Notes in the rain

It is always difficult to become a lover, and the past is always vain, so I want to be still in the corner of the classroom door, and meet you, without it, just to hope that you will smile.

More than ten years of dust and soil, after years of cold window fame and fortune, red dust rolling with the wind, looking back, the years have long passed, the early spring sunshine years, you and I met for the first time, there is no grand background, only the breeze brings a little chill, witnessing our youth.

I can't tell where to start, I've never liked the mountain league and the sea oath and the vigorous me, I just want the years to be quiet, you are good, it's good, I don't want to be unforgettable, but I don't want to, the more simple and ordinary the background, the sadness and pain, the more obvious it is prominent.

Love or not, like or dislike, it's a matter of words, why embarrass yourself, either choose to let go, or choose to fight, and I choose to hesitate, hesitation will always make mistakes, no matter what it is, inferiority complex or cowardice, loss is loss, missed is missed, nothing to say, I don't want to say too much, there is a suspicion of fried cold rice, I just think, before, there was a day with you, it was good.

Looking back on the past, my heart has long been full of holes, there will always be people who call me stupid, saying that I am persistent, you are all wrong, I am not attached to my love, just obsessed with my past, if the past can be returned, everything before is still like that, then it is naturally the best, but unfortunately, people will change, when I know that everything will not be as I thought, I know, everything is over, it has long been over, I have long let go.

It's just that when I'm disappointed in life, I always can't help but think, although I'm insensitive every day, but I always look forward to meeting you, when the spring breeze is really warm, I'll think where you're laughing, when the summer heat is exposed to the earth, I'll think where you're cooling, when the autumn gloom makes people full of frost, I'll think you'll be cold? Will you add more clothes, when the winter loneliness sweeps the sky, will I miss you lonely? Do you feel lonely? I'm always alone, always living the belly of a gentleman with the heart of a villain, how can a happy person like you lack friends? How can someone as beautiful as you lack care? Why wishful thinking and self-inflicted affection, heh.

But for me, thinking of you is the motivation for me to live, caring for you is an indispensable daily faith activity for me, loving someone, always living myself as a dog, always making myself very humble, but I don't regret it, on the contrary, I'm still happy, I'm still happy, hehe, hehe, I'm really, really cheap.

21 September 2017