Remembering the beginning

Some things can't be put down, I was sorry for you at the beginning, I didn't dare to look up at you, maybe as long as a little 'dead skin', you can look back and smile for me, another sleepless night, I don't know how long it took, I really can't let go, the days without you are so unbearable, the song rehearsed in the third year of junior high school, why does it make the corners of my eyes moist so much, without it, just because of you.

I really hope that time can be turned back, I hope that I can see you again, plain clothes and pretty faces, what a beautiful and flying years, but it's a pity: remember the beginning

The past is unbearable, and the rest is full of mourning.

I don't know what it has been over the years, but the people of Daoyi follow the spring and autumn.

Why can't the past be reviewed, it's because there is no going back! Junior high school is decadent, dazed and numb, why do you show up when I am the darkest in my life, I can say unrequited love, and why, the same table says you want to switch places with him, just what like me?! Haha, how ridiculous, maybe it's just his prank, but why, you and I don't talk much, but I can always feel that when you look at me, it's so different, it's so complicated, maybe, it's just mine, wishful thinking!!

Forget it, it's the third year of junior high school, and it's time for Lao Yan to fly, why, the biology exam assigned by the state, so many examination rooms, why are you next to me, by the window, you are sleeping so peacefully, the beating heart has never stopped, I am so uneasy to look at you secretly, I want to confess, but I always deceive myself, because I am useless, I always think, I am not worthy! And never thought about it, did you think so? Or, I don't even have the courage to speak, just because I am afraid of ridicule, and other people's opinions are really not comparable to my long-hidden burning heart?!!

God is so ruthless, not only ruthless, but even more cruel, as if playing tricks on me, the last exam, you talked and laughed in front of you, and I only feel that you are so far away from me, because I feel that I will soon be separated from the world, and from then on I will be scattered with you, but in the new school, on the second floor of my class, why, why, you appeared by the windowsill again!!

It's ridiculous to think about, ridiculous, again and again, again and again, the chance encounter at the corner of the stairs, I slept last night, with a hundred thousand sleepiness, suddenly, a hand rushed to my front and shook it, I turned my head, it was you! You looked at me, smiled brightly, and looked back, we weren't familiar with each other, and we didn't talk much, so why, it seems so familiar, is it a wordless tacit understanding?! I would only look out the window in a daze all morning, I really don't know!! Wu Xiao!!

28 August 2017