Chongqing, July 7, 2014

Cold beer and barbecue really go well with it on a summer night. If you can be greedy for a few wisps of river breeze, it will really be considered a blessing. On Nanbin Road, a table of supper is going on. I was fortunate enough to be on the spot, or rather I was the star of the supper, for the simple reason that I was out of love. This barbecue was a "comfort feast" prepared for me by my brothers.

"The old doesn't go, the new doesn't come." After a few laps, Lao Zhou shook the cup in his hand and put on a preachy posture, "Everyone is an adult, and they are not sixteen or seventeen-year-old little babies, so don't pretend to be deep." ”

"Yes, yes, Lao Zhou is right." It was my best friend Si Long who answered, "Isn't it just a girlfriend, it won't be turned upside down, the sky will fall apart, the sky will collapse, and the sky will ......" I don't know if he is poor in words or seeing that I don't talk, his voice gradually weakened.

"It's not that I'm talking about you, don't pretend if you don't have culture! Liao always graduated from journalism, and if you are in front of him, you will be humiliated by the class with an axe. Mr. Liao, do you say it? "Lao Zhou was there and gushing. As he spoke, he almost stood on his stool and began his speech. I really admire that mouth that was born for sales.

After all, it was a "comfort banquet" arranged for me, and it would be rude to remain silent like this. I picked up my glass and pulled Zhou back to his seat, trying to let himself go. "My Mr. Zhou, can you suppress your restless soul first." While speaking, I hid the gloom just now, and said to Lao Zhou with a hippie smile, "All of you here are brothers, and you expose the shortcomings of other people's dragons like this, obviously intentionally alienating the brotherly relationship between us." You deserve three glasses of wine for this behavior! Lao Zhou toasted three times in a row under the coaxing of everyone, and smiled at me.

I waved at the old dragon, and the old dragon understood, solemnly tidied up his clothes, put away his smile thoughtfully, and sat upright like a big boss of a business. I smiled and moved to Lao Long's side, touched Lao Long's big belly, and introduced to everyone: "You all say that you are the brothers of Mr. Long, and you don't know Mr. Long at all. Lao Zhou said that Mr. Long has no culture, which is nonsense, and I, as Mr. Long's brother, must tie up Mr. Long! Everyone knows that there are stalls on our Longzong Stone Bridge, seats on Metro Line 1, and bunks on Nanshan (funeral home). Do people still care about your culture as a stone bridge paving? Take 10,000 steps back, even if Mr. Long is no longer educated, we brothers should not be bored and not talk about it. Don't say anything about seeing through everything, otherwise Mr. Long will walk around the Shiqiaopu area in the future! ”

"Hahahahaha......." The dreary environment just now began to warm up. With everyone's laughter, I drank the wine in my glass, and the wine burst through my throat and poured down. I am a sensual person, and I understand the distress of "raising a glass to eliminate sorrow and sorrow", and at this time I can't control my hands at all, and I hold up a glass of wine recklessly; At this time, he couldn't control his mouth, let a glass of wine flow into his stomach, his brain cooperated to extract the bits and pieces of the past, and the tears reached the threshold, and it seemed that he was about to burst at any time.

Lao Luo, who was sitting opposite me, seemed to notice my abnormality, and hurriedly got up and said, "Lao Liao, don't think about those unpleasantness. Think happy, your Germany has played well this year. ”

"Funny! Your Germany has been so fierce this year, and it will definitely let Brazil go tonight. ”

"Yes, yes, yes! This year's winner was Germany. ”

"Sprinkle in Brazil, Argentina, and the Netherlands are all lettuce dishes." Everyone chimed in.

I quickly cleaned up my expression, forced a smile, raised my glass and clinked glasses with everyone frequently: "I would like to thank you for your support on behalf of the German team." It's not me who is risky, this year's champion is definitely our German team! If Germany doesn't win the championship, I will run naked on the Guanyin Bridge. A sentence ignited everyone present, and those with good deeds hurriedly shouted, "Everyone remembered to him, if he can't win the championship this year, let's see how Mr. Liao is walking around in Chongqing!" ”

The "comfort banquet" finally ended at the urging of the boss. In Lao Zhou's words, this is a gathering that achieves the set purpose. Saved the soul, cleansed the soul, filled the belly, etc...... I didn't want to listen to Lao Zhou's drunken speech, watching him being carried to the bathroom by the people around him. Leaving everyone behind, I walked to the river alone. At this time, there were no Chinese lights shining, and the dim lights of the street lamps were even weaker in the endless darkness, and the fierce river wind poured down from the upstream, and the coldness of the river water made people shiver. A voice in my ear repeatedly said, "Let's go, let's go together." "I hadn't taken a few steps to follow the sound when I felt someone tap me on the shoulder, which scared me. Looking back, it turned out to be Liu Chaoyang, a colleague and friend of my unit. He is a native of Henan, and we were able to work together because of some chance to come to Chongqing. At this time, he gently supported me and asked in Chongqing dialect with Henan characteristics, "Are you okay?" ”

"It's fine. What else can I do? "My accent was brought to Henan by him.

"Are you alright?"

I nodded, took a puff of my cigarette, pointed to the river flowing slowly eastward under my feet, and said, "Lao Luo is quite right. Forget about those worries. Now I just want the Yangtze River to wash me away, clean up, and all my troubles are gone. ”

"Good thing I came over and watched you!" I obviously felt that Liu Chaoyang gasped, "You are usually a person who can be seen, how can you still have this kind of thought?" ”

"What thoughts?" I threw the cigarette butt into the river with all my might, and watched the weak light of the fire disappear into the night in an instant.

Liu Chaoyang sighed lightly: "You! How can I persuade you! Let's take a look below. ”

I looked at the river under my feet, and although it was calm and calm, it exuded a terror that was enough to swallow everything, and it made people shudder. I subconsciously stepped back...... Death may not be easy.

Seeing that I was timid, Liu Chaoyang said seriously: "Tonight is a hurdle for the German team, don't you want to see it before you die?" Besides, if you want to die, don't do it now, if the German team loses tonight, it's not too late for you to throw yourself into the river. It's probably harder for you to run naked than to die. ”

......

My name is Liao Jingke, and I have been in the world for 24 years. I was born in Nanchuan, an ordinary small city under the jurisdiction of Chongqing Municipality, and it was just a coincidence that my father named me Jing Ke. Ranked by family generation, I should be a celestial generation. My father thinks that the word is too big, where can a mortal man like me afford it, so he simply didn't name Liao Jinke according to his generation, and took the meaning of Jinbang Dengke. Later, it was changed to Liao Jingke, hoping that I would become a hero like Jing Ke. When I was a child, I was proud of the same name as the hero, and when I grew up, I learned about the tragedy of "the wind is sluggish and the water is cold, and the strong man is gone". Since then, I have given up the idea of practicing martial arts, and under the inspiration of "Jing Ke", I have successfully become a history buff. I can be regarded as a handy historian of ancient and modern Chinese and foreign history, and this can be regarded as a small skill in my life.

My upbringing, like that of the majority of Chinese children, was simple, regular and ordinary. So far, there has not been any adventure that should have happened to me as a protagonist of a novel. To be optimistic, huge wealth, special functions, demons and monsters have all crossed my shoulders; I don't have the dignity of Pan An, and even if I look at it twice, I have to sigh how I designed it in the first place, which is really a bit casual! My father was just a clerk in a city bank, and my mother chose to retire from the company where she had worked for 30 years the year I graduated. They worked hard to raise me as an adult. However, I was not very competitive, and I was only admitted to a junior college in Chengdu as my feedback to them. My parents were a little melancholy, but I felt that everything made sense – high school math and English were a nightmare for me. Fortunately, I didn't have time to waste math and English, contributing them to novels, comics, and correspondence with my first love. In the end, with the help of language and history, I was able to be admitted to a junior college, and I already felt that my ancestors had accumulated virtue.

After graduating, I did not return to my hometown, but chose to work in Chongqing. One is that I feel that I should be in control of my own life. Far from the sight of parents, at least life will be much less restrictive; Second, I also realized that my achievements were indeed sorry for the cultivation of my parents, and I was ashamed to see Jiangdong's fathers. As time goes on, so does the stress of adulthood. The imbalance of daily life, personal emotional problems, and the pressure of work are gradually eroding our happiness. In Lao Zhou's words, "We live happily in suffering." ”

Right! I could even sublimate this sentence a bit.

Alive! Like a dog, you have to be strong to live!