If you look back and see yourself

The past is more than a thousand years, can not be looked back, on the red dust road, everyone is in a hurry, the galaxy is bright, in that distant place, whether there is a long river of time, the fate can not be guessed, whether it is the mud and sand in the big river, drifting with the waves, or there is another fate of the river, rolling down.

Time is gone like a white horse, in a trance there is already a thing is wrong, in the dead of night, I gradually, gradually like a gurgling stream, ripples, looking for, that insurmountable, thousands of years of past.

The cold wind of late autumn hits the camphor tree, whirring, it seems to be a little different, different from the red leaves know the late autumn, the frost and snow know the harsh winter, no matter the four seasons, it seems to be evergreen, and because of this, I came here, the node of immortality, ignoring time, became my punctuation.

Hahaha, come and catch me~ Do you still come out at night? Of course! A group of children swept past me, the wind blew the corners of the black trench coat, constantly flying, I couldn't hold it down, I looked around, a community park, all camphor trees, painted with white circles, there were many facilities, that group of children gathered there.

I searched, smiled slightly, saw the figure sitting on the swing, smiled, meaningful, so, I sat on the other swing, and said, why don't you join them?

It was a young man, but his eyes seemed very blank and dull, and when he heard me speak, he turned his head, and, the next moment, he was stunned, and asked, "You, who are you?"

I, I am you. I said, no way, this, how is this possible?! The group of children next to me were also surprised when they saw me, and they all said, who is Zhang Wei? Are you two like, twins? It's not like ah, your brother?! The questions came one after another, and the young man, his past self, had apparently not yet reacted.

So I said, "Stop!" Suddenly, the wind stopped, the trees didn't shake, and they kept that state, it seemed very weird, now, can we talk? I said.

Of course, unexpectedly calm, it seemed that there was a trace of excitement in his eyes, he said, you said that I am you, then you, from the future? Is it the future me? But no, because ...... Because there will only be one yes, the correction of time, will not allow the world to have two identical leaves, yes, exactly the same.

Then you, he didn't understand, I didn't answer him, but said, you look around, he was shocked, the still world, for everyone is like this, I said, you are now in my mind, I can appear, it is because I don't exist, or hide from the world, or stronger than the world, the law of time can't apply to my body, understand? He nodded, confused.

And then he asked, "What do you say is going on in your mind?" I thought to myself that the bear child is a lot of things, if it weren't for me, I would have slapped it in the face, but I still had no choice but to explain, I think so I am, the world is still circulating, and my eyes on the world stay at this moment, stay in my thoughts, this is called, the moment is eternal!

Still have questions? I said, how can you prove it, he threw it and didn't believe it, I said, you know, I know, you don't know, I know, I know, then tell me, what the future looks like?!

It doesn't matter, I said, damn it, what are you looking for me? Isn't it fun?! He was furious, and I said, "If the future is known, it will no longer be the future, and maybe I won't exist based on that, so I can't tell you, although soon you will forget about this conversation."

Why? He nodded in understanding, don't underestimate a precocious person, although he is still chaotic, but for some things, he has an amazing sense of smell, not as good as this, for his question, I said meaningfully, no why, you will forget.

Looking at me smiling, he seemed to understand, but also a little discouraged, I looked at him and asked, do you have any friends? He said, "What do you think?" I said, yes, isn't that group of friends? He said, haha, don't you know everything, why bother going around in circles.

I said, you are too immature, although you are several years older than them, but you are too naïve, they say that they will break up the relationship, but in fact, they are raising the price, aren't they? I said, with a of my mouth.

It seems that you really know, it is, so I hate this group of hypocrites, and he said, I said, oh, if that's the case, then why play, haha, I seem to have forgotten, you need it, don't you? When I was a child, I was also needed by others, and I didn't need to be sent away, but now you can't do without it.

You! He seemed to be stung, and said in a flash, you are right, but I am still too stupid, too serious, they say to break off friendship, say to support me, only I really do it, they are just afraid of my force, and there is another set behind my back, I have nothing but force, but because of my age, how can there be computer games, and the dinner is attractive, hehe.

After listening to his words, I said, why loyalty is always exchanged for betrayal, why sincerity is always exchanged for hypocrisy, why righteousness is always invincible to interests, why why, right, your voice, don't thank me, please call me the red scarf. I have mixed eyes.

After listening to this, he laughed, laughed so loudly, even that his eyes were a little wet, that's right, buddy, patted me on the shoulder, and said, worthy of me, no, stronger than me, not now I'm stronger!!

After I listened, I didn't say anything, I sighed, and he said, what? I said, youth, really very Zhang Wei, no need to be angry, no need to be angry, in the days to come, you will understand, the world is very ruthless, you only know cruelty now, but you don't know ruthlessness, unwilling to make you angry, its practicality, as long as you understand, even if you are angry, it will only be ridiculed, just like the animals in the zoo, being mocked, only by being indifferent, and becoming stronger, those who betray will be punished, those villains will have awe, those hypocrites will be willing to flatter you, no need to be angry, Let them all be used by you, don't look for friends, there is no choice but to be full of scars.

After listening to this, he was silent for a long time before he said, Thank you, me. You're welcome, the world is like this, you have to be glamorous to be in the limelight, and silent and simple people can only be fooled and ridiculed like clowns.

He smiled and said, what about you? Suddenly you feel like you have a purpose, an idea, right? Don't tell me, just tell me these words that you will forget later, do you think I will believe it? Hehe.

Of course, I can tell you right now that I want a person, he can not be a brother, he can not be a lover, or he can not be a relative, it will be insolent and fake when I am frustrated, but listen, it can be like a spring breeze to me to see ten miles of pink, it can be like a summer scorching heart to bring me laughter, it can take me to see the maple leaves all over the street through the end line, you can take me to see the silver wraps, discuss the philosophy of life, can understand, can be strict, can be tolerant, can be confidant.

He was silent, but I knew that he was also longed for by what I said, and after a long time he said, you know, I can't do it.

I said, I know, I've found that person too, who? He asked, I said, I can do these things myself, understand myself, be strict with myself, be tolerant of myself, and know myself.

He said, I don't know why, I suddenly felt so uncomfortable after listening to it, I wanted to cry, I said, remember, the long night, when you look at the yellow light on the street corner countless times, no one is there, when you have been taught corporal punishment countless times, have your parents ever had a trace of warmth, when you are treated differently, those relatives have treated them equally, and these, I can't hate, loneliness is not the fault of my relatives, I can't blame me for giving me the qualification to think, relatives can do the same, but who cares about the harm caused? On the road of red dust, no one is ruthless, only if you are more ruthless than them, you can be strong, and only by becoming strong can you be proud of the world!

After listening to this, he said, you are more terrible than me, I am just hot-blooded, and you are cold-blooded and ruthless, and you are smart, I smiled and said, I should go, cherish!

He said, don't, let's talk again! I said, no, I'll send you a poem: the way

Looking back at the red dust thousands of miles, it is full of loneliness, desolation and loneliness.

The road is eternal, and the passers-by are in a hurry.

A streamer crossed the sky, and the world seemed to turn again, only to see a young man under the camphor tree, muttering in confusion, is there a way? Hehe, it's really appropriate, but in an instant, when the confusion in his eyes dissipated, and he was disgusted with decadence to sit on the swing, looking at those children, everything had not begun, how could it be over.

29 November 2017