Chapter 490, Love to the point of losing oneself
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When she finished speaking, her back was sweating, and her body was a little prostration.
She lowered her head in annoyance, tears rolling in her eyes.
It's false to say that she is not wronged, but she can't blame others.
Who can blame you for drinking and doing something wrong?
It's just that...... She never thought that it was not Gu Hanzhou who asked for her first time, but someone else.
What disgusted her the most was that she had done something bad in their bedroom.
She wanted to die, and suddenly felt very bad and bad.
At this moment, the bathroom door opened, and a familiar voice came to her ears: "I want you to be drunk and sexual, but in the end, I am the only one left." ”
Xu Yinuan was very surprised when she heard this voice.
It's on the phone, and it's around me.
She quickly looked up and saw the man coming out of the bathroom.
This...... Isn't this Gu Hanzhou?
"How are you?"
She pointed at him in shock, wasn't he disabled in both legs? How could he stand in front of himself intact.
Gu Hanzhou hung up the phone and came to her with his wet hair.
Xu Yinuan pinched himself and grinned in pain.
Not a dream...... It's true.
Gu Hanzhou is really back, and it's good!
She was a little dazed, but Gu Hanzhou seemed much calmer, her big hand touched the place she had pinched just now, and gently rubbed it: "Just pinch me, pinch yourself to do something." ”
"That'...... So last night we ...... What did we do? ”
She pointed to the blood stains on the bed, could it be that she drank too much last night, and Gu Hanzhou Wushan Yunyu, and couldn't remember it after waking up?
"Lonely men and widows, living in the same room, and being honest with each other, what do you think we should do?"
He asked funny.
When Xu Yinuan heard this, he only felt that his brain was buzzing, as if there had been a muffled lightning strike.
She lowered her eyes, as if she was thinking about something, and she was extremely serious.
Gu Hanzhou was slightly distressed when he saw her like this, this girl's brain capacity is so small, don't think about these messy things, think about your brain badly.
He was about to open his mouth to explain everything last night, but he didn't expect this girl to raise her eyes and look at him for a moment. "Gu Hanzhou, everyone is an adult, in fact, these ...... Don't take it too seriously. I don't know where you've disappeared for most of the month, although I've told myself again and again that you have something to do, and you have extenuating circumstances. But I thought about it, if I disappeared for so long, you wouldn't be happy
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"You told me in advance, but ...... But I'm still careful, I can't get past that level in my heart. During this time, I became a key protection object, and everyone spoke to me carefully. Huanhuan, Yannuo, Gu Wei...... When they saw me, they rarely mentioned you, for fear that I would be upset. "I don't understand why they are like this, you will definitely come back, why are they worried about me so much. In fact...... They are also afraid, afraid that you will never return, afraid that you don't want me, afraid that you and Lucia will rekindle their old relationship. It turns out that I'm not alone in worrying. They take care of my affection
I'm afraid I won't be able to open it and bear the blow. "Gu Hanzhou, even if I have a relationship with you, let me think about it...... It's really tiring to be around you. Someone told me about this before, your life is so difficult to get into, why do I still work so hard to go to your world and you suffer. Because I love you so much, and you love me. That's good
It's like you can't support me for a lifetime, and because your world is full of dangers, I want to know your whereabouts from time to time. What I'm most afraid of is...... I don't even know when you're out there when you die. ”
"You understand the feeling? If I leave you, whether you die or not, whether you live well or not, has nothing to do with me. When I think about this, I feel so relaxed. Gu Hanzhou, what do you say...... Ridiculous or not? ”
By the end of her speech, her eyes moistened and her eyelashes wet.
She looked up at him, her eyes were hazy with tears, but his outline was exceptionally clear and lingering.
This man ...... She loves very hard, makes herself very strong, but learns all kinds of things, just to enter his world.
But in the end, she found that it was not so simple, and his world was more complicated than she imagined.
He is full of danger and has too many unstable factors around him.
She feared for his safety.
Even if he told him in advance before he disappeared, she was still genuinely afraid.
She was really afraid that something would happen to Gu Hanzhou, but she was the last one to know.
Moreover, she didn't expect him to be missing for more than half a month, longer than last time.
He couldn't contact himself for more than half a month, isn't he worried?
She didn't want to go through it once or twice a year in the future, and it would be too difficult to endure such a worrying day.
"Xu Yinuan...... Are you telling me to give up now? "Yes...... I don't trust you, and I don't trust myself. If something happens to you, I can't protect you, on the contrary, I will drag you down. I have to admit that I am your baggage. Along the way, too many people have said this in my ear, but I don't believe it, because I feel like I can do more
Well, you can protect yourself without you having to worry about it. "Yes...... But the last time the fire made me realize that I was still useless waste. I can't even settle the bill, so I can only make something to eat. I really don't fit for you...... Sometimes I compare myself to Lucia and see that there is no comparison. You still have some old feelings for her, and the old feelings should be rekindled
It's supposed to be simple. She's helpful to your career again, much better than me, the shit. ”
As soon as her words fell, the man's wrist was strangled by the man.
He was very powerful, and she frowned slightly in pain, but she stubbornly did not cry out in pain, but looked at him stubbornly, without fear.
His phoenix eyes were deep and black, as if they had overturned thick ink, turning over the river and the sea.
She was scared, but she didn't show it on the surface.
"Xu Yinuan, you can give up, but you can't push me into the arms of other women!"
"Who do you choose...... Actually, it has nothing to do with me, I do want to give up. If it were possible, I would really like to become fat and become a strong woman in one bite. I also have power, I have eyeliner, and I can know your every move. ”
She yelled out a little uncontrollably, the first time she had broken down like this.
Gu Hanzhou monitored him before, she could understand, although she didn't like it, but as soon as he showed softness, she immediately compromised.
He was worried about himself, so he wanted to see himself all the time and know her whereabouts.
She could accept it and wanted to reassure him.
Heart-to-heart, he left, and she was also worried.
She is in the imperial capital, in the same city as him, and working in his group, he has to watch the surveillance.
And what about her?
Doesn't she need a sense of security?
He was far away in a foreign country, physically inconvenient, and disappeared for so long.
She couldn't sleep every night, tossing and turning, and was in a state of confusion all day.
The next day, I had to cheer up and go to work, not daring to let Bai Huanhuan see his abnormality. "Gu Hanzhou, I always thought that what I was most afraid of was ghosts, but now I think what I am most afraid of is ...... Being emotionally swayed by others, it doesn't seem like your real self. I thought I wouldn't lose myself, but ...... I'm still lost. I want to know what Xu Yinuan is like when he left Gu Hanzhou
sub. I want to go back a year ago...... I don't want to become your appendage and see you as my Zhou Xin, so ...... I'm going to give up on you. "It's not terrible to love someone, but I'm most afraid of loving to the end and losing myself......