carry it. Wenzi deliberately teased her, until the girl pretended to be angry, he smiled and compromised and carried her, two overlapping shadows strolling through the brightly lit streets, listening to the wind chime-like voice of the person on his back chattering about the troubles and interesting things that happened in the new workplace.

When it was autumn, they ran to the mountains to see the orange, red, orange and green all over the field, and the autumn sunset.

The girl stepped on the rustling leaves, earnestly searched for the wild chestnuts that had fallen from the tree, turned around and showed him the fruits happily and proudly, and laughed like a treasure, like a happy little squirrel.

The valley in autumn is full of colorful zinnias, bright and charming.

Wenzi thought that the days were too beautiful and complete at that time, and there seemed to be no wind and rain in his memory, and he didn't have to shoulder anything, only the breeze and the moon, and the years were quiet. made him forget to be prepared for danger in times of peace, forgot that happiness will give rise to sorrow, and ignored whether Taiji wants to be born or not, and blessings will be born of disasters.

Liu Mianmian has been home for half a month, at first said that her mother was not in good health, went home to visit the sick, Wenzi received a hurried call from her when she went to work, and she didn't have time to ask carefully, she hung up in a hurry, and then the phone said that she had to deal with some things and stay for a few more days, Wenzi said anxiously: "Mianmian, I think I should also visit my uncle and aunt, I want to visit my aunt, how is her health?" ”

"Ziqi, something happened at home, I'll go back to you after dealing with it in the next few days, don't come," Liu Mianmian said hurriedly: "My mother is fine, we are not in Lizhou City now, don't call me for the time being, I will call you!" It was too late for Wenzi to ask another question or two, and there was a beep on the other end of the phone.

Later, he couldn't help but be anxious, he looked for the address on Liu Mianmian's ID card, and when he knocked on the door, no one opened.

Later, Wen Ziqi also found Zhao Xiaochan and their roommates in the same dormitory, trying to ask for some news from them, but he didn't find any useful news. Wenziqi remembered that Liu Mianmian told him that her father had opened a small company, and her mother was not in good health and drank Chinese medicine all year round.

Liu Mianmian asked him not to take the initiative to contact her, what happened?

On a normal Monday, Wen Ziqi was restless when he went to work, his eyelids kept jumping, and the form was filled in several incorrectly in a row, and the supervisor looked at this intern who had been outstanding and competed until the end, patted him on the shoulder and warned him to leave.

After getting off work, Wenzi returned home quickly, but there was still no good news.

Wen Ziqi opened the shoe cabinet, the shoes were only his, and he pushed open the wardrobe in a daze, only a few shirts of his own, and then Wen Ziqi ran to the living room, there was a red brocade box on the empty coffee table, he knelt on the ground, opened the box tremblingly, and the yellow crystal bracelet was covered with a small note, on which was her beautiful words: "Ziqi, I wish you happiness and peace!" ”

Wen Ziqi tried to calm down, his brain thought quickly, and patiently dialed Liu Mianmian's phone for the Nth time.

The call finally came through! Oh, my God!

Liu Mianmian seemed to have cried, and said in a hoarse voice: "Ziqi, I'll wait for you in the pavilion downstairs of the apartment at eight o'clock." ”

Wenzi nodded and said yes, and then the other party hung up, he put down the phone and went into the bathroom to try to wake up his numb and sluggish self.

That night under the pavilion, Wen Ziqi didn't know what the problem was, what was wrong with him, over and over again, introspection and introspection, apology and apology, begging and begging.

Liu Mianmian only said: "Ziji, let's break up!" ”

Two lines of tears. Wen Ziqi didn't have time to ask why, he didn't bother to question her, and a feeling of uneasiness swept through his body, he didn't feel Liu Mianmian's abnormality recently, and a voice in his heart clearly told him: Liu Mianmian was leaving.

Wen Ziqi was extremely flustered, tears and snot flowed down for a while, his knees were sore, he knelt down, hugged Liu Mianmian, buried his face in her arms, like a helpless child: "Mianmian, Liu Mianmian, you can't be like this, don't make trouble when you go home," Wenziqi choked up, extremely embarrassed: "As long as you say, as long as I have it, I will give it all to you!" ”

Liu Mianmian pushed him away, and looked at him with tears, but the words he spit out were like a knife blade: "Wenzi period, just a love, take what you need, I don't love you anymore, there is nothing that you can't let go, you look like this, you are old in your life, where are you worthy of me." The person I want to marry is rich and noble, and you can't reach it! One of his cars is enough for you to earn half a lifetime! ”

Wen Ziqi looked at Liu Mianmian in disbelief, his heart, liver, spleen and lungs seemed to be damaged in an instant, his throat was choked like a thousand pounds of stones, and he couldn't say a word, just stared at Liu Mianmian with wide eyes, the unfamiliar Liu Mianmian.

Liu Mianmian shook him off and left quickly.

For a long time, Wen Ziqi was like being pointed, his body was motionless, he couldn't make a sound for a long, long time, he wanted to chase it, but he couldn't pull it out like he was stuck in a huge quagmire, he wanted to cry, but he suddenly forgot what crying was, and he couldn't even make an expression.

It lasted for a long time, and finally fell to the ground with a "coax".

was cut off from all contact, and when I heard the news of Liu Mianmian's marriage in the winter, there was no wedding, and the classmates went to their own places after graduation, and they didn't know much, and slowly Liu Mianmian seemed to disappear and faded out of this youth feast.

Later, Wenzi was very cowardly, and never went to Liu Mianmian, because he learned from the chats among his classmates that Liu Mianmian's father was in the financial business with tens of millions of assets, and the person Liu Mianmian married was also the young master of the famous Hairong Group in Lizhou - Wu Zhengze.

He is a small bank intern, with a monthly income of two thousand four, and he even promised Liu Mianmian everything? ! The funny thing has always been his literary period. He is also the one who is whimsical.

After the handover was completed, he resigned, retired from the house, only packed a box of clothes and necessities, and returned to his parents' house in Changtan City. Until one day, he was woken up by Wen Zimo, who came back from work, with two slaps.

His sister has always hurt him and let him, but at that time, her eyes widened angrily and said: "You look like a woman and walk around, your parents don't say anything about you, you are stupid and tall at one meter eight, and you are embarrassed to gnaw on the pension of the old couple?" ”

So I repaired, packed my bags, and found a job near my home. The treatment environment is good, that is, frequent business trips, Wenzi period is happy to be in it, this work is five years, from a small staff to an important department manager, with a down payment of a set of two bedrooms and two living rooms under the financial support of his parents, he mortgaged a Toyota SUV, and worked hard in the direction of his parents' peace of mind, living, or rather, living.

Wenzi's family is ordinary, his parents are a working class who have worked hard all his life, living in three bedrooms and two living rooms in the old area, raising flowers and playing chess and playing Tai Chi after retirement, the family is safe, happy and content, a pair of children have excellent grades, life is stable, and work is smooth. At that time, Wenzi had delusional thoughts that Liu Mianmian would definitely like to join the family, would definitely like the dishes made by his mother, raise flowers with his father, go shopping with his sister, and go out to walk the dog with him after dinner.

He was thinking all the time, he forgot and ignored Liu Mianmian's environment and thoughts, he didn't know Liu Mianmian at all, immersed in a smooth and comfortable environment, like a frog boiled in warm water, waiting to be realized, it was too late.

Two years ago, at a company's product launch conference, Wen Ziqi received Mr. Sang and Chen Qing as the organizer. After the event, the friendship of the landlord accompanied them to play in Changtan City, a few days down, Sang has let go of the amount of alcohol, patted the belly, pulled the throat and shouted Wenzi brothers, Changtan's unique plum wine, taste soft, spicy in the throat, but the stamina is full.

Wen Ziqi and Chen Qing supported the huge Mr. Sang, all the way from the hotel to the hotel, and in the elevator, Mr. Sang unceremoniously turned over the river and vomited, saying that the border people drank more than the mainlanders, so it seems that the rumors are not true.

After settling down, Mr. Sang came out with Chen Qing and pulled the door, Wen Ziqi wanted to leave after greeting a few words, but Chen Qing looked at him and said, "Go to my room and sit down, make you a pot of tea to relieve hangover?" ”

I thought that I couldn't drive back anyway, I would take a taxi in a while, and tonight's hot pot with plum wine, he did have a dry mouth, and it didn't hurt to sit for a while. He nodded.

The exotic woman in front of her, intellectual and elegant, can not see a trace of flaws in her gestures, and the appearance of twisting tea leaves is like training, a black slim professional suit, a white shirt, a pair of silver high heels under a short skirt, five centimeters is just right.

The special jasmine hair peak, the soup color is clear, and the emerald green is slightly yellow through the glass, and the tea fragrance is fresh and fresh, which is refreshing. I swallowed a few more mouthfuls.

got up to say goodbye, but the woman remained silent and looked at him with a smile.

These days are not without feelings, adult men and women like, don't have to waste too much time, don't have to be entangled in the details, after work, men and women are not married, although they can't talk about love, but they also look at each other and don't hate, willing to appreciate each other, when the text period is understood.

He doesn't have to keep the festival for Liu Mianmian, and his parents at home are not without urging, the various blind dates and dinners arranged by Wen Zimo really give him a headache, and even the little nephew learned from his grandmother to teach him a lesson, and yelled at him to find his little aunt. If you try to be with Chen Qing this time, it may also be a good idea.

Chen Qing looks and has a first-class figure, works vigorously and resolutely, and never drags mud and water in life, Wenzi never has to bother to please her, there is no cumbersome dating and I am nong, the two have one thing in common, that is, work is always the first. Mr. Sang intended to succeed and handed over all the mainland business to Chen Qing, so they were able to spend time together, and lived in a two-bedroom and two-hall house in Changtan City during the Wenzi period in their spare time.

Chen Qing is not good at cooking and doesn't like housework, so there are almost no fireworks in the kitchen, and the cleaning is taken care of by the hourly worker. There was a non-work dialog box in WeChat, and the atmosphere was also a lot more lively when he went back to eat with his parents on the weekend, everyone was happy, so why didn't he do it?

Chen Qing is two years younger than him, and his parents are inevitably urging him to get married, sometimes when he sees his little nephew, he thinks that he should have a daughter, maybe it's time to put a marriage contract on the agenda, the life that most people choose should be the best life, isn't Liu Mianmian like this?

It's just that in the dead of night, I suddenly opened my eyes, my heart was empty, I got up and lit a cigarette and stood under the windowsill, remembering the sentence "The phoenix soars, and the four seas seek the phoenix".

It's been many years, but deep down in my heart, I no longer have the urge to "think like crazy and talk about my heart".

Maybe he's already old.