Chapter 272: What is lost, what is gained

Guanyin was silent for a while and smiled: "It's okay, as long as I know that you are alive, my heart is also settled." Liu Xiaoxiao got up and left: "Yan Tong, I'm busy with you helping me send her out." "Yan Tong wanted to say something, but he didn't know what to say in this situation." Guanyin, this, I, she~" Guanyin smiled: "It's okay, I can bear all this, I'll go back first, bring Rulai, and take care of Xiaoxiao." Yan Tong nodded: "Well, Xiao Xiao is a hard-mouthed and soft-hearted person, if you treat her sincerely, she will forgive you." Guanyin patted Yan Tong's shoulder: "Little Hitomi, thank you." Yan Tong shook his head: "Don't thank me, I didn't help anything." Guanyin looked at Liu Xiaoxiao's home: "You help me find Xiaoxiao, which is the greatest help." With that, Guanyin disappeared into nothingness. Yan Tong looked around, and without the breath of Guanyin, he cautiously came to the study. Liu Xiaoxiao is sitting in the study at the moment, reading carefully.

"Xiaoxiao." Yan Tong spoke weakly. Liu Xiaoxiao glanced at Yan Tong: "What's wrong?" Do you still want to talk about Guanyin? Yan Tong nodded: "En, I want to talk to you." Liu Xiaoxiao put down the book and smiled: "Don't say anything." Yan Tong looked embarrassed, looking at Liu Xiaoxiao's attitude, it seemed that he didn't intend to forgive Guanyin. Now, if it is the same situation again, Liu Xiaoxiao will not forgive here, Guanyin's situation is so pitiful. Liu Xiaoxiao looked at Yan Tong: "What are you thinking?" Yan Tong looked at Liu Xiaoxiao and sighed helplessly: "It's nothing, I just think Guanyin is so pitiful." Liu Xiaoxiao raised her eyebrows: "Where is she pitiful?" Yan Tong thought for a while: "At the beginning, because Guanyin and Rulai entered the Buddhist path successively, Guanyin had to abandon his divine fetus, and then suffered from inner torment every day, and life was worse than death. In the end, it was found that the child was still alive, but his own child did not forgive himself. Isn't it pitiful? ”

Liu Xiaoxiao nodded: "Well, listening to you say this, it's really pitiful." Yan Tong looked at Liu Xiaoxiao hopefully: "Yes, yes, you also feel very pitiful." Liu Xiaoxiao shrugged: "However, this is all self-inflicted." She was the one who abandoned me at the beginning, and now she is the one who will recognize me. Does it not matter what I think at all? Yan Tong thought for a moment: "What you said also makes sense. If it weren't for the mysterious man who saved you, you probably wouldn't exist. Liu Xiaoxiao frowned: "Now, what I am more concerned about is who took me away in the first place." Yan Tong was curious: "Why?" Liu Xiaoxiao analyzed: "Guanyin abandoned me more than 100,000 years ago. Guanyin has a divine fetus, and I don't even know about it, how did the one who saved me know? Yan Tong thought carefully: "Yes." Moreover, it even knows where it discarded you, and it appeared in time to save you and keep you in the dragon's blood tree. ”

Liu Xiaoxiao tapped his fingers on the desk: "At that time, heaven and earth were not divided, and anyone could save me." However, this one who saved me must not be a simple character. Yan Tong nodded: "No matter who it is, no matter what its purpose is, in short, now you have survived." Let's think about what's in front of you. Liu Xiaoxiao smiled: "What is there to consider, if you don't know my existence, Guanyin doesn't dare to face my criticism, just know, there's nothing to think about." Yan Tong hesitated for a while, but still spoke: "Xiaoxiao, if you come, you are in the devil." Liu Xiaoxiao's expression paused, and then smiled: "What are you kidding, how can you fall into the devil?" Yan Tong said seriously: "Really." Liu Xiaoxiao frowned: "What's the matter?" Yan Tong thought for a while, and said concisely: "Because of his obsession, Rulai has done many wrong things, and he has been controlled by the demons in his heart, and he has been in the demons for thousands of years without knowing it. ”

"The last time I went to the Heavenly Palace, I had a relationship with Rulai, because because of my words, he lost thousands of years of cultivation. Now, he has sealed himself up and fought against his demons. Yan Tong said helplessly. Liu Xiaoxiao was a little puzzled: "What kind of inner demon can make Rulai enter the demon?" Yan Tong sighed: "Rulai wants to become a Buddha too much, and his obsession is too deep. But the main reason is the Buddha's birth. The Buddha was taught by the Buddha to become a Buddha, but he was punished by the Buddhas. Since then, in order to force the Buddha to become a Buddha, the demon has been looking for me for thousands of years. The last hand caused my tragedy, but fortunately, Yama still saved me at a critical moment. Liu Xiaoxiao frowned: "You mean, your affairs are all planned by Rulai?" Yan Tong nodded: "Yes, it's all a ghost, Guanyin should have done a lot of things to protect me, otherwise I wouldn't be alive today." ”

Liu Xiaoxiao frowned, looked out the window and said nothing. "If you come to it, can you fight against his own demons?" Liu Xiaoxiao asked lightly. Yan Tong hesitated for a moment: "Buddha Sheng said that if the demon in his heart is deep, he may not be able to fight it himself." "In order to protect Rulai, Guanyin has been staying in the Lotus Pond Fantasy Realm, because he is afraid that Rulai will become a demon and endanger the Three Realms." Yan Tong explained seriously. "Guanyin said, she went back and brought Rulai with her, and came here to take care of you. She doesn't want anything anymore, she just wants to take care of you, protect you, and make up for what she lost. Yan Tong told Liu Xiaoxiao Guanyin's original words. Liu Xiaoxiao smiled dismally after hearing this: "Make up for what you lost?" When I need my parents' love, she is not there, when I need my parents' guidance, she is not there, when I need my parents' support, she is not there. Hitomi-chan, do you think you can make up for what you lost? ”

Yan Tong was silent, indeed, it was impossible to make up for what was lost. "Xiaoxiao, to be honest, I envy you." Yan Tong muttered with tears in his eyes. Liu Xiaoxiao looked at Yan Tong seriously: "Do you want Lin Jing?" Yan Tong nodded, and then wiped his tears: "Because Yan Luo sealed my memory, my memory of my mother is not complete, and until now, all my understanding of her is the one in the Phoenix Feather Illusion Realm." Today, when I saw you and Guanyin's blood beads fused together, I was really envious in my heart. "Xiaoxiao, in the past few days, you have always regarded the forest as your parents, and you have never been sad for a moment because you were abandoned. However, ever since I met my mother in the illusion, I have been missing her every day. I didn't even dare to see her reincarnation, because even if I did, she wouldn't be her anymore. Yan Tong paused, easing his emotions.

"Xiaoxiao, I lost my memories with my mother, although I recalled some, but it was incomplete, but these incomplete memories made me very satisfied. My mother has passed away, and there will be no second her in the Three Realms, and I will lose her forever. "But you're different. You have never suffered from being abandoned. For thousands of years, you have lived freely, and now, the sudden appearance of parents will give you the love you have not received before, these loves, for you, may not be nothing, but for me, it is extremely precious. Because this is the kind of love I can't get in my life. Yan Tong settled down: "I know, you must resent her for abandoning you in the beginning, and I can't understand it, but what you have lost has been lost, what you can get in the future, why not get it?" "Of course, in the end, this matter depends on your decision, they are your parents, and how you get along with them depends on your own heart."

Liu Xiaoxiao looked at Yan Tong and thought seriously about Yan Tong's words: "Xiao Tong, do you miss your mother very much?" Yan Tong nodded: "Well, I really want to." As you know, my mother never mentioned anything about my father, so I don't know who my father is, and I don't want to know. Liu Xiaoxiao asked seriously: "Xiao Tong, let me ask you, if your father came to you, would you forgive him?" Yan Tong thought about it seriously: "I will ask about the things back then, if he hurt my mother, I don't think I will forgive him." Liu Xiaoxiao nodded: "Also, you have lived with your mother since you were a child, and you naturally have to consider your mother for your father." Your situation is different from mine. Yan Tong said seriously: "Xiaoxiao, I care about the Lin family, you can see it." ”

Liu Xiaoxiao nodded: "Well, I know." Yan Tong smiled: "I care about them because there is still some blood relationship between them and me. Although they are not close relatives and cannot recognize each other, every time I think of them, my heart warms. "Xiaoxiao, it's really a very happy thing to have something in your heart." Yan Tong said seriously. Liu Xiaoxiao patted Yan Tong's shoulder: "Xiaotong, I understand what you mean." Actually, when I knew that Guanyin and Rulai were my parents, I was still happy in my heart. Because, I think, I finally have parents. Yan Tong was a little surprised: "Really? Liu Xiaoxiao nodded: "However, when I think of her abandoning me, I feel unhappy, so I don't want to accept her." ”

Yan Tong nodded: "I don't understand why she abandoned you in the first place." Liu Xiaoxiao smiled: "Actually, I can understand. Yan Tong was puzzled: "Can you understand?" Liu Xiaoxiao nodded: "Well, it has always been difficult to enter the Buddha's path. For demons, put down the butcher knife and become a Buddha on the spot. Ordinary cultivators have to go through all kinds of hardships before they can enter the Buddha's path. When Guanyin and Rulai entered the Buddha's path, they must have gone through many tribulations. Success is just around the corner, how can you give up because of a child who has not yet been born? Yan Tong frowned: "I don't dare to agree with this. Buddhism should be all-inclusive. Even if Guanyin gives birth to you, I think the Buddhas will be able to accept it. Liu Xiaoxiao shook his head: "For more than 100,000 years, no one has ever become a Buddha again, and we can't find out the details of becoming a Buddha." "It's just that understanding is understanding, and I still have to examine Guanyin and Rulai carefully."