I broke off.

Ten days ago.

I'm sorry that this 'author's word' wasn't issued until today.

"Sooner or Later I Like You" came with the mentality of 0 grades, but I didn't expect the result to be full of surprises.

And the book "Me and Big Brother Wen Pick Up Each Other's Vests" is exactly the opposite, and the data is miserable.

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Let me tell you the story of the book "Big Guy Wen" first.

Originally, I just wanted to write a story about ten years of guardianship. The male protagonist silently guards the growth of the female protagonist in secret, and strives to make himself a strong person, and the ending is that the two move forward hand in hand for a common faith.

It was about 17 years ago, this 'story of ten years' was submitted to yunqi, and after publishing 50,000 words, it was denied.

In the same month, the full text was overhauled, the title of the book was changed and posted again in yunqi, and after publishing 70,000 words, it was rejected again.

Two months later, I deleted the contents of the two books on Yunqi's side and locked them with my own hands.

Revised the content again, added the beginning of the popular president article at that time, and submitted it to another website, and the contract was successfully signed after 20,000 words.

After that, it was successfully put on the shelves and serialized to more than 500,000 words.

After that, coinciding with the net network, more than 500,000 words of books were banned by the website because of the .zheng, .hei.

At that time, I was in my sophomore year, I was busy with my studies, and there were a lot of affairs in the organization and club, so I put this story on hold for the time being.

The story was opened again two years later when "Sooner or Later" was nearing its end.

changed some of the minefield settings of the protagonist of the story, deleted two-thirds of the plot, and made a major change in the names of all the characters in the story, so that there is today's "Big Guy Wen".

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When I wrote "Big Guy Wen", I clearly knew that most of the cuties who liked "Sooner or Later" would not like this story.

Their styles are very different, one is based on a true story, and the other is completely imaginary.

But I wrote it anyway.

No way, this story is like a grain of rice stuck to my heart, which will block my heart from time to time and make me uncomfortable.

In case you don't know, I'm a person who is extremely nostalgic and prone to self-denial.

For me, every character I create lives in another dimension.

When I write it out for you to see, it's equivalent to opening the door to dimensional space.

If the story is not finished, it is equivalent to these people being driven back into the claustrophobic dimensional space.

I would be sick and uneasy.

If no one likes the story, it means that these people have not made friends on this earth.

I will blame myself and feel guilty.

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In the past few days, I have been paralyzed at home like a salted fish.

Actually, I had a lot of time, but I didn't have any motivation to sit in front of the computer and code.

There is a long, long story behind "Big Guy Wen" (the outline is set to be a million-word long story), but my head just doesn't want to run, and I am very reluctant to sit in front of the computer and open the codeword software.

I don't think anyone likes it, and that's a mistake I made as a writer.

I wrote badly about the people I wrote, and I wrote badly about this story.

The characters and basic outline of the new book have been written on paper and are being typed on the computer little by little.

But I didn't have the courage to start writing the first chapter.

It is...... Suddenly there was no confidence.

I don't know how many people will like the new book, and whether the characters in the new book will make friends.

The point is, how do I write to make them friends?

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I am an adult and self-aware.

Is my style suitable for freshness, sweetness or slapping in the face?

Is my logical thinking suitable for simple, everyday stories or complex and changeable frameworks?

I know this better than anyone.

So, these days, I've been thinking repeatedly, is the original intention of writing an essay still there?

What am I writing for?

To cater to the masses?

To make money?

In order to make up an illusory love to get the spiritual satisfaction of this single dog of his own?

I...... Some were asked by themselves.

I must admit that this "ten-year story" was once changed beyond recognition by me in order to be able to sign a contract.

I must admit that in order for "Big Guy Wen" to pass the review and become a hit, Zeng ruthlessly threw away a lot of his favorite settings and added some 'golden fingers'.

I must admit that between the sisters of "Sooner or Later" and "Big Guy Wen", the reason for choosing the latter is more for gambling.

I'm betting that the book will get more attention and skyrocket because of the popular categories.

I bet that my slow-burning style can also write a president's cool article.

I must also admit that due to some practical reasons, I am now in an embarrassing situation, and I must and can only rely on the manuscript fees earned by codewords to pay my tuition fees and maintain my life in school.

So, relying solely on the dismal data of "Big Guy Wen", I really can't hold on.

Yes, reality tells me I lost the bet.

In fact, I was not happy to write this book. Because in the process of coding words, I can't convince myself to abandon the 'real' and go crazy to add gold fingers or deliberately sell cool.

I can't be convinced of this story myself.

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I'm sorry for breaking the contract again and breaking the update of "Big Man Wen".

I'm also sorry that the new book release in early May will not be possible for the time being.

I think it's going to take me a while to adjust my mentality.

This "time" can be as short as two or three days or as long as a week or two.

But I promise that when I say goodbye, Xiaojing will be a brand new Xiaojing.

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At last.

The new book is a sweet and warm story, which can be regarded as the sister chapter of "Sooner or Later".

I hope that in the process of writing a new book, I can calm my mind again and slow down......

It's like writing "Sooner or Later".

Outside the order, "Big Guy Wen" will not give up the pit (the children are all born, I can't give up).

But after the release of the new book, the focus of the update will be on the new book, and the book cannot guarantee the stability of the update (no way, Xiaojing needs to rely on the manuscript fee to pay the tuition fee for the new year, I hope you understand).

Well, that's all there is to it.

So be it.

I hope the new book can be seen.

If you can't see each other, then let's see each other in the next book, or in the next book.

I'm really sorry for the trouble it caused to all of you.

I still love you~