At this moment, I was standing in front of Ru Jing's house, hesitating whether to ring the doorbell or make a phone call. I'm not sure there's anyone in the door, and I don't know if Gao Fei will answer the phone. Since the battle in the hospital three days ago, Gao Fei has not appeared. The phone calls were not answered, the text messages were not returned, and I even suspected that I had been blocked.

If it weren't for Zhang Yan's careful statement that he might be martyred, I really don't want to care about this irascible guy, even now standing at the door, I still feel a faint pain in the wound on my head.

Relatively speaking, Xiao Xia is much more reliable. The next day, he brought a nurse to the hospital to find me, saying that he had invited someone to take care of Ru Jing, so as not to be taken advantage of by a rogue doctor like me. When he said this, I could feel Zhang Yan and Xiaoxiao behind me nodding their heads in agreement, and the nurse aunt was even more vigilant. responded to Xiao Xia's words with a look of "so it is".

But considering that there was still a Ruan Yang hidden under Ru Jing's bed, I had to patiently refuse Xiao Xia's kindness. Despite this, he still delivers flowers in the morning, food in the evening, and calls to greet Xiaoxiao at noon. Strangely enough, however, he never stepped into the ward, and although we did not stop him, and even deliberately led him in a few times, he just stood at the door, glanced at the bed from afar, and then turned to lean against the wall and stood quietly for a while.

Although he did not enter the ward, every time he came, Ruan Yang was on high alert, and the gun was in his hand, through the bed curtain, through the crack in the door, staring at Xiao Xia's shadow until it disappeared. I stumbled upon him when I was changing his dressing. He didn't explain why, just as Xiao Xia didn't explain why he didn't enter the door.

Xiaoxiao thought that Xiao Xia was afraid of getting into trouble, but Zhang Yan said that it was a kind of bystander love, and Ruan Yang naturally had his interpretation. As for Ruan Yang's nervousness, Xiaoxiao didn't know, Zhang Yan said that it was because Xiao Xia tracked Ru Jing's mobile phone, and Ruan Yang was injured like this because he was tracked on his mobile phone, and I also felt the same way. In this regard, I think Xiao Xia should also have his own consciousness.

The two of them are unabashedly alienated in their attitude towards each other.

I still choose to ring the doorbell, after all, I can't expect someone who hasn't answered the phone for three days to suddenly change sex. The doorbell rang three times, rang three times, and there was no answer. I looked around to see that there was no one, took the opportunity to light a cigarette, walked to the back of the fire door, and found a pleasant staircase to sit down. Thinking that after smoking this cigarette, I would knock on the door again, and if I didn't open it again, I would call the police.

The doorbell thought about it three more times, but there was still no movement. I was about to give up when I suddenly heard kicking footsteps inside, and I stopped my steps and waited for someone inside to open the door. After a while, the door opened, and Gao Fei stood at the door like a ghost, with unkempt hair, stubble on his face, sunken eyes, red bloodshot eyes, and clothes from three days ago, with the smell of alcohol and the smell of smoke. The sloppy appearance made me want to help him close the door.

I looked over his shoulder and saw the wine bottles lying on the coffee table and the full ashtray. What picture was broadcast on TV, it seemed to be an award ceremony, Ru Jing stood on the stage, holding the trophy in one hand and holding a man in the other, and the smile was very bright. The man wrapped his arms around Ru Jing's waist and lowered his head to kiss her forehead, and the warm and joyful look made me a little intoxicated.

Gao Fei noticed my gaze, hurriedly turned around, and turned off the TV. I realized that the man was Gao Fei, the one who looked focused after putting on the formal suit. I look at the person in front of me again, he has already fallen from a sunshine boy to a sloppy ghost.

I walked into the room and took the door with me. Seeing the mess on the sofa, I had to sit on the bar on my feet. Gao Fei sat back on the sofa and asked me coldly.

"Is Ru Jing awake?"

"Nope." I looked around the room, and it wasn't much different from the last time I came. Aside from the bottles and cigarette butts, it was clear that the guy had drunk himself on the couch since he came back three days ago.

"Is Ruan Yang gone?" Gao Fei asked me while looking for the wine he hadn't finished on the table. He didn't seem to like the name Ruan Yang very much, this person.

"Nope." I wasn't going to stop him, because I didn't know what he was drinking, maybe that's what he does, after all, he's a designer.

"And what are you going to do?"

"Let's see if you've killed yourself too." I told him Zhang Yan's guess directly.

When he heard the word suicide, he looked up at me, then lowered his head again. grabbed the cigarette on the table and lit one for himself, it was obviously a lady's cigarette, presumably Ru Jing's "relic".

I walked over to the floor-to-ceiling window, opened the curtains, opened the window, walked out onto the terrace, and leaned over to look at the café opposite. At the door of the café stood a fashionably dressed woman, with a cigarette in her hand and sunglasses on her nose, looking up as if looking in my direction, I think I had seen her, when I first met Gao Fei. The woman probably saw me, turned around and went into the café--- it's a place with a story, and it's necessary to sit down.

I turned around and walked into the room, Gao Fei had just finished smoking a cigarette and was twisting the butt out of the ashtray. He squinted at me, waiting for me to speak.

"How long have you been living together?" I don't think it's appropriate to ask that, but I can't think of a better word to describe their relationship.

"More than a year." Gao Fei did not explain or justify it.

"And how long has it been since you've seen her?"

"More than half a year." Gao Fei frowned, and went to look for cigarettes again, obviously the wine had run out. I was thinking about this time in my heart, living together for a year, and being separated for half a year, adding up to about 2 years, which means that two people have known each other for at least 2 years.

"She's supposed to have had a baby, you know?" I asked cautiously.

"Who are you talking about?" Gao Fei stood up abruptly and looked at me incredulously, as if he didn't know.

"It should have been a while ago, and I haven't been breastfeeding yet." Regarding this, I only noticed it when I reviewed it, Zhang Yan has never said this matter, I don't know if he forgot it, or if he felt unnecessary.

"Bastard!" Gao Fei gritted his teeth and said, looking like he was going to kill. It seems that I was wrong, and I thought it would be a close friend living together, but Xiao Xia is also possible. Thinking about it this way, Gao Fei is really a failure, he guards it every day, and he is actually taken advantage of by others. If it were me, I would be in the mood to commit suicide.

"You didn't even notice it?" I knew it would anger him, but I couldn't help but want to make sure. How could the woman you love be pregnant and not know, let alone a cohabiting relationship.

"Whose child is it? Where is it? Gao Fei didn't answer me, but asked me in a daze, and that expression made me suspect that he was going to kill someone.

"I don't know, Ru Jing didn't say." She really didn't say it, which surprised me, such a long suicide note, the 4 male protagonists all clicked, but about the child, there was not half a word. So I guess that the child either died young, or was taken away by his own father, so Ru Jing was too sad and chose to commit suicide, and it is normal for pregnant and lactating women to be mentally fragile. Thinking about it this way, it's possible that there is still a male protagonist who didn't appear. It's messy.

"What did Ru Jing say?" Gao Fei calmed down slightly.

"He said to take care of you, saying that except for the computer in the study, the rest of the things are yours, of course, provided that if she dies, otherwise everything will not be true." I finished what I should have told him a long time ago.

"How did she define our relationship?"

"Colleague." How can a man be so unrelenting, he still wants to ask such an indifferent question at this time.

Gao Fei fell silent again, he sat on the ground, leaning against the sofa, his head on his knees, his hands hanging at his sides. If I hadn't seen him tremble down his spine, I would have thought he had fainted.

I picked up the lighter from the table, lit myself a cigarette, and took a deep breath. This woman's taste for cigarettes is not bad, the smell of tobacco is very light, but inhaling it is indeed refreshing and refreshing, slowly exhaling the smoke ring, and there is a rich aftertaste between her lips and teeth. The barrel is slender, and the mouthpiece is edged with blue aluminum foil, which is deliberately light on the fingertips. I carefully looked at the cigarette in my hand, thinking about the first time I saw Ru Canteen, so beautiful and so far away.

"How did you meet Ru Jing?" Finally back to the original question. Gao Fei kept his confessional posture unchanged and asked vaguely.

"A chance encounter at the airport, and then a flight, and a neighbor's seat, witnessed her suicide process so magically"

"You mean she killed herself on the plane?"

"Yes!"

"Why didn't you stop her?" Gao Fei's question stung me, and it was also a question that I had been avoiding and pondering, what I was doing at the time, why I didn't notice, why I didn't stop her.

"I'm sorry, I really didn't notice at the time." I'm really sorry, for Ru Jing, for myself, if it weren't for this reason, I don't think I would have been so concerned about her suicide note.

"Then why did she kill herself?"

"Isn't that what I should have asked you? I just met her and she killed herself, do you think I'll know? ”

"Did it have something to do with the man who got her pregnant?" Gao Fei looked up at me, and there was no emotion in his eyes, except for redness, dark circles, and puffy eyelids.

"I don't know." That's the truth, Ru Jing said let me go to her diary, but that was when she successfully committed suicide, and now in this situation, I don't know if I should go through his computer or not.

"I want to see Ru Jing's suicide note." Gao Fei still looked at me with that look. "There should be a suicide note, shouldn't there?"

"Yes, but I don't know if I can show you, or you can wait for Ru Jing to wake up and ask her."

"Will she ever wake up?"

"Then it's up to her."

"So what are you coming to me for?" Gao Fei finally asked the question I was struggling with.

"I want to take the computer in the study room away, this is designated by Ru Jing, and the rest of the things in this room and the things in the studio are yours."

"What's in that computer?"

"I think there should be a reason for her suicide"

"Then why should I trust you? Why give it to you? ”

"This,I really don't know.,This should be a loophole set by Ru Jing's suicide note.,She didn't explain how to make you believe me.,Just said let me return the wrench to you.,Take the computer away.,And then let you cry or be mad.,It's all up to you." I paused and continued.

"I think except for Ruan Yang, as far as the people I know so far, you should be the most trusted and close person to Ru Jing, you live in her house, no matter what the reason, you share her daily life, enjoy all her possible relics, and even the only person she wishes, I don't know if you will feel better if you say this, I don't want to comfort you, I just want you to calm down and think seriously, what else can you do for Ru Can, or what does Ru Cane want you to do at this time?"

It's really not out of comfort, but I really feel that Ru Jing should be distressed for Gao Fei, just like Ruan Yang feels sorry for Ru Confection, but I don't know if there is love in this distress.

"I want to bring Ru Jing back." Gao Fei said suddenly. "Is it possible for me to take Ru Jing back to take care of her, will it be better for her?"

"This, it's not impossible, you let me think about it."

It was so cold in the hospital, and there was even the smell of rot and death, which I knew better than Gao Fei. It's just that I'm a little unsure whether Gao Fei should pick up Ru Jing..... or should I find the child and the child's father first?