I went home, and after half a year of struggle and turmoil, I still chose to return to the house that was once the warmest, the place with the smell of Ruling.

Aunt Hong originally said that if I still feel sad, I don't have to go back, I am an adult, and I can choose to live according to my own ideas. As long as I can take care of myself, stop doing some radical things, don't get involved in what she is doing, stay away from right and wrong, follow me wherever I go, what kind of person I want to be, what kind of life I live, she will no longer interfere.

I am grateful for the things she has helped me do in the past six months, and I am grateful that she is finally willing to let me play freely, but this time, I can't just leave, I must go back to that city, that home, and finish what I haven't done yet, what I haven't done, otherwise I can't forgive myself.

Especially in that house, yes, Ru Ling died, it was just a house to me, and there were traces of Ru Ling that I was missing. Although I also feel sorry for Uncle Ru and Aunt Tang, it is no longer a home. I have to accompany them for Ru Ling for a while longer, and let them forgive each other, and then help each other until they are old, so that Ru Ling can feel at ease.

Uncle Ru went to pick me up at the airport, and when he heard that I was coming back, he was a little surprised, and he probably thought that it was time for me to leave. I listened to Aunt Hong's repeated explanations on the phone, saying that I had adjusted my emotions and had recovered, and that it was better for me to go back, and it was also my own wish.

Uncle Ru should have completely believed Aunt Hong's explanation, so when he saw me, he still asked me if I was tired, if I had slept on the plane, if I had dinner, if I wanted to eat, and he called Aunt Tang to prepare. I didn't speak, just let him take the box and follow him into the car.

I haven't seen her for half a year, her hair is much whiter, and the wrinkles on her face are more profound, and I can see that the whole person seems to be very heavy, but she doesn't dare to show it in front of me, and even her sighs are extremely controlled. I sat in the passenger seat, tears flowed unconsciously, and it seemed that sadness was not so easy to get rid of.

Uncle Ru looked at me crying and didn't speak, my father's love was always heavy, vague, and speechless, I don't know how he vented his sadness in the past six months. After learning that the police found nothing and no one was caught, did they still insist on his justice so much, and despise me, a madman who fights violence with violence?

"Dad, I want to move home from school." I wiped away my tears and said to him. I have been on leave for half a year, and I lived on campus before I was suspended, and now that Ru Ling is gone, I have to take his share of responsibility and shoulder his burden.

"Good! I'll accompany you to school tomorrow. ”

"No, I can do it myself." I don't want him to be with me in the face of everyone's strange eyes. At the same time that I was judged to be paranoid psychotic, I applied for a leave of absence from the school. Now when I go back, I have to give a proof of recovery and normal performance, and at the same time, I will inevitably face all kinds of scrutiny and doubts.

"I'll go with you, two of you hurry up together."

"It's fine." I nodded. "I want to stay in Ru Ling's room."

"Okay, it just so happens that your mom has been home all this time, and she lives in your room. You can stay in Ruling's room. Uncle Ru tried to speak as naturally as possible, and there were still ups and downs in his heart. Only me and him know in this family, and we are not related by blood, so does he know what kind of feelings I have for Ru Ling.

"Dad, I'm sorry to worry you."

"Family, don't talk about this! It's good to be back! It's good to be back! ”

"Hmmm! Mom is okay? ”

"Okay, she's waiting for you at home, and the meal is ready, it's all your favorite food."

"I want to go see Ru Ling first tomorrow."

"Good! Do you want to call Ruan Yang, he often asks when you will come back during this time, and I haven't told him yet. ”

"It's okay, it's been a long time, I always have to say hello." It's about to meet Ruan Yang, I don't know if he noticed anything, Uncle Ru looks like he doesn't know anything, maybe Aunt Hong didn't say it.

Sometimes I even wonder if Aunt Hong has told Uncle Ru what she is doing, or if she is ready to wait for the dust to settle before telling him how many illegal and illegal things she has done over the years, tooth for tooth, and blood for blood.

"Good!"

I followed Uncle Ru and entered the door, and before I could put down my backpack, Aunt Tang came over and hugged me, crying and laughing, with a very ugly expression. I hugged her and patted her on the back, hoping she was strong enough.

On the table were all my favorite dishes at that time, four pairs of dishes and chopsticks, which had been set up. I glanced at the place where Ru Ling usually sits, and there was a cramping pain in my stomach. On the table against the balcony, there is a statue of Ru Ling, which should be called a statue now, the dead and the living are really different.

Uncle Ru pushed my box directly to Ru Ling's room, and I followed him in, looking at the empty room in front of me, I couldn't help but feel a little regretful. It seems that they know that I am going to live in this room, and they have already cleaned up Ru Ling's relics in the morning, and now his things can only be called relics. Except for the two photo frames, there are almost no traces left by Ru Ling.

I walked over and sat on the edge of the bed, not knowing what to say, thank them for emptying everything, or sorry for emptying everything for them, or should I blame them, why are they so cruel, not even a memory sustenance, not even a breath left to me.

Uncle Ru put down the box and was about to go out, Aunt Tang followed in, Uncle Ru saw her holding a box in her hand and shook her head, but she still insisted on taking the box in. It seems that there is something that they are also struggling with.

Aunt Tang opened the box, and inside was a heart-shaped necklace, and then stuffed it into my hand. I took the necklace, opened the small heart-shaped box, and when I saw the photo and the lettering, I instantly understood everything. This was left by Ru Ling, and he was going to give it to me, at that time, it was almost my nominal birthday, and it turned out that he had prepared a gift early in the morning, but he didn't have a chance to give it to me.

The tears finally broke down, and I held the necklace in my throat, my throat burning, my voice muffled, and I couldn't speak.

"This was a few days before Ru Ling's accident, he accompanied me to buy things in the mall, he saw this, so he bought it, saying that he was going to give it to his girlfriend, I thought it was for Lin Jing."

"After he left, when I was collecting things, I saw this chain, and when I remembered it, I opened it and saw that there were words engraved on it. I really didn't think about it at the time......" Aunt Tang sighed as she said.

"After you were sent away, Yuangao reexplained your matter in front of Ruan Yang. Moreover, as early as when Ru Ling started to drag with Lin Jing, he talked to Ru Ling. ”

"Ru Ling already knows, knows that I am not his sister?"

"Yes, got it."

"He chased Lin Jing just for work." Uncle Ru stood at the door and said.

"Need for work?"

"Yes, I talked to him, and at that time I thought that Lin Jing was not suitable for him, so I talked to him, hoping that he would recognize himself, and forced him to say that it was just a work need."

"But when they broke up, he looked very sad."

"Ru Jing, things have come to this point, there are some things that we will say directly. Although you and Ru Ling grew up together, it seems to outsiders that the brother and sister have a good relationship, but you know that you are not Ru Ling's sister, and I also know it, so we both know what kind of feelings you have for Ru Ling, right? Uncle Ru said slowly.

"But Ru Ling, like me, thinks that you are the daughter of Yuangao and other women, Ru Ling has felt sorry for you and taken care of you for so many years, and he has gradually begun to doubt your origin. When you were a freshman, he asked me if you didn't look like you were taller, so we were mistaken. ”

"At that time, he should have started to reflect on his feelings for you, and when I told him that you were not related by blood, he was also troubled. So the mood swings at that time should have nothing to do with Lin Jing, but he didn't know how to face his feelings with you. ”

"After knowing all this, I looked at this necklace again, and I understood his mind, the person in his heart has always been you, so for so many years, Ru Jing, do you understand? Ru Ling didn't have time to express it, didn't have time to tell you what he thought, do you understand? Although, it is useless to say anything now, but we hope that your heart can be clearer, no regrets, no chagrin, and then live well. With Ru Ling's feelings, live well, and don't do stupid things anymore. "Aunt Tang reached out to help me wipe my tears and cut my hair.

And I could only sit there, gritting my teeth, trying not to let myself lose control, not to make them grieve more because of my grief.

"Let yourself go, Ru Ling has always wanted you to be happy, so, for his sake, you have to pick yourself up again and come out early."

"Actually, you don't have to come back deliberately, Ru Jing, if you think it will be better to leave here, your mother and me, you can take care of yourself, you don't have to come back. Ru Ling's matter can't be undone, and we admit it, he chose to be a policeman at that time, and we were so prepared, but we didn't expect that all the worries would really come true. But you're different, you're still young, we know you like Ru Ling, but you can't give up your life because of Ru Ling. ”

"If you can't let go for a while, it doesn't matter, we will accompany you, wait for you to recover, you can go wherever you want, get out of here, and live your own life. We don't blame you, and Ru Ling won't blame you either. Do you understand? No matter if Ru Ling is gone, you are our daughter, and this will not change at any time, so my parents hope that you can happily welcome your own new life, even if Ru Ling is gone, you still have us, Ruan Yang, and friends. Do you understand? ”

"Understood!" I cried and squeezed out two words. Now that the feelings that have been hidden for so many years have been explained, it is better to face them calmly. Now that Ru Ling's intentions are clear, I can't leave so easily.

I will make all those who have failed him, hurt him, and deceived him pay for it, and let them use their wealth, their lives, and their love to bury my love and sacrifice to Ru Ling.