"Why ......" for a long time, but I only thought of this sentence.

"What, why?" He tossed it back with ease.

"You don't know me, Mo Yunxia."

"I'm just in front of your eyes for the first time. Not being familiar with it does not mean not understanding. ”

"And how the hell do you know about me?" I looked at him with a frown, "I mean, how did you know me in the first place?" ”

This time, instead of answering immediately, he once again put his brown and dark eyes silently on my confused face.

His eyes were so good-looking, so good to see them, that I had a strange thought, and only felt that my face was not worthy of his long gaze. The only thing that could be reciprocated was to greet him with the same focused and sincere gaze - his brow seemed to be slightly furrowed, and as he watched the smooth skin gradually twist into a bitter Sichuan character, there was only a longing in his heart, just to immediately stroke the palm of his hand and smooth the furrow that filled his heart.

In the end, he didn't speak, just lowered his head and reached into his pocket, then took out his phone, and silently searched for something.

"I didn't want to show you this. But this seems to be the only answer to your question. ”

I took the mobile phone he handed me with doubts, looked intently, and where I could see it, the doubts in my heart instantly turned into a thousand wisps of thick fog, staring in front of me, in my heart, and in my mind, making people dizzy and dizzy, and my heart speed rose sharply. Even the most basic thinking ability seems to have stagnated for a moment, and thousands of clues have all been stirred into the fog of chaos.

Mo Yunxia's mobile phone is displaying an ancient painting. The painting is elegant and light, and it is a beautiful Danqing.

Although I didn't know how to paint, I saw that the brushstrokes were delicate, the colors had faded a lot, and the cowhide paper was cracked and broken. I think it's an ancient painting that is very old. However, what is terrifying is that the beautiful woman in the painting has a light and agile temperament, and the clothes are luxurious and beautiful. Between the eyebrows and eyes, it seems to be a stroke by stroke, carefully painted according to my appearance, vivid, and exactly the same.

"It's... How can it be. ”

"You think it's impossible, don't you?" I just stared at the woman who looked like me in the painting and couldn't take my eyes off, Mo Yunxia's words came like a dark sky, illusory, but the words were real.

"If you ask me where this painting came from, I won't be able to answer. It's just that since I was a child, I have had it at home. At that time, I was young, and I didn't know what antiques were valuable, so I just used it as a gadget and hung it in my room. Although I don't know what dynasty this painting is, and I don't know who the person in the painting is, I deeply remember that this fairy-like beautiful girl has accompanied me countless days and nights. She has become my friend, my loved one, and an integral part of my monotonous life. Later, as I grew up, I felt that I had some kind of indescribable fate with this ancient painting, even to the point of madness. So my family took it, and they thought I was too deep and thought I was going crazy if I continued to indulge in it. ”

"You're really crazy—" I heard my own equally ethereal voice, but my eyes still couldn't take my eyes off the face of the woman in the painting.

Her cheeks are plump, and the painter's brushstrokes are unrelenting, so that the transcendent charm is drawn in the first line. Although it resembles me, it is much more beautiful than me when you look closely. On the yellowed and faded painting paper, her expression is melancholy, and her eyes are like a black hole, which makes people fall into her endless sorrow and resentment that she can't draw clearly, and she is deeply trapped in it, and can no longer extricate herself.

"I'm crazy too......"

"You can see her magic too, don't you!" Underneath Mo Yunxia's voice was an irrepressible longing, "Even if you can't see it with your own eyes, you can feel it, right?" In the past few years in college, it was only this photo that accompanied me. However, photos are not physical and cannot carry my emotional sustenance. Gradually, I became dissatisfied. For a long time, I isolated myself from the crowd and tried to meditate on my relationship with her from a philosophical point of view, whenever and wherever I lived, past and present. Until, one day at school, Gui Hotaru, I saw you. ”

I looked up at him, gasping and exchanging emotions in each other's eyes. I can even imagine Mo Yunxia holding his mobile phone, meditating on this photo day and night. I can also think of a bustling recess, when he suddenly saw me in the crowd, or hurriedly holding the materials, or holding Shui Qing to talk and laugh.

And he, standing in the middle of the crowd, opened his handsome eyes, overwhelmed by shock and excitement, and stood where he was, unable to move......

"Maybe by now you should understand where my feelings for you come from. All this is like a heaven's arrangement......" Mo Yunxia's soft voice lingered in his ears, "If it weren't for you being held in Lu Zhiyu's arms, maybe I would have rushed up to you at that time, rushed in front of you, and told you everything you told you today." ”

I didn't say a word, I just looked at him fixedly. Indeed, with Mo Yunxia's character, even if he saw me back then, he would probably stop, stand in the distance and look at his face that he had been thinking about for many years smiling happily at other men, and then choose to be decent and not disturb in silence.

I really didn't expect his story to be like this, so bizarre, so bizarre that if I hadn't seen it with my own eyes, I wouldn't have believed it. So crazy, so crazy that I couldn't find a reason to give him a euphemistic excuse for years of turbulent and forbearant feelings.

"Mo Yunxia ......"

"Gui Hotaru, you don't have to respond to me right away." Mo Yunxia hurriedly said, "After so many years, waiting has long been a part of my life. I'm not in a hurry to be touched by you, what I want is to be able to see me and accept me when you really forgot about him. After all, this is just the first day you've met me. I'm willing to wait until you forget that person and get ready for the next relationship of your life. When that time comes, I will once again formally appear before you and make your most sincere promises......"

"—Mo Yunxia."

All voices came to an abrupt halt. He was a little stunned, and he didn't know what to do when I interrupted abruptly. It was already completely dark, and even though I was not more than an inch away from him, I could no longer see his gloomy face. The eyes that had always looked straight ahead were trembling with a little flickering at this moment. He immediately reacted to his gaffe, and mechanically grinned the corners of his mouth at a suitable angle, which was reflected in my unheated eyes, but there was only more weakness and helplessness.

"I can't accept you."

A white light flashed in the sky, followed by a rumbling and thunderclap. Mo Yunxia's smile was glued on his handsome face, and the fire in his eyes was burning, and it was clear that as the black clouds were lowered inch by inch, they dimmed for a minute.

Mo Yunxia's handsome face seemed to instantly condense a thin layer of ice, which was suddenly broken by his hasty laughter.

"Gui Hotaru, what did you say?"

I hung my head for a long time, and finally mustered up the courage to meet his gaze.

"You're good, too good to fault a single one. But I ...... My problem is not solved. I watched the furrow in his eyebrows sink deeper and deeper, and thought of the softest words, "I shouldn't say anything to make you sad, but I don't want to lie to you, it's all wronged for you and me." ”

"But I won't let you be wronged! I-"

"—I know," I said at once, for fear that the man in front of me, who had been waiting for me for a year, would be hurt by me again, "and after hearing your story, I have no doubt about your intentions. Mo Yunxia, we may indeed be very fateful, even if we started only because of the similarity between me and the person in the painting, but after waiting and guarding for so long, I know that since you can never leave me, you must be fascinated by me beyond appearance. ”

"Now that you know... Why is it still unacceptable? His expression darkened, and his tone was no longer as enthusiastic as before, "Don't you really have any feelings for me...?" ”

"I don't know......," I muttered slightly, with a thin layer of vague confusion in my heart, "I really don't know if my rejection is good or bad for you, but I know that if I promise you today, it will be a deception and injustice to you." Mo Yunxia, I said, you are very good, although I have only been with you for one day, I am sure that the future days will be as comfortable as today, your cultivation is very good, your speech also makes people feel kind, your face... I feel my heart beat faster when I watch it for a few more seconds. ”

My face burned a little, and when I looked into his eyes again, I couldn't tell how much emotion was in those eyes, it seemed, it was hot anticipation and hope, and it seemed to be cold confusion and frustration. He refused to stretch his frowning brows, and said nothing, just waiting for me to continue.

"Maybe, I just can't let it go."

The white lightning pierced the suffocating darkness in an instant, reflecting the fleeting gloom in his eyes.

"You mean, him?"

"Yes."

The thunder rolled, and the pressure became lower and lower.

"Mo Yunxia, you understand me very well. But you don't understand him, so you don't understand what he left in my heart. I lowered my head and looked at the toes of my shoe, which were stained with mud, "That's not about love, it's a habit, a habit that flows in the blood." In the past, every time I thought of him, my heart was sweet, so I used to engrave his appearance in my mind. But now, what should be forgotten has not been forgotten, how can I really accept you? ”

There was a cold touch around my neck, and I moved my gaze to the toe of Mo Yunxia's black boots, and there were crystal raindrops sprinkling, one drop, two drops, and the muddy water that was wet slowly slid to the ground.

"You mean, you need time, don't you?"

I looked up again, the raindrops wetting the frames of Mo Yunxia's glasses, but he didn't care, looking at my eyes through the blurred lenses.

"Maybe, I don't know." The chill hit, I clasped my hands in front of my chest, "Mo Yunxia, you are really a very good person, it's just that I ......"

"Be friends, okay?"

"You... What the? ”

"I know what you mean, I really shouldn't have intended to let you accept me on the first day you knew me, like you said, that's not fair to anyone." He grinned, and the rain slid down his cheeks. "I'm not going to force you to make a decision. However, please give me a chance to stay with you, and give me time for you to slowly understand what I am all about, okay? ”