Seeing that the mood fluctuations were not as violent as before, Xi Fan hummed softly and said in his ear: "If you want, if you have anything sad, you can tell me, I will share your sadness and worries with you, believe me, I will be by your side." ”

Fang Zhan, who was nestled in Xi Fan's arms, listening to Xi Fan's constant relief in his ears, and his emotions were slowly soothed, closed his eyes and whispered as if talking to himself: "Do you know, since I was a child, I have lived in countless praises from my parents and people around me, and what surrounds me is their endless praise and expectation. In their eyes, it was as if I was omnipotent, and they thought that no matter what I did, as long as I did it, it must be the best one.

Applause, praise, flowers, and honors, I did get many, many more.

But I don't know everything.

On stage, I will also be nervous, worried, afraid of messing up, just looking at their proud eyes in the audience, I can only force myself to tell myself to stand up and be strong, and not to let down the people who are looking at me.

Every time I took the exam, I was not sure that I would be the best, and I always asked myself again and again before the exam, what should I do if I didn't do well?

Whenever my brother does something that makes people angry, my parents will always come and praise me after scolding him, saying that I am good to have me, I am so good, the future of this family depends on me, in my hands, our business will get better and better, they are very relieved and so on.

Whenever I hear them say that, I really want to tell them that I can't, I'm scared, I'm afraid that I'm going to mess them all up because of the weight of the burden on my family. I don't really like the future, I don't like the company at all, I like to draw, I like it very much, I want to paint......

I envy my younger brother, his life is so good, he can cry when he wants, laugh when he wants, and do what he likes, even if he is scolded by his parents, he will soon be happy again to do other things he likes, and his parents' faults against him are just talking, and they will not really be angry. I envy him so much, because I don't want to live in this endless praise and anticipation.

This kind of compliment really makes me breathless.

I know that my parents love me, and because I know it, I can't tell them what I really think, and I am afraid that if I tell them what I really think, it will disappoint them and make them sad, so in the face of their praise and pride, I try to do my best every time.

Even if I am very scared and tired, I can't bear to let them down, I can only smile and tell them that I am not afraid and will not be tired, but I am really tired and tired, so tired that I don't want to continue, this kind of mood, I have no one to say since I was a child, I don't know who to talk to, Xi Fan, what should I do, what can I do, you help me......"

Gently stroking Fang Zhan's back, Xi Fan comforted softly: "Don't be afraid, in fact, you did a good job just now, after bravely saying your thoughts and wishes, did you feel more relaxed?" Learn to release all the emotions that are pressed in your heart, and you will find that everything is not so difficult. But don't think about anything now, get a good night's sleep, and then tomorrow, let's face the future together, believe me, everything will be fine. ”