Fourth, solve the worries

On the last day of the semester, Xiao Lai and her classmates shuttled through the bustling street, and she wanted to "say goodbye" to her boss. As a result, I met an "old acquaintance" in the middle of the road, an old man who was over seventy years old, and he often frequented Xiaolai's stall, and everyone got to know each other. Xiaolai and the old man are very fateful, can talk together, both of them like Chinese medicine, the old man also told her the reason for the death of his wife, in order to find a "home remedy" to cure his lover's disease, for this reason, the old man raised a lot of aloe vera. Before leaving, Xiao Lai also unexpectedly received a pot of aloe vera from the old man, hoping that Xiao Lai would no longer have pimples. Xiao Lai thanked the old man very much for this and wished the old man a happy New Year in advance.

The next day, Xiao Lai and his fellow villagers took their luggage and went to catch the train.

Arriving in Beijing at eight o'clock in the evening, Xiaolai talked and laughed with his fellow villagers along the way, but he was inexplicably sad in his heart, maybe he was too tired recently. A group of boys and girls dressed as students next door, playing cards along the way, Xiao Lai heard what the boy was saying, but the voice was very much like that person, Xiao Lai suddenly became a little excited, but there was no way to confirm it, so she stood up quietly and looked back, but the boy also stood up, Xiao Lai was a little short-sighted, and he didn't see the other party look too clearly when he saw the train entering the station.

There was no rest along the way, but it was too cold to go out, so Xiao Lai and a few fellow villagers ate something first. After a short rest, they began to take the car to Tiananmen Square to line up for the national flag to be raised.

Winters in Beijing are exceptionally cold. On winter nights, the cold wind can stop a person from taking a step. Xiao Lai's stomach began to swell and ache, because she had been suffering from cold and cold for several days, and she had not eaten a few mouthfuls of hot soup and rice, and her stomach was sick again.

They found an underground passage to take a temporary rest, and it was still early before the time to raise the national flag, and Xiao Lai squatted on the ground with his stomach covered.

This scene, even after many years, still makes her palpitations. The wind in the passage was blowing, Xiao Lai was in unbearable pain for a while, the fellow rummaged through her bag, took out life-saving medicine, and handed her a bottle of mineral water.

Before the time to raise the national flag, the square was already full of long queues, and the sky was bright and mixed with small snowballs. But they were all covered by the enthusiasm of the people watching, and no one was willing to back down, and Xiao Lai and the fellow also stood in the middle of the line, waiting for that sacred moment to come.

Finally, around the brightly lit Tiananmen Square, a team of flag guards with neat steps finally came out. They quickly stood in formation around the flagpole, and when the time came, the flag keeper waved his hand, and the national flag slowly rose along with the national anthem. Xiao Lai sang the national anthem silently in his heart, his eyes followed the red flag, all the way up, until the singing stopped, Xiao Lai was still immersed in it, unable to extricate himself.

At this moment, she is unforgettable, at this moment, her heart is desolate, how much she hopes that person will be by her side and experience this ** moment together.

However, everything is just illusory. She also went south with the large army and got on the train to her hometown. Along the way, she couldn't stand anymore, so she sat down in the aisle and fell asleep. However, the noon fast food truck woke her up, and she had no choice but to lie on a seat and continue to sleep, and the passenger sitting next to her patted her and gave her a seat, and she said "thank you" and fell asleep.

I was so sleepy that I was almost at the station when I was woken up.

When he finally got home in the afternoon, Xiao Lai went back to the house to sleep.

Not long after I came back, I was forced by my mother to go on a blind date, and there was no one left. Because of a "talkative" aunt, coupled with parents who have never seen the world, a "mouthy" aunt, a few sensational words made the unreasonable mother "take the bait".

"Sister, I have a friend who runs a furniture store and wants to find a good girl." As soon as the mother heard that the man's family was selling furniture, she immediately felt like she was going to get married, and hurriedly flattered her own sister.

"Okay, I'll get her ready to meet." Before she knew what kind of person the other party was, she had already agreed to this family affair for Xiao Lai, which made her mother more showy than her.

"Okay, let's talk sometime." The sisters co-authored Xiao Lai's marriage to be decided, and her aunt didn't like Xiao Lai at all that she was now a college student, and her mother couldn't figure out what her daughter wanted.

"Your aunt introduced you to a good family, you pack up and get ready to meet." It seems that her mother feels good about herself, and the other party likes Xiao Lai very much, as if her own daughter is the perfect tool to be used by her, she wants to beat and scold, depending on her mood, Xiao Lai grew up under the clutches of such a "peerless" mother, and has never felt the warmth given by her mother once, only "fists and feet".

"No, I'm sick." Xiao Lai didn't even think about refusing directly, and he didn't want to cause his mother's "roar".

"Who the feeds you so big for nothing? Even if you go, you have to go, and if you don't go, you have to get married. The strong mother didn't understand that her sister was stirring up right and wrong, and blindly believed that the other party really found a "rich second generation" for Xiaolai, so that she could "fly on the branches and become a phoenix"

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Xiao Lai also asked her "why do you want to find someone like my father who has no ability", she never admitted that she was "greedy for vanity and greedy for wealth", but attributed all the mistakes to "blame your grandma and second aunt", never reflected on her own problems, and always laughed at people who were stronger than her in "envy, jealousy and hate", including her own sister. At home, no one can disobey her will, and she never "scolds" or "dances guns and fists", even her husband.

Xiao Lai closed the door, not wanting to hear her voice. Since enrolling, Xiao Lai has struggled for a semester, and Xiao Lai has a new understanding of himself and the future.

She doesn't want to step into marriage too early, and she doesn't want to be manipulated by a woman with low emotional intelligence like her mother, she yearns for freedom and prefers to follow her heart.

The main reason why she couldn't take the initiative in the end came more from the oppression of her mother's physical and emotional consciousness, which made her very conservative. But the moment she met Xiao Yang, it was the most brilliant and sunny warmth in her heart. So she may not be able to forget the warmth that Xiao Yang brought her in her life, which has made her outlook on life and even her world change qualitatively.

This wave of mother's operation unintentionally aggravated her inner inferiority complex, and also burned her fighting spirit to resist, she didn't want to be manipulated by an ignorant and even extremely stupid thinking, and she didn't want to be indirectly taken to the "gutter" by the aunt who was "kind-faced and unkind".

Even if that person is gone, she will always want to know his every move, word and deed. Even if this love is buried in her heart and has never "seen the world", she is still willing to protect it. Even if he disappears, she is still willing to pursue "his news" through other people's words and deeds.

Maybe it's her way of channeling her inner feelings.

She contacted a former mutual friend Xiao Song, but the other party kept misunderstanding Xiao Lai, thinking that she was pursuing herself, and always had a "withdrawing" attitude. None of this made Xiao Lai mind, because she only wanted to know about "his news", after all, they used to be buddies and often contacted, but in the end, Xiao Song disappointed Xiao Lai, and he didn't say a word about Xiao Yang. This also invisibly exacerbated Xiao Lai's more depressed and distressed mind.