Chapter 18 Putting incense on the grave with a heart
When Yuanzi vaguely wanted to open her eyes again, she found that she couldn't open them, and it was not right, it was the same as not opening them. So much so that she thought that it was actually that she hadn't opened her eyes yet, and that endless darkness enveloped her, making her not know where she was.
She only felt that she was in a very small place, this place was like a cage, there were things blocking it on all sides, and she was lying in this cage, and it was difficult to even move her body, and it was difficult to even breathe.
Yuanzi was a little scared, she had never felt such darkness before. Although the previous darkness was also dark, it was not this kind of blackness, at least there was a little bit of light, such as moonlight, starlight, and the presence of candlelight would make the surrounding objects also glow with a faint light.
I've never seen anything like this time, the black is so pure, the black can't see anything, and I can't see myself.
Yuanzi was so scared that she was going to open her mouth to call for help, if anyone could hear her. She felt relieved that even if anyone responded to her cry at this time. But when she was about to make the first sound, "come," she realized that something was wrong.
She found that her voice couldn't make this sound completely, let alone the three words "come and go", at this time, it seemed that every word was as heavy as a thousand pounds, and the simplest words were so difficult now.
Her throat felt like it had been torn apart by something, and she couldn't make a sound.
She tried to moisten her throat with her own saliva so that she could speak, but she found that her saliva was so poor that she didn't even know if it worked.
She didn't know if anyone would hear her voice even if she finally moistened her throat, and she didn't know when she would be after she moistened her throat.
So, she felt so disappointed and scared, could it be that the place she was in was the underworld. But if it is better to come to the underworld, it is better to come to someone, to tell yourself that you are already a dead person, to let yourself complain, what does it mean to leave yourself here alone.
Yuanzi wanted to cry in a hurry, but she found that she was sad in vain, but she couldn't shed tears. She couldn't see if she had shed tears, so she didn't know if she had shed tears, she just felt that her eyes were very dry, so she thought that she should not shed tears.
All the 'weapons' of a woman seem to be useless at this moment, as if God no longer favors women at this moment, and there is no mercy for crying and crying.
No, no, women have one more 'weapon', and that is the woman's body.
Thinking of this, Yuanzi seemed to have hope, she tried to raise her hand, although she didn't feel like her own hand anymore, she didn't listen to the call, but she still lifted her hand with difficulty.
But when she reached a certain height, it seemed that something was in her way, so she began to want to push it away.
I don't know if it's because Yuanzi doesn't have enough strength or because the thing is too heavy, but she can't push it.
Yuanzi couldn't see her own hands, and she couldn't feel the height of her hands accurately, but the touch gave Yuanzi a sense of hope, and she was paranoid that if she got rid of what was in front of her, she could be free.
Even if it's just the freedom to talk to the dead in the underworld, that's not bad.
As long as she doesn't leave herself, as long as she doesn't leave herself alone, she really doesn't like a person.
The sound of "snort" slowly sounded, and the sound of nails rubbing against that thing made Yuanzi feel a trace of comfort, and finally, it was no longer a dead silence.
Yuanzi grinned, but this smile, except for the gods, no one knows whether it is good-looking or not.
It should be good-looking, after all, everyone says that Yuanzi is very good-looking, and Yuanzi also thinks that others didn't lie to her.
Ah Gui didn't know when, so he took out his cigarette gun again and smoked it in the yard. When he is free, he always thinks about Yuanzi, and it has been ten days since Yuanzi left, I don't know where she has gone now, whether she is hungry, whether she will be frozen, whether anyone has bullied her.
Ah Gui was glad that he told Yuanzi the truth at the last moment and let Yuanzi escape, although Yuanzi's escape did embarrass him and his family for a long time that day.
But these will always pass, as long as people are still there, there is hope, and the happiness of Yuanzi cannot be used as the object of compromise.
Although his wife is still complaining about her sudden move, saying that if she doesn't tell her, she won't tell her at all, and she won't tell Yuanzi what happened until the wedding day. But Ah Gui didn't care too much, he really felt that he couldn't let Yuanzi enter the fire pit in a daze, at least, she had the right to know the truth, although the truth was cruel.
Well, Ah Gui admits that he has some contradictions, whether this contradiction is a contradiction between the good of one or a few people, the contradiction between the importance of one person or the importance of a large number of people. Ah Gui finally chose someone, which should not be a choice for the pillar of the family, but he did it at the last minute, and he did it without regrets.
No matter how much the sacrifice is, it is a sacrifice, especially if this sacrifice also has some utilitarian nature, it will make the sacrifice look more tragic, Yuanzi should not make such a sacrifice, Yuanzi did nothing wrong.
Yuanzi has the right to choose her own happiness, but Ah Gui only figured out this at the last moment, fortunately, it's not too late. Ah Gui was a little proud, he finally did something for Yuanzi that a father should do.
Suddenly, Gui caught a glimpse of someone coming, so he stopped thinking nonsense. He looked at Aunt Zhang, who came to his courtyard, and remembered Aunt Zhang's reaction that day after she knew that she had let Yuanzi escape.
That day, instead of blaming him for his recklessness in doing so, Aunt Zhang comforted herself very softly, and did not say whether what she did was right or wrong, but that look made Ah Gui a little embarrassed. It's like a child's relieved look when the teacher sees the arithmetic problem correctly, yes, it seems to be relieved, this is the only look that is different from others that day.
That look made him very uncomfortable, he hadn't seen anyone look at him like that for a long time, and Ah Gui remembered that look.
It's just that Ah Gui looked at Aunt Zhang this time, which was different from the last time he saw Aunt Zhang, this time Aunt Zhang seemed to be a little angry, and he felt that the reason why Aunt Zhang was angry was because of him, which made his scalp tingle for a while. He didn't do anything to be sorry for Aunt Zhang, why did he look at himself like this.
However, the sadness on Aunt Zhang's body was the reason why Ah Gui was surprised, he looked at Aunt Zhang and said, "Aunt Zhang, why are you here?" ”
Widow Zhang ignored Ah Gui, went into the house by herself, looked at Ah Gui's wife who was about to pour water for herself, and said, "Don't be busy, I'll leave after I say a few words."
Ah Gui's wife was also surprised, what happened to Aunt Zhang today, but she still stopped her movements silently, sat opposite Aunt Zhang, and waited for Aunt Zhang's next sentence.
Ah Gui was also standing at the door, he had no intention of smoking for a long time, Aunt Zhang must have something to do with this time, and it was very likely that it was not a good thing, he smoked a fart.
"Have you heard of it, saying that Zhangfu recently held a funeral, it seems to be for a couple, and it means that the couple suddenly died shortly after they got married."
"Husband and wife? Just married? ”
Ah Gui's wife said nervously, she still didn't understand what Aunt Zhang meant.
But Ah Gui seemed to understand something, the cigarette stick in his hand fell to the ground with a bang, and his hand trembled, he couldn't believe that what he heard was true.
Ah Gui's wife looked at Ah Gui, and she also had some hindsight, she asked Widow Zhang in disbelief: "How is it possible, isn't this true, didn't Ah Gui already let Yuanzi go that day?" Moreover, how could they both die all of a sudden? Even if, even if it's really a Yuanzi, shouldn't it be a coincidence? She was fine when she left."
Widow Zhang said indifferently: "I have inquired, the couple has indeed just gotten married, and the mother's family is from your village. Think about it, have there been other families in your village who have married their daughters recently? And he married into Zhang's mansion. As for why they both died, Zhangfu's mouth was sealed very strictly, I guess it should be Yuanzi who refused to give in to Zhangfu's fool, so he did stupid things, and as a result, he was also."
Speaking of which, Widow Zhang couldn't go on, she only felt that something was stuck in her throat, she only felt that none of this was true, Yuanzi, such a good girl, why did she do such a stupid thing, why did it disappear like this.
This child's life is bitter, but he has to live well, why is he so impulsive, why, so stupid.
Thinking of this, Aunt Zhang unconsciously became sad, she hated herself, hated Ah Gui, and hated that Yuanzi was not born in a good family.
So, she didn't want to stay here, she got up and was about to leave. She felt that the people here were so ruthless, including herself, it was them who hurt Yuanzi.
Ah Gui stopped Widow Zhang, his trembling hands, his excited tone showed the waves in his heart, he asked: "It's not true, you tell me it's not true, she didn't marry into the Zhang family, she didn't die, I let her go, I let her go far away."
Widow Zhang didn't fight with Ah Gui for this, she just said lightly, and if she had the opportunity to go to Yuanzi's grave to put incense on the pillar, she pushed away Ah Gui's hand and left alone.
Ah Gui and his wife were hit by this huge bad news for a long time, and Widow Zhang was not comfortable, as soon as she walked out of the door of Ah Gui's house, tears could not be controlled.
She didn't come to ask for guilt this time, she just wanted Ah Gui and them to know the truth. If asking for sins can bring Yuanzi back to life, she doesn't mind asking for sins every day, but all she can do now is atone, and a few more people go to the grave to burn paper money, so it should be atonement.
After Widow Zhang left, Ah Gui looked at his wife, Ah Gui's eyes were red, and he asked his wife, "This is not true, right?"
Bao'er just came back from playing outside, and as soon as she entered the door, she saw his father's eyes red, as if he was going to eat people.
So Boa hesitated for half a beat when she entered the door, but he still stepped in. If Daddy wants to eat himself, he can't seem to run. My sister dressed up beautifully and left, leaving herself white and tender, I hope that when my father speaks a little softer, I am terrible and hurt.
"Daddy, I'm back"
Bao'er's crisp voice sounded, and the two of them regained a trace of life.
Yes, and Bao'er.
Hey, there's only Bao'er left.
One word, two voices.