At the door of the hotel, Kiki gave her a merchandise bag. It is a new skin care set sent by the person in charge, and it has not yet been listed. Looking at this bag, she realized that everything was true today. She thought it was just a dream......

Kiki wants to take her upstairs, but she refuses. Returning to the room alone, Yu Jinsheng sat cross-legged on the bed, hugging the pillow tightly.

After a while, she looked up with empty eyes, took her mobile phone and sent a new Weibo.

"Did you know that the Taoists say, 'One life is two, two is three, three is everything.' ”

posted such a nonsensical Weibo without warning, and fans couldn't figure out what it meant.

They thought, maybe it was just Jiusi who suddenly thought of this sentence?

Yu Jinsheng didn't say anything again, but silently clicked on the private message and kept pulling it. finally pulled her head, and she looked at the private message she sent to Bai Ranchen for the first time:

"Wait for me, oh, we're only eight years apart, and I'll soon be qualified to stand by your side. I know you can't see it, so my Mr. Bai, I like you, don't look for a partner, wait for me! ”

Poof, Yu Jinsheng couldn't understand why she was so stupid at that time? I know I can't see it, I still have to say it, I don't understand what I thought at the time.

took screenshots of all the private messages, and she also relived the journey of liking him. In the past few years, there have been so many joys and sorrows in her. If she doesn't flip through it, she'll almost forget it.

Three years ago, on February 8th, I sent you a private message for the first time, and it was then that I had the idea of spending the rest of my life with you. But before that, I actually liked you for a long time.

You don't know any of this, do you?

When she finished reading them all, it was dark outside the window. She didn't turn on the lights, and the only light source in the house was her mobile phone, but there was not much power left after a day's use.

When she placed an order on Taobao, she wanted to print out all these private messages. Photos are paid in hundreds, and there is one less for the last upload.

has been clearly rejected, do you still want to run to talk to yourself? After thinking about it for a while, she registered a new Weibo account. I didn't pay attention to it and opened a private message directly: "But why, I just can't give birth to you and love me?" ”

Three lives and all things, only forget me.

Just when she finished paying and looked at her phone in a daze, the battery ran out and automatically turned off. She didn't want to charge, so she put down her phone and curled up at the head of the bed again. She slept too much in the afternoon, she didn't feel sleepy, and she was very awake. But she felt that it was better to be awake than to fall asleep, and as soon as she woke up, her mind kept replaying the memories she had hidden for many years.

That was the first time she liked a guy. When the military training first started, he sat diagonally behind her. She didn't like him very much, it was too noisy, not quiet at all. A week later, the military training ended, and it was unfortunate that he was still diagonally behind her when the seats were divided, but she didn't look back and pay attention there.

One night after self-study, several girls gathered around rock-paper-scissors, and they had to take a big risk if they lost. After a few rounds, she won completely, and was smug that he came. Because she didn't like him as a person, she wanted to leave, but was pulled back to continue playing. I don't know why, she lost as soon as he came. Before she could react, the content of the adventure had already been decided, and she was pushed into the corner behind her by several people, both of whom were held down and looked at each other for ten seconds before being let go.

Ten seconds is a short time, but something changes. For example, she knew his name; Another example is that they suddenly crossed paths.

It was supposed to be just a small episode, but fate didn't seem willing to let her go like that.

When she turned to ask the boys in the back row about their chemistry questions, he grimaced at her across the aisle and jokingly told her to be quiet. Maybe that's when she fell in love with that sunny smile. Until now, she can't remember his appearance, but she can't forget that smile.

Later, it may be that she loves too much, and before she can say it, she will be known to the whole world. He was overwhelmed by this heavy love, and finally chose someone else, only saying sorry.

At that time, she was a junior in high school and couldn't get out. During the day, he smiled and played with his friends, pretending not to care. Insomnia for a long time after the lights out at night, crying night after night.

It was also at that time that I came home on the weekend and opened a variety show that I hadn't watched for a long time. In there, Bai Ranchen was a good puzzle-solver, obviously with intelligence, but he was always a sand sculpture, which made her laugh again and again. She liked his appearance at first, then liked his interior, and then liked him as a person.

In February, she strengthened her faith. began to study seriously, just to see him one day and say to him: Bai Ranchen, I like you.

She always knew that her liking for Bai Ranchen was not ordinary, so she worked hard. Because she liked him, she gradually came out, but she didn't dare to recall.

She thought it was because she liked it but didn't say it, so she missed it last time. It was because she loved him too much that she scared him away.

But why, she changed, but the result didn't?

After thinking about it for so long, she figured it out, because they didn't love her.

It's like that sentence: all men in the world are the same.

They were all the same, the same didn't love her.

But she thought, it shouldn't be said that the men in the world are the same, and the men in the world who don't love you are the same.

Because you are imperfect in everything you are because I don't love you. You have a personality, and he thinks you don't love him enough; You are accommodating to everything, and he thinks you love too much and are not independent enough.

In short, the origin of all suffering is unlove.

She let go of the past but couldn't let go of the present, even though Bai Ranchen rejected her, she still couldn't stop liking him.

Tiredly pulling up the quilt to cover herself, Yu Jinsheng wanted to stay quietly until dawn.

When the day comes, the good will come, right?

On the way back, Director Zhao called and said that the actor who arranged to shoot the night scene tonight twisted his foot, and if Bai Ranchen came and came back, he would arrange his role first. He was also distraught and was just looking for something to do for himself. After the end, Director Zhao stopped him to inquire about the situation, and knowing the whole story, he only sighed silently, patted him on the shoulder and asked him to go back and rest early.

Lying on the bed, Bai Ranchen propped his hands under his head, thinking of Yu Jinsheng sleeping in the car. On the way to the Bund, she slept in a relaxed position, but when she returned, she was curled up in the back seat.

He remembered that she couldn't stop crying and smiled and said, "It's not early, let's go back." ”

"My dream is very accurate, and I don't have the strength to run away when the fans really come."

Reaching out and rubbing his hair irritably, he got out of bed and lay on the ground to do push-ups, leg raises, and sit-ups......

He tried to calm himself down through exercise, but was unsuccessful. Sitting on the floor, he rested his head on the bed and stared at the white ceiling. He couldn't figure out why he was so upset and irritable. Why, when you decide to say something, it is not easy but heavier after saying it?

Unable to figure it out, he decided to ask. I stared at the ceiling for too long, and when I looked around, my eyes shook.

He asked Su Moyang: "Brother, how did you know that you liked your sister-in-law?" ”

Su Moyang quickly replied: "When I found out that I would unconsciously think of your sister-in-law and giggle by myself." ”

Giggle? That he didn't.

Therefore, at most, he has a good impression, not a liking.

Habitually opening the chat page with Yu Jinsheng, he was stunned.

yes, she won't send messages to harass him in the future. The last conversation was this morning, and he asked her if she was cleaned up, and she replied with a meme, and it was he who made an OK gesture.

In the past, every ten o'clock in the evening, Yu Jinsheng would send a message and say good night. Once he slept early and didn't reply to the message, and the next morning she angrily said that she must reply to her message, otherwise, how would she chase him.

In order to prevent being nagged the next day, he would wait until after ten o'clock before going to bed. For more than a month, it has become a habit. Let him go to bed early, he can't sleep either.

remembered that she would leave a private message on Weibo, and Bai Ranchen found her Weibo by a ghost, he wanted to see if she had anything to say. I never thought to go over to see what she posted every day, but today I unexpectedly wanted to know.

Some of the records were cleared, and he only saw the private messages of the past half a month. And the record is also stuck in yesterday.

“5861

I'm looking forward to tomorrow, are you going to confess to me?

5859

Jiang Lin took me to eat hot pot today, when will we go together?

……”

Flipping two more up, he noticed that on the day he went to the Lingyin Scenic Area:

“5849

Today I may never forget."

He thought that if he suddenly asked her one day how many fans Bai Ranchen had, she would definitely be able to report it without thinking about it.

Involuntarily opening her homepage, he carefully read her nickname. The four characters of liquor fans have his surname and the homonym of Jiusi.

After reading the Weibo she posted three hours ago, Bai Ranchen was puzzled. Does that Taoist phrase have any special meaning?

The mood became irritable again, and he simply picked up and looked at the fans' private messages. After a few quick flips, his fingers stopped, he casually clicked on an ID to read it, and exited and chose another one. Suddenly, a new account with no avatar and no nickname catches his eye.

Seeing the content, he was stunned for a moment, and he clicked on his personal homepage. There are only 15 followers by default when you register, and you didn't follow him but sent him a private message?

Yu Jinsheng?

"Did you know that the Taoists say, 'One life is two, two is three, three is everything.' ”

"But why, just can't you love me?"

These two sentences alternated in his mind, and the cycle repeated. He seemed to see her fragility and felt her confusion and helplessness.

His heart felt a little numb, and he suddenly felt very guilty. If he hadn't said those words, Yu Jinsheng wouldn't be so sad today. But he felt that if he didn't say it, he was not responsible for her.

She shouldn't have kept having illusions about this fruitless relationship, it's not fair to her......

People who are anxious about the unknown tomorrow pray that all their worries and sorrows will disappear after waking up from the dream.

After a night of precipitation, Yu Jinsheng's mood has recovered a lot. There is no hurdle that cannot be overcome, she survived the last time it was so difficult, what else will she be afraid of? It's just that she didn't think about how to face Bai Ranchen.

Yesterday at noon, she felt the pain of hunger again. The mobile phone was also turned off, and she called it every day, and the earth was not working.

Well, she's starting to regret her laziness last night. Unzipped the inside of the bag, fortunately her old mother had the foresight to let her carry some change with her, otherwise she would have starved to death today.

Looking at the hotel landline, it was not yet six o'clock. Because the breakfast in the hotel starts at about half past seven, and they have already started filming at that time, they will not choose breakfast when arranging the hotel.

Dressed in a tracksuit, she put on her hat to cover her sleeping hair...... Last night, she was in the mood of being sad all night, but she couldn't resist the sleepiness that hit her in the middle of the night. She didn't know when she fell asleep, anyway, when she got up in the morning, she slept comfortably with a pillow and a quilt, which was exactly the same as before bed.

Turn left after leaving the hotel, and walk straight for 500 meters There is a breakfast shop. She bought an egg scone with a box of plain yogurt and brought it back. This combination was discovered when she was in junior high school, and she really missed it after not eating it for a long time, but she didn't know how this scones tasted.

The mood to eat is instantly good, and the lovelorn or something has long been left behind. When she arrived at the door, she hurried inside. If it weren't for the image, she would have started eating on the road.

With a "ding" sound, the elevator arrived, and she trotted two steps to catch the elevator. It's just that the man who came out was startled, she gasped, and reacted very quickly and rushed to the bar. Squatting against the wall, leaving only one back.

The young lady at the front desk looked at Yu Jinsheng suspiciously, wanting to ask her what service she needed, but she put her index finger on her lips. When the voice behind her was far away, she got up in fear.

"I'm sorry, I'm having an awkward relationship with my friends."

The young lady understood: "Ah, it's okay, it's okay." ”

Glancing behind him, Yu Jinsheng asked in a low voice, "He didn't see me just now, right?" ”

"Who are you talking about? The one wearing the hat should have seen you, but the other didn't. ”

Yu Jinsheng froze and said thank you with a wry smile.

Bai Ranchen thought while buckling his seat belt, is it Yu Jinsheng who is squatting? He didn't have glasses and couldn't see very clearly. But soon he vetoed this idea, how could Yu Jinsheng get up so early?