"What do you mean, girl?" Xunyue looked at me in confusion and said, "The clean ones are self-purifying, and the dirty water is what they splashed on you, can you still go to the streets and alleys of the East and West City in person and break with those muddy people one by one?" ”

"You don't have to pay attention to the people, but my words are not nonsense." The corners of my mouth raised, and I said to the turbid moon, "Master Hou discussed with me early in the morning, and when I take care of everything, I will redeem myself for you, and then personally introduce you to a prominent and well-established member of the court as a godfather." At that time, if you have a good name, you will naturally have a good husband to ask for marriage! ”

"It's only been a while since you've been serious for a while, and you're making fun of me again!" Xunyue was so angry that she jumped on the stool, "I don't want a good name and a good husband, the Hou Ye treats me like a mountain, I have been a member of this Hou Mansion all my life, how can I forget the roots!" But the girl has become more and more strange recently, thinking that she is too disgusted with the slave and maid, and thinking of a way to drive the slave and maid away! ”

"Where is this, I also think that the girl's family wants to have a good home, so I just ask the Hou Ye for a favor." I saw that Xunyue seemed to be a little annoyed, so I had to persuade softly, "Okay, okay, it's not mine, I didn't take into account your feelings." In fact, although Hou Ye said so, there will really be a day in the future, and you will have to nod your head. Besides, you are still young, where are you going to leave the house in three moments? ”

"And say out of the house! Even if the girl is willing to be a slave, the slave is reluctant to give up the girl and the Hou Mansion! Xunyue stood up, her face getting redder and hotter. Girl, you don't understand, this hard work of being a slave and a maid is not in your identity. The master is heaven, if the master is a bad person, how can the slave and maid be noble! The slave and maid are not blessed, but they also cherish the blessings, saying that they are not blessed, because the slave and the maid have not been able to give birth to a good family, even if they are old in the future, they will worship their father and choose a son-in-law, and they will have to lose their life. As for the blessings, the Hou Ye was merciful, and the slave and maid asked themselves to be able to enter the Hou Mansion, which was really fortunate for three lives, and since the girl came, the life of the slave and maid has become more and more hopeful. With a master like you, the slave is willing to serve for a lifetime! The slave maid said this sentence before, and now she will not change her words, even if the slave maid becomes an adult in the future, thirty or forty people are old and yellow, and the slave and maid are still willing to serve the girl, and they can still say this sentence for a lifetime! ”

I was a little stunned for a moment, and my hand holding the steel bar trembled.

Turbidity's face was red and white, and a pair of eyes were wide open and flashing with tears staring at me. Seeing that she was anxious, angry and reluctant to be really angry with me, I remembered the time I spent with Shui Qing for no reason.

She always has the ability to do things that make me angry while saying for my good, but after getting angry, I always can't help but think of her goodness, and realize that no matter whether the way she expresses it is right or wrong, there is no doubt that she really loves me.

Thinking of this, I can't help but feel a sour feeling in my heart, maybe I'm becoming the second Shui Qing now, my biggest mistake is not to make a decision that I think is good for her for Xunyue, but in the bits and pieces of daily life, I subtly planted the seed of dependence on me in this girl's heart.

"Turbidity, I know what you're thinking. Maybe it is indeed inappropriate for me and Hou Ye to privately decide your future, but that is because we both feel that you deserve a better life. I pulled Xunyue back to sit down again, calmly stroked her undulating back and said, "Actually, you should know my character very well, I don't value glory and wealth, so what I want to give you is not a noble status and a privileged life, I just hope that you can have the opportunity to choose your own path in the future." In this imperial society, for a slave, the greatest happiness she can get may be the trust and favor of her master. But Turbidity, do you know that when you put your life in the mercy and compassion of others, you have lost the ability to see the direction of the road on your own. Your dependence on the Hou Mansion, including me, is actually not reliable, and they are not enough to support your happiness and joy for a lifetime! ”

"Girl... Your slave doesn't understand it. "Xunyue seems to understand whether she understands or not, "Since she was a child, she was brought up by her sister, and the slave and maid relied on her sister. Later, the slave and maid were sold into the Hou Mansion, and the slave and maid relied on the Hou Ye...... The slave is just a woman and has never studied, so she has no interest and no ability. What do you say rely on the slave and the maid do not understand, the slave and the maid only know that these are their own thoughts, only by thinking about you every day, towards you, the slave and the maid have hope, only the meaning of life! ”

"Then Turbidity, I asked. If one day, Lifu falls, and Master Hou and I are dead, and your sister in your hometown can't be found, what are you going to do? ”

"You..."Turbidity Moon lost her mind for a moment in my widening eyes, then she sneered and shook her head slightly, "No, the girl is bluffing the slave, how can this be ......?"

"I said what if, one day all these things happen?"

Seeing my serious expression, the smile on my face gradually faded. She stirred the skirt in a circle in her hand, and after a long time, she raised her head and said with a relaxed face: "If there is such a day, the slave and maid will simply wipe their necks and go down to the underworld to continue to serve the girl." The Hengzhu Marquis's Mansion is scattered, and martyrdom is also a matter of course. ”

"If I die, you will die with you, isn't this dependence?" I grabbed Turbidity's shoulder and shook it seriously, "Turbidity, you have to remember that a person can't do anything to hurt himself for anyone else at any time, martyrdom or something, let alone think about it again." Although you are a slave, you are also an independent and fresh life, and your parents gave birth to you, not to ask you to joke with your life casually! ”

"The slave's parents gave birth to the slave... But the slave is not still a slave now, even if they are reluctant, what can they do? Xunyue's tone was so light that it was distressing, "And you, girl, you don't worry about your friends every day, so are you dependent on them?" ”

"Of course not, the relationship between friends is trust and concern, but it is definitely not dependence." I stared into Turbidity's eyes and said in a solemn tone, "Friends are the support and courage for each other to live well, not the reason and excuse for giving up hope in life. That's what I'm trying to say, Turbidity, I don't want us to be a master-servant relationship, I want you to treat me as your friend. Friends sometimes rub and maybe separate, but as long as you think of your friends, you will always have the courage to move forward. ”

"Okay, good," Turbidity Moon grinned and said with a bright smile, "The slave maid has no friends since she was a child, and the slave maid only knows that when she thinks of the girl, the slave maid has the courage to go on!" ”

After a long time, it was already night.

I was a little discouraged, Turbidity Moon seemed to never understand what I meant, maybe in her world, I was no longer the protagonist of my own life, and the deep-rooted concept made me feel unshakable fatigue and helplessness. Turbidity Moon also seemed to be a little annoyed by what happened, and finally made a promise to me that no matter what happened in the future, she would not easily hurt herself.

In this way, I knew that there was no more room for her, so I had to let her go and move the charcoal basin into the warm pavilion. Despite all the resistance, the pace of time is always so fast and unstoppable. At bedtime, the turbid moon dragged and dragged me back to the warm pavilion. She took off my makeup and wide clothes as usual, and when she saw that I was always depressed, she pinched my shoulder as if soothing.

"Why does the girl look at the slave like this?" Turbidity made a face at me through the mirror, then turned to blow out the candle on the desk. "Don't worry, today's words have been written down by the slave and maid, since I promised you, the slave and maid will never break it."

"It's good to remember, never forget." I suppressed the sadness in my heart and said, "Don't put out all the candles tonight, leave one for me." ”

Xunyue was a little surprised, and then smiled sweetly at me again: "Yes." If the girl has no other instructions, let it be settled quickly, and the slave and maid will leave. ”

She took one last look around the room, made sure there was nothing wrong, and headed outside. When I got to the door and lifted the bead curtain, I seemed to feel a strange gaze, and looked back at me, who was still sitting in front of the dressing table. Her eyes narrowed into two narrow slits, and a clear smile poured out from them: "Sleep, see you tomorrow!" ”

The smile on the corner of his mouth had not yet reached the angle it should have, and the figure of Xunyue flashed away behind the screen.

The candle shadow flickered, and there was silence.

I sat in front of the dressing table for a long, long time.

I thought there would be a thousand kinds of reluctance, but I didn't expect that at this moment, my heart would be so lonely.

Looking around, the charcoal fire here is always so warm, the beds here are always so soft, and I have been living in this comfortable little world for a month.

A month, that's a long time......

But why when I think about it, the scene of the serious injury waking up in the Hou Mansion is so clear, as if it was just yesterday.

It's been a month, and I've been unconsciously familiar with every piece of masonry and every furnishing in this place. I adapted to the civilization of this world and learned the ability to live in this world. I don't know what kind of situation Shui Qing and them are like in this month?

Fortunately, I met Wen Zhao.

Without him, perhaps I would have indulged in the rich days of Hou Fuyi to reach out for food and open my mouth, or perhaps my determination to find everyone would be gradually eroded and compromised. Now that I have a reason and a way to leave the house, I can finally devote myself to finding everyone's whereabouts.

That's right, this does not mean the end of the end, but symbolizes the beginning of the journey.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but feel excited again. I looked out the window and the moon had moved to mid-heaven. I thought it was already time for the people to fall asleep and the soldiers were relaxed, so I got up and turned to the wardrobe and took out a Likuan tea vegetarian brocade collar daku, which was the first coat that the Hou Ye gave me, and the color was dark and elegant, which was most suitable for the upper body tonight.

Leaving evidence to cause trouble for Wen Zhao, I took out the golden dart from the makeup drawer and hid it in the cuffs.

Unfold the rice paper, but I don't know where to start. After thinking about it for a long time, I finally put down the brush stained with ink - since tonight is a farewell, I don't have to let Hou Ye remember and worry about it in the future.

Blowing out the candles and walking outside, I took one last look at the magnificent and elegant cottage, hesitated, and finally quietly opened the door and went away with tears in my eyes.