Chapter Seventy-Seven: Helpless, helpless, helpless
Today's Qiu Rong'er has been silent since the moment she saw her father, and she has never said a word.
"Squeak......
Jiao Niang and Qiu Rong'er stopped and opened the door.
"Rong...... Rong'er, you're so beautiful now, Dad is so happy......."
The middle-aged man's eyes were filled with tears and he looked at Qiu Rong'er's side face, joy, excitement, surprise and guilt were mixed together, interweaving the most indescribable threads.
"I've been an orphan since I was five years old......"
Qiu Rong'er swallowed her saliva, calmed her throat, held back the waves in her heart, and finally said it as plain as water.
Before the words fell, the two stepped into the room, locking the wooden door.
The middle-aged man raised his hand slightly, trying to say something more, but finally put down the hand that was about to knock on the door and chose not to continue to disturb.
Recalling Qiu Rong'er's words just now, he understood the meaning of her words, she would never forgive herself for the rest of her life, let alone recognize this father who had long since lost his human appearance.
He lowered his head and walked slowly on the way back to his room with steps as heavy as a stone.
"I'm sorry for you, and I'm sorry for your mother...... But how did I become like this, how did I become like this......"
As he walked, he muttered to himself, remorse spreading across his face.
Perhaps it was because the dusty past in his heart had enough weight for him to temporarily dispel the dust in his heart, and at this moment, his face showed the "light of humanity" that had not appeared for many years, at least he felt guilty.
Qiu Rong'er's mother is the person he loves the most in his life, but unfortunately, his love is still no match for the temptation of "gambling".
"Gambling" ruined his life, took the life of the person he loved the most, made him lose his qualification to be a father, and seemed to be slowly devouring his soul and his humanity.
However, he was still incorrigibly reduced to the gentle country of "gambling", and he could no longer extricate himself.
At that time, he was in debt, so he had to flee from Yunguang City, and after several turns, he hid in Yizhou's Gangcheng City, and since then changed his name to Da Zhuang.
By chance, he met an old woman with no children and no daughters and fell in love with him, and when she saw that he was pitiful, she would often give him some food, and over time, she moved the idea of accepting him as her adopted son.
Eventually, the kind-hearted old woman became his stepmother.
Through the old woman's hand, she introduced him to the grocery store owner she knew as a companion.
And his current wife is the daughter of the grocer.
After getting along day and night, he saw that she had a good impression of him.
In order to live a stable life, he deceived her trust with his rhetoric.
As for his life experience, he only said that he was an outsider, he had no father or mother since he was a child, and he hid his previous marriage to death.
After getting married, he vowed in his heart that he would never change his face from now on, but he still couldn't quit gambling after all.
After the death of her parents, he was even more out of control, treating his wife either beating or scolding, and only knew to stay in the Good Luck Gambling House all day long, and had no heart to take care of the grocery store business at all.
Soon after, he again incurred a large gambling debt, and because he was unable to pay it, he mortgaged the grocery store left by her wife's parents to the creditor.
From then on, the couple had to stay at the old woman's house.
Now, even the old woman had died in the turmoil near the Good Luck Casino in the city.
With nothing to do, the couple had to move west to Ningcheng, Hongzhou to join the woman's distant relatives, and then they passed through Yunguang City and met a few Jiao Niang.
However, now, when others are close to knowing their fate, when he suddenly faces a sad situation of not recognizing and not waiting for his relatives, he only feels that a sharp blade is suddenly inserted in his heart, and he finally wakes up his almost numb human feelings.
"Rong'er, don't be sad, rest early, everything has passed......"
Although Jiao Niang's heart is also painful, she feels as if her heart has been torn open with an old scar. But looking at Qiu Rong'er, who was silent, she was distressed and comforted softly.
This sounds like a reassurance to Qiu Rong'er, but why didn't she say it to herself.
Qiu Rong'er looked at the girl beside her, knowing that she was worried about herself, nodded at her, and then smiled against her will.
After extinguishing the candles, in the dim room, the two of them lay on the bed and tossed and turned, completely sleepy, and the scenes of the past kept pouring into their minds.
After tossing and turning in the middle of the night, the sky at this time has a faint light.
The tired Jiao Niang had already fallen asleep, but Qiu Rong'er was still in a daze with empty eyes, only feeling that there was a boulder pressed in her heart, which was extremely heavy.
"Whew!"
Suddenly, a strange wind blew by the half-open window, and even though the sound was subtle, it was still noticed by Qiu Rong'er, who had cultivated a lot of money.
Thinking carefully about the strange movement just now, the more Qiu Rong'er thought about it, the more she felt that something was wrong.
She took advantage of the faint moonlight to look at the lady beside her, and saw that she was already asleep, so she quietly got out of bed and approached the half-hidden window lightly.
Although Qiu Rong'er didn't find anything, she always felt that someone must have appeared nearby just now, and it must be a cultivator with deep internal strength.
This is...... Sugar!?
Just when Qiu Rong'er was distracted, she vaguely touched something on the wooden table by the window. After she looked at it closely, she could easily recognize it.
At the same time, an unusual breeze reappeared, faintly mixed with a white light.
Qiu Rong'er's face changed, and she was a little excited in her heart, and instantly turned into a red light and flashed out of the window.
She nervously pursued the white light, but lost the trace of the light and shadow in a wasteland near Cloud Light City.
The red shadow landed, and Qiu Rong'er appeared in a remote wilderness.
She spun around in circles, looking up at every corner around her, but she couldn't see anything strange, and her heart suddenly became anxious.
"Senior brother, I know it's you! Why are you dodging like this? Why? Why the hell is that! Qiu Rong'er's eyes were moist, and she shouted loudly into the air in pain.
Qiu Rong'er stood still, unable to hear anything for a long time, and failed to see anyone.
Although Xu Ran did not come forward, Qiu Rong'er firmly believed that the figure that appeared at the window just now was him.
"You promised me that as long as I was sad, you would hold a handful of sweet candy for me, and you promised me that as long as you were there, you would protect me...... But why can't you admit that you love me? ”
Qiu Rong'er lowered her head and whispered, full of melancholy.
Even though Xu Ran had told her countless times that she was just a sister in his eyes, she firmly believed that he also loved her deeply.
It's just that she doesn't know what kind of hardship he has, so she is so evasive about her true feelings and refuses to accept it.
"Xu Ran, you come out! You come out for me! Tell me clearly, why are you a dignified seven-foot man, why are you so timid, can't you love me generously? Is it really that hard to say that you love me? Is it really that hard!? ”
Qiu Rong'er couldn't see Xu Ran, and yelled at the air like crazy, tearing her heart out.
In the distance, Xu Ran hid in a hidden place, secretly watching Qiu Rong'er, although he heard the content of her shouting, he still relented and watched from the sidelines.
Rong'er, why did you fall in love with someone like me...... I love you, I love you more than anyone else, but I am not destined to give you happiness, you forget me......
Xu Ran's eyes were full of sorrow, and he didn't dare to face the beloved Qiu Rong'er, but he was silent and secretly talked to himself in his heart.
An hour passed, two hours passed, and the day dawned.
Looking at the rising sun, Qiu Rong'er smiled bitterly, she knew that he still flinched, and she still couldn't wait for the answer she wanted.
Qiu Rong'er was like a walking corpse, dragging her physically and mentally exhausted body, and swaying on the way back.
Looking at the empty road ahead, thinking of the loneliness on her love path, she inexplicably felt a bit of deep desolation that hit her face.
......
Rong'er?
At this time, Jiao Niang woke up, but found that Qiu Rong'er beside her was gone, and she couldn't help but get nervous.
But when she noticed the candy on the wooden table, she immediately understood.
"This Xu Ran, I really don't know what I think in my heart......" Jiao Niang shook her head and said to herself.
Xu Ran and Qiu Rong'er can be said to have grown up with Jiao Niang, plus Xu Ran did not hesitate to sacrifice most of his skills in order to wake her up, Jiao Niang knows better than anyone how much he cherishes her, but unfortunately, she couldn't figure out why Xu Ran was always away from Qiu Rong'er.
It wasn't until Leng Chitong and the others finished breakfast that Qiu Rong'er returned to the inn in despair.
As soon as Jiao Niang saw Qiu Rong'er like this, she guessed a rough idea, and then recalled the picture of Qiu Rong'er being hurt for Xu Ran for so many years, and she really felt a little sorry for this niece she had seen since she was a child.
What's wrong with her?
Squeak secretly poked the back of Leng Chitong's hand, squeezed his eyebrows at him, and didn't dare to speak at will, so he had to ask silently with his own mouth shape.
Leng Chitong looked at the strange Qiu Rong'er, then looked down at Squeak, shook her head slightly, and shrugged her shoulders to indicate that she didn't know.
Qiu Rong'er came back to her senses, stunned, as if she remembered something, and reluctantly smiled at the few people around her.
"I just went out for something, no, I'm thinking about something." Qiu Rong'er tried her best to pretend that she was fine, and casually perfunctory the real reason why she went out.
Seeing that Leng Chitong and the three of them were still looking at themselves with unnatural expressions, Qiu Rong'er touched her stomach and frowned.
"Ah, you're going too far, and you don't leave me anything to eat!"
Qiu Rong'er temporarily held back the loss in her heart and returned to her usual appearance.
"Hungry? Just let the guy have some more food! ”
Although Jiao Niang knew Qiu Rong'er's thoughts, she saw that she was willing to eat, so she didn't ask more, so as not to touch her heartache.
But Leng Chitong saw that Qiu Rong'er deliberately concealed the truth, but instead aroused his curiosity more and more, took a few steps closer, and said in a strange tone: "Dead girl, tell me quickly, who bullied you, I'll help you get angry!" ”
After speaking, Leng Chitong rubbed his hands and put on an expression of wanting to beat people.
"Don't worry about it, no one bullies me......" Qiu Rong'er sat at the table and replied casually, not in the mood to deal with Leng Chitong.
It's a pity that Leng Chitong just doesn't know how to read people's eyes, not stupid.
Just by Qiu Rong'er's appearance, it was clear that something had happened.
Leng Chitong still didn't give up, ready to break the casserole and ask to the end.
"How can no one bully you, just ......"
However, halfway through the words, Squeak secretly kicked Leng Chitong with his foot, blocking back what he was about to say.